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im daMned

2005-04-29T20:03:00.000+08:00

i dunno wads wrong wif mi these daez...everyting seems to make mi upset ( of cuz except my dear lA)
im beginning to feel dat im realli not the type whu can study well lor...although i manage to get into jc without difficulty...i dunno how i do it oso la...im beginning to doubt my abilities...at a point wre my morale ish realli ultra low...no matter how much i study my grades jux sux!dunno why...

oh well sth made mi happi n sad...
we didnt get into the 2nd round for bball...but im happi cuz i dun nid to go for trg and now i got extra timeto study le =) another thingy that uPset mi is that we lost to acjc...i dunno why...my mAgiCal powers for 1st half of the match jux disappear after i went to the ladies during half time...den we lost.......den injured myself summore...dunno why the gal tried to snatch my ball den foul mi till i bang my head on the floor den headache aRhz...luCky free throw still got go in... =)

well dis morning i got scolded by mummy cuz of my result...they sux terribly...very streSs le...

...

2005-04-18T19:29:00.000+08:00

hMMm lets see when shall my uPdaTes stArt...

FridAe...
touGh dAe mAn...very tired le...den stiLL gota go for trg...siAnz...i got my pw resultz...2! gUd or bAd? okie la haha...den i during trg i was damn bored and suddenli bev shouted chubi gao wai yu...i was like okie...den seeing him behaving like so secretive...dun let bev hear his conversation on the phone...i began very pissed off...pluS the team got some gal i dun like den still hav to defend her...wahlAo even more siAnz...

on the wae back i was feelin better le...den i tot we will be going to his hse den he ended up wantin mi to go home...den i bu shuang again...i juX wanna acc him mah...den nvm la go home go home lorz no big deal...den we had a serious conversation at nite AGAIN~

but everything was okie le back to normal den the next dae we confirmed our date at adam's food centre...

e nxt dae...
i packed my notes and stuFfz for the whole aftErnOon hAven pack finish hahaz...but nvm left those little unimpt stuffs that is on my table...very messy...haha okie nvm whne i was abt to leave home...dear sae dun go out 1st left the two of us n edden...but nvm la jux go ahead cuz cant stand le wanna eat stingray and kangkong!!!

so dear came over to my hse 1st den it began to rain and i went to get darlin whu was at the bus stop...the rain was super heavy dat my jeans was all wet!!!!!i jUx bathe lehz!no choice lor hav to go home change again...on the wae back...i still got wet lorz...althou the umBrella was so BIG!!!! -__-" penGz diAoz...

den we left home together for adam's roaD! woo hOO! ordered stingray, kAnGkOnG and soTonG...edden ate 3 bowls of rice!!!!!!waH! so yuMMy...den we left the plAce and dear n i went to town n edden to amk...

we waited so loNg for 171 lorz.....den ended uo dance at the buS stoP and singing
oNe million green bottles hanging on the wall...
oNe million green bottles hanging on the wall...
when one green bottle happen to fall off
there's nine hundred ninty nine thousand nine hundred and ninty-nine green bottles hangin on the wall

haha...dancing on the streets...under the moonlight sing song summore haha so cute!!!
den we go heerens to tke da tou tie!!!!haha so nice...den darlin send mi home....

todae!
guYz n gals had their matches todae...
guys vs cJc : 41-39
yeah babY!
gals vs srJc : i dunno wad score but we lost...=(

disappoinTed la!hAiz...tml stiLL got chem test siaNz!gtA go le...i miss my dear!!!

above all

2005-04-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

above all powers
above all kings
above all nations and all created things
above all wisdom and all the ways of man
you were here before the world began

above all kingdoms
above all thrones
above all wonders the world has ever known
above all wealth and treasures of the earth
there no way to measure whats your worth

crucified
laid behind the stone
you live to die
rejected and alone
like a rose
trampled on the ground
u took the fall
and thought of me above all

(like a rose trampled on the groun
u took the fall and thought of mi above all)

uPdatin frm the past

2005-04-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

itZ been so loNg sinCe ive bLogged....mani thingyz hAppened in my liFe....i vaguely rmb each of them....

i can onli sae dis period of time ive been very busy can stressed up....everyting doesnt seened to go on smoothly....i dunno why...flunked my organic chem...and maths...barely scrape thru for my pHysiCz...mAn....life suX....

basketbAll is drainin all my energy...and wastin so much of my youTh...iT hAs coMe to an exTent that i dun think i can continue to love the sport....hav i plAyed too mUch and got sick of it? or isnt cuz of the training? i realli dunno....

im so tired.......im so stressed.....plus i dunno wad happened between my hubby and mi.....suddenly he tells mi our relationship is gettin from bad to worse....knowin the reasons last nite...i guessed itz realli my fault......mayb cuz im not stressed by my work and i m so tired from trgs....thrice a week.....everydae i onli get to go home after sunset...i realli had enuff of this i cant stand it animore......so much so dat i did things that hurt my darlin....without realising it.....i realli dun mean to....

no one understands how i feel....im so tied down by so mani commitments.....to the extent that im not doing good at anione of them.....my world is like tearin apart......im breakin down.....i dunno when dis nitemare will end cuz i dunno when itz my turn to get into woodbridge.....and remain mentally unsound~

i duno.....i get stressed up and worked up when i dun play well....hav i expect too much from myself? i realli dunno......everytime i go for trgin....i will get scolded by the stupid coach.....i dunno why he seems to be pickin on mi.....even if itz not mY fault.....even if itz my fault even if i did the wrong thing....he nid not scream and yell at mi wad.....his tone ish totally diff when itz other ppl.....or even if itz not my fault he will still put the blame on mi.....i realli wanna QUIT bball....i cant stand the face of the damn coach.....he ish so bias against mi and i dunno why.....mani a time i realli wanna tell ms lim that i dun wanna play in the competition animore....but i hav pple tell mi jux persevere for a little longer and it will be over....everytingy in there jux sucKz...

my academic results todae arent even good....and i realli worrie if i can make thru the a lvls this yr.....i did study for mi tests but i still dun understand why i cant do well for it to at least pass.....am i not the cut of such education system? i realli dunno.....it realli worries mi alot.....im so stressed up now.....i dunno wad wrong wif my bloody brain.....

also...dear and i had some probs....i dunno how it happen but dat realli affect mi a lot....ive been thinkin abt us dis 2 daez and i m realli troubled....come to think of it im realli not a gud galfren..... how wud a galfren hurt her boifren unknowingly? i shudnt vent my frustrations on him and try to be understandin cuz the both of us are going thru this very stressed and tired period of our lives...cuz its not jux him or mi going thru all these itz uS!!!!i jux pray for peace and wisdom man......lOOks like at dis period of time, before i break down, all i could do is to rely on GOd's strength.....

dear im realli sorri......

itZ cha'S bDae todae!

2005-02-27T09:10:00.000+08:00

earli in the morniNg...(yEstErDAE)...woke up and went to rJc to waTch dear plAy frenLy....waH walK sUPer lOnG from the bUS stOp aRhz cuZ the rI siDe gAtE not oPen...nVm when i reaCh i wAs lIke lost and didnt nOe wre to go cUZ the sch wAs like suPer big oSo lorz...and new!very nice aRhz...riCh sch!so i caLLed dear he didnt piCk uP den i call mR woNg den he sae come out to drive mi in cuZ iTz rAininG...so i wait lOrx...wAh wait very loNg lehz...den i waLk along roAd den sAw diS rJ student den ask him wre iS the baLL court den...i walK walk walk...den called dear he ask mi dun mOve...go bAck to wre i was...but den at thAt time i oready saw the bbAllerz in the canteen haha...

den i hAd breAkfaSt in the cAnteeN...wAh super ex aRhz sAndWiCh aNd a fresh miLk 2 buCkz plUs oreAdi...bUt the sAndWiCh not bAd lA...den they rain stop le we when to the court...

guyz wArm up anglin and i walK aRoUnd and tok....hEez...

gUyz mAtch le...plAy plAy plAy...coAch kiP nAggin....kAoz sAe my darlin nOt gud...den he didnt get to pLAy mUch~ buT we stiLL woN!!!! 59-39 not a bAd score...hEEz...

we won le bUt the gUyz stiLL wannA plAy den coAch ask for a extRa perioD...so play till quiTe late lA...den we took a tAxi hOMe wif pApA zhiHoNg and wei Zheng...

go hOme bathe le orh orh...den took a tAxi to orchaRd to bUt giFtS...boXers for cHoNgTak, pUzzle and gAme for chA...and got carol de oso...haha...

den we headed to mAriNA for stReAmBoAt...oVEr thErE got lIve seafOOd den hAd to clean the craBz oUrSelves...eeeeeee i duN dAre to pUll the sHell from the craB cuZ it was stiLL moving like so cRuEl lidat lehz...den the unCle help den i do the cleanIng insiDe lorz...den bev cleaN the pRaWnz (liVe oSo) den she pUt wateR and the prawn juMp oUt of the coNtAinEr.......haha...

everythingy was done den we go cOOk lorz...den coOk prawnz lehz...they were stiLL alOve when we pUt into the soUp and hot plAte den u see them stRuGGlin wAh i felt so cruEl...they shUdnt be treated diS wae lorz...imAgiNe someoNe were to pUt us into boiLing watEr and hOt platE and let u diE as u get cOOked....terriBle!

bUT the diNner wAs still very niCe aftEr diNner we went to ciNe for ddr den i go hOMe le...dear accompAnY mi at my hSe till 11 plUS and took a tAxi hOme...sPent lotz of monEy on tAxi todae...

todae iSh chA'S offiCiAl bDae!

hAppI bDae to u
hAppie bdae to u
happie bDae to chiA linG
hApi bdaE to u!!!!

diS evening the progRammE ish to waTch anthoNy and cleOpAtra in sch! =)
nAsh iSh aNthonY toniTE haha...

wAd the f***

2005-02-22T18:27:00.000+08:00

iM sO bLoodY uPset...
siMply cuZ i loSt mY wAllet...alThOu i wAs dAmn lUcky to nOt hav my iC in thErE, bUt wAd the heLL i loSt 80 buCkz!f**K the aSshOle whu tooK mY wAllet and did not retUrn mAn!...i curse dat aSs to be as desPo for moNey FOREVER and for all hiS genERationZ!!!cuRse dat wheNever dat fella hAv a siNgle bit of cAsh his/her( thou i feel dat itz goTTa be a blAngla man!) waLLet woUld be lOSt and let him feel the pAiN of lOSiNg a wAllet!!!!daMn hiM daMN hiS familY in hiS whole faMiLy tree!!!esP the paReNtz...nV tEach thEir sOn proPerlY!iF they cant teach hiM well den why giv birth to hiM to waSte food and resourcEs?!

okIe i nOe i soUnd daMn meaN but wAd the hell lOrz iM sAd aNd piSsed!!!piSsed oFF tOtAlly!!!

oH greAt stupId iDiot u did very well in make mi uPset...dun let mi noe whu the heck ur!or i'LL riP aPaRt!!!!!irritAtinG freaKin aSshOle!<----piEcE of shiT!!!! u cAuSed mi to feel upset the whOle dae u cauSed mi to waste mY teaRS!my waLLet bEttA be reTurnEd or be prepAred tO get real desPO for money!!!!bLoodY f***ker!!

pS. sOrri gUyz...but iM realli...hAi u shouLd nOe...i realli niD to let ouT~

hMMm...im back fiNaLLi

2005-02-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

vAlentiNe's dae...
well i noe iT hAd been over for so loNg...liKe 1week?
but nvm la...
well my seXy baby hAd been siCk for quiTe a few dAez and that pAst few daez i had been going to hiS hse to accOmpAny hiM And take care of him...well pArtLy cuz i need to see him haha mIss hIm too mUch mAh no choiCe larz...sO sAdlY...we cant go out on vAleNtiNe's dAe for our romATiqUe celebratiON...sO nvm we stiLL enJoyed oUrselves very mUch stAyin at hoMe...well not my hOme of cuZ...we did our oWn cOokin...well actualli darlIn didnt cook haha...i did...he juX helPed out heres anD tHeRe...we hAd fuSulli for diNner...wiF white creme muShroOm sAuce and bAcon...
caNdlEliTe diNner?
YES!!!
cUZ i mAde hIm a cAnDle pLAte to hoLd canDles
wHy?!
cUZ we intenD to go to esplAnAde wif out pAcked dinner, sit bY the bAy aNd enjoY the breeze and each other's coMpAny and i wanted caNDleliTe dinner so daTz wre i got the iDea frm...

so dAt nite we lited the candles and hAd oUr diNNer in the roOm wre we coUld haV oUr private coNversatioNs and time spent together and most imPtlY the rm is dark haha (dun nid think so mUCh if the rm isnt dark lite candle oso not romantique)
after dinner we snUgGle in bed chatTin and all...and fell aslp together...

haha...well thou our 1st valentine wasnt one dat iS spent at a restAurant wif delicious food and romAntIque aMbience...nor wre there soothin music...but i certainly did enJoyed myself...well at least the dinner i cook was yummy too...dun believe ask my darlin...well...a valenTine like dat ish more special den anione else's withoUt us spendin too much muNny...and i believe not many coupLes would spend their 1st vdae lidat...so iTz memorable! haha...mUAckzz to mY sweetest huBbY!

well before vdae...i went to chen laoshi's hse on saturdae...hiS baby iSh so cute!!!haha...and we played a very fun board game tat requires teamwork to complete and we are the 1st team dat lAoShi had seen to comPlete the mission in 30 mins!!!haha...oH yA...lAoShi's red bean sOuP wAs yuMMy!haha...too bAd didnt get to see my shi mu...

den after dat i meet sHuzhen at comPass poinT to bUy some stUffz to mAke cOOkies for dear on vdae...but we met on the lrt instead!haha wad a coincidence...so we went shoppin together and den go edden's hse...and we walked one big round before reachin his place! -_-" he even saw uS but he didnt call us...hAiz...nvm doH den we plAy and hAv diNner at hIs hse so fuLL! den dear came le... =) yAy mY bAby hiS fiNAlli here...biG hugz...and pei him hAv hiS diNner lorz...den at nite he went to kAnGli's hSe to stAy over...

well i was quite uPset dat he didnt even realise that i msged him 1 hr late...so bz gamblin...argHhh...oNe whole hr lorz...hAiz dun wan tok abt it...
but den dat stUPid darlin...dunno why when i upset den he can still cheer him up jux lidat de lehz so irritating...and the most irritatin part ish he still managed to do it whren he dun even noe wad im upset abt...... -_-"

well faSt forward again......
yestErDAe yJ hAd oUr bAzAar again...
and dis yr s1 pple r sellin drinks, strawberries and banana coated wif chocolate condense milk...and of cuz our bball game!well it was a success! and i had a bz dear going around askin pple to buy our food and drinkz...haha and the strawberries were big and yuMmy!!!!haha...den in the evening when we can leave sch le...dear and i had my dinner at Bk...when we entered there was dis auntie creatin a scene there...and suddenli u hear "F*** u!" wow wad a word to sae to a men...didnt noe wad caused the quarrel so dun care and jux carry on buyin food lorx...

den eat eat eat den the auntie was like shoutin again...dunno wadz happening den the manager come out den dunno wre her husband pop out den dis auntie had a set meal served to her...wah free food!!!create a scene and get free food.....

den when everyting ish settled.....ke ai de mS ong walKed in haha...she so cute den got mS ng and mS lee den mr nG...so we finished our dinner den sae bye bye den saw mS lydia lim outside...with her bf haha...den dear walked him to he bus stop and i went home...

todae nuttin much onli dat i missed my dear alot and i went oUt wif my auNts in the aFternOon...we were like awlkin ard aimLessly...haiz...walk here walk there for so long end walk back to mArche to hAv our dinner...yuMMy doH... and very fuLL haha...den after we paid and left mArche there's dis weddin bouTique oPpoSite the exit...dat gown and disPlAy iS gorGeouS!!!!!wana wear lehz...dear....i wan wear dat gown!!! haha...

wadz upz...doc...

2005-02-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

omg mY dad iS oUtSide luFfin nOnStop!wadz so fuNni man...

nvm...well checkin the dAte of mY lAst blog iTz beeN weeKz alMoSt a mOnth siNce i apPear onliNe le...wah dAtz loNg!hMMM let mi recall all the wae bAck...

eHHh i duN remember a siNgle thingy...
haha...

guess nuTTin muCh haPpenEd for the end of jAn...

hMM letz tok abt feb den...weLL i hAd my 2nD moNTh aNni wif my sweetest hUbBy...mR chuBi...haha...and brenDa's bdae oN the same dae!sO the clz bought he cake and the galz mAde her a X-stitch sth lidat...but wad'z irritatin waS...the guyz got training!!!dAmn!
weLL nvm i ended uP goInG to bRas bAsaH to get DeaR DeAr's vdae present haha...not goNNa sae i wad i got for him...bleahz...den go hoMe do lorz...hEEx finiShed iT dat niTe...haha...now left wif The sweet part of my gift not done...haiz...dunno got time notz...tml mux go bUy the stUffz arHz!

hMM den we haD X-country oN CNY eve...kAoz...damn stUpiD lorz...eve lehz!stiLL hAv to go eAst coAst run...came in 16th...2nd for galz team...wah...siAnz...i shuD try to suStAin...dat the end...cuz pain pAin...got stITch -_-" haiz...ming zhonG zu ding la...

nvm...den dad was waitin for mi afTer hiS joG den we went home together...den mY sweetie had to go back wif the gang...end up they went to cafe cartel!oiE i wan go eat!!!darl u gooD!!no bring mi go...

hMMm den comes new year...

1st dae
went to relative hse as usual...sianz...plAyed bLackJack...woN 14 buCkz...haha *blinG blinG blinG* haha...

2nd dae...
morniNg YonGxiAn kOrkor came to bAi niAn...den afTErnOon went to mY huBBy'S hSe den go mY aH ma hSe den go chA'S hSe...den go my hse...haha LIKE very bz horz?haha not reali la...

iTz like aftEr 50 plus hRs den get to see mY huBBY!i miSs hiM so mUch lorz...2 daez lehz...so long...hMM den we plAy mAjoNg at my plAce and daidee...waH won aloT lehz...bUt the chiPz cant coNvert into mONey de...haha...wasted -_-"

3rd dae...
so stuPiD still hav to go sch...bUt end uP i took earli leave sneak into my hUbBy'S room and watch hiM orhorh...cUz im not feelin well...haha...den stAy will like 11 plUs den go hOme...they were plAyIn blAckJack at nIte andt he rest of the time was spent on slpIn...haha...

we oso got do my vdae present la...den pUt at hiS hse...nice lorz haha i like...very unique gift heez thX huBBy! i loVE u!!!!!

wad the...

2005-01-31T09:52:00.000+08:00

okie ive jux been to bev blog and read her post and i was like...
nvm lorz...i knew she was pissed wif mi dat dae but i didnt noe dat everyting turned pout to be like dis!i noe itz cuz of some simple qn that trigger off zhen's tears but it realli hav nuttin to do wif whether who belongs to s1 and whu dun wad...i dun understand why dis will hav to pull everyone from s1 into the issue...everyone noes dat zhen ish like dat...everyone noes dat she doesnt wanna retAIn...rite from dae one...since she wanna stay den let her be...if not why does she wanna go thru so mani ruBBish papers aniwae?!she wad she wans is to go back down to j1 she wud hav done so wad...

alrite mayb my expression wad wae too much den...but itz onli natuRAl dat when u see zhen cryin and den ask wad exactly happened...mY 1st tots wre..."oH nO...why did u ask dat qn?"
den comfort her and encourage her to study hard...

thou that qn may sound dat innocent but itz realli sensitive...
iTz like crashin her sayin that she realli cant do it...like no matter how hard she studies it wud be a waste of effort...yesh she might struggle...but whu can confrim dat she will definately attain her A's if she stay...she will oso have to study very hard in j2 wadz...but wif a stronger foundation...

arHhggg....
i duNNo...i juz dun wan suCh minor minor stuFFz to affect frenShips...sistashiPz or wad ever ships there ish~

bev i noe ur like so Damn uPset wif my expressiOn on that dae...but i realli mean no harm...mY tots are all noted down...u shud noe wad were runnin in my mind dat dae...no one saez dat u n cha are no longer not part of s1...buT mAyb oUr concerns for zhen had gave u that wrong idea...we all noe how loose her tap can be...dat naturalli makes us take care of her whenever things happen...iT realli has nuTTin to do wif the rest of the s1 pple...and that we didnt treat u as part of us...

Sorries for hurtin u...

the past week

2005-01-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

hMMm mAyb i realli onli can uPdate my blog week le...iM like so Bz...
the year isnt a gOod stArT...im like alwaez siCk...1st is coUGH den now iS flu...there iSnT a dae im like healthy and withOuT ani viRuS in mi... -_-"

hMMm let mi recall wad happen...actualli realli nuttin much juz kip stUdyin again...my life is so not interestin...haha mOndae had trg...coach took us...den we celebrated anglin and mummy joyce bdae...the choco cake was yuMMy...(i choose one lehz) hahaz
yAh on that dae...dad and mum came to sch to pick mi up...i didnt noe cuz didnt see the msg they sent mi...aiyoH still wanna eat wif dear de...but no choice had to go home wif them...den my honeybaBy hAd to eaT alone wif the gUyz...JoYce mUmmy told mi...dat nite he was so lonely =( walKed behind alone...oHhh sorri dear...sAyAngz...den my baby sae no hAv mi for dinenr gAn jUe gUAi guAi de...haha...well no choice lehz...dArlin...if poSsible i will NEVER let dat hAppen again...unlesS got soMe uNforseen cirCuMstAnces occur den no chOIce la...

wed is angLin bdae...bOuGht he a necKlAce...and i quite like it too...itz a bUtterfly...yellow coloUr de...haha

yesterdae, thurs got streamboat at brenda's hse =)
i had lesson till 4.30 den pei dear till like 4:50 den go his hse orh orh while he still hav bio lect...
hEEx den dear came back and kiss mi on cheekx...haha woke mi up...but he sae he reach home quite long le...jux wanna kiss mi before he go bathe...end up he woke up...haha...

after dat we went to bren's hse for steamboat...yummy...ms ong was there too...den at nite dear sent mi home...wanted him to stay over but dunno whether mama allow not end up didnt...nvm bah tml dear ish comin to look for mi...acc mi study and stUffz =) i miSs him!!!!

thiS week

2005-01-16T19:59:00.000+08:00

woAh iT had been a buzy and tiring week for mi...sO shAg sO mAni work to do sO mAni work nOt doNe...siAnz lorz...dun even hav the time to pA tor... =( hAiz whole week no time coMe oNlIne oSo...reaChl hOme le dUn feel lIke doIng anIwork... den doh liAoz...zz like piG le...morniNg waKe uP agAin and continue wif lIfe...siAnz...i mIss mY dear...i jUx lOve him so mUch!
1 week nO update and my poSt iS so short u can iMaGine how boing my life wAs for the past week bAh...realli duNNo wAd...and yAh got wad lAme coLlege feat on wed whiCh wAs a total waste of mY time!

oRientAtioN wEek sO bz

2005-01-09T23:18:00.000+08:00

hMMm itz bEEn very lOng since i blog le....haha ive been verybz wif the orientation for the freshies...

Mondae was one boring dae...so mani admin stuffs to do...sianz diaoz...
haha...den earli morning stand there grEet all thE frEshies and gave them inStructionz...sianz we were like playin all the wae lorz...

tUe was worse i had to teach mass dance for continuously 4 hr...tired...den had games i was incharge oso den at butterhill wif sy...bz makin the detergent...tryin to make the "hill" slippery...den after dat went of to teach mass dance again... =( hot n tired....

wed wasnt much was wastin time...all dae...den had lunch wif dear in sch...eat noodles...den dear went home le...went to popular after sch and made the frAME to put the X-stitch den i spoilt the thing stupid mi lorz

thurs was pretty much the same.....sianz...wanna play ball wif dear de den he played all dae long...den when i bz he juz released frm chem test...dear played till very late n tired but he still send mi home...dat silly boi...he sae he played for like 7 hrs?

fridae was cca exhibition jam n hop!!!
at nite jammin was fun!!!damn high arhz...danced like dunno wad...haha den at nite dear had trg den tired n i will end late so asked him go home 1st...1st month anniversary spent liddatz....

saturdae was slpin dae earli afternoon went to dear hse slp till evening den had to go the cc there hlp out wif the edusave presentation...heex...at nite den cindy, sy, cha, bev, dear n mi went for supper...

todae was sucky....didnt get to c dear...den had to pia hmwk like hell...shag but still got maths not done...haha.....yay tml cn c dear le =)

promise mi a wonderful future wif u

2005-01-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

dis is my 1st new yr wif dear and i love it...juz love to spend time wif him...
sorrie bev we had to puSh awae the kbox...well dear didnt realli wanna go mah den my voice like shit...cant sing lorx...promise u next time we go kaez...so sorriez

NEW YR EVE to NEW YR
i went to dear hse in the afternOoN to pUt stuFfz at hiS hse...den we cooked the noodles cha bought for us from taiwan...yummy...both oso not bad but i prefer mine...thou dear's hong shao niu rou oso not bad...hahaz...jux nice lorz...he thinks that his ish nIcer...hahaz
after lunch...as usual...hugz and kisses...den we plAy ps...haha i brought my ps games to his hse oso...so mani games...but we onli play puzzle fighter...haha dear lost to mi...XUN!haha let him win lorx...but not bad la...he wasnt that hard to win too...haha...cuz i teach him how i play the game...afTer dat my dear the sleepyhead wanna orh orh den we took a nAp...5 loh...laze ard den 5.30 den go bathe...den dear hlp mi to dry my hair...so gud...haha den we go meet his sec sch frenz for dinner....y i go?i dunno jux wanna be wif him...so we met dem at the mrt...elna, zi yang and another guy...forgot his name...

reached marina le...den xiaoyuan and clement(his bf) came...they both oso very cute =) den i saw a familar face...Kangli =) as usuAl...still very cute and pretty...haha...den we ate steamboat...raining oso...=S den the other clzmates started coming yupz...dear kenna suan by elna haha...(actualli serve him rite...everytime suan others de haha) afTer dat dear and i went to xiaoyuAn's hse...but we took our time to stroll there, pass by 7-11 buy titbitz...at her hse we looked at some picz...got kang and bi very close de...yuPz...hMmm...nuttin to sae...juz dat im not jealous la...haha he's mine le...we waited quite long lehz...elna dey all not heres yet...den we wait till very tired and slpy...den go back home...

bathe le den not tired le lehz...den wait tv awhile le den orh orh haha...morning 5:30 am i woke up and i saw dear lOokin at mi...wah scare mi arhz...hahaz...den kiss a while and fell aslp again...sorri i very piGgy...11am i woke up and look at dear as he slp...haha so cute lorx...den i coughed and woke him up...oPpz...sorri dear...den kisses and hugz...and went back to slp...2pm his mummy knock knock ask us to wake up for lunch...den after lunch we sat on the bed and chat...said a lot of stuffs....dear ish so sweet...i love u...

hubby...

jux wanna let u noe dat ur juz so wonderful...

i wanna thank u for giving mi everyting...

for the unforgetable nite i spent wif u,

ur cares and concerns,

the love u showered upon mi,

and all the securities i nid...

u make mi love u more and more each dae...

every min and sec spent wif ish jux so special...

dey will alwaez remain in mi...

and u've brought mi nuttin but joy...

i've nv regret being urs...

and i will nv regret fallin in love wif u...

cuz i wish that the very next moment u could be by my side...

cuz i nid u so...

i wan to...

listen to all the sweet stuffs u whisper into my ears...

luff at all ur lame jokes...

spent the rest of my life wif u...

doing all the wonderful things together

walk thru our future happily...

lovin each other

*muackz*

i dun wanna spend any christmas without u...dear

2004-12-26T15:04:00.000+08:00

christmas eve...
our 18th dae...

ive not seeN dear for 3 daez alreadi...
went to his hse earli in the morning...cuz i juz couldnt slp...
we spend our time huggin and chattin...
watchin mvp...
i miss him so much even more than i ever imagined
we fell aslp together after lunch and woke up at 5:30
had to leave for bren's church...but im realli slpy no choice...

i had a great time there but too bad dear wasnt wif mi...
it could hav been betta wif his presence...
we had stingray and kangkong for dinner after church
and zhen and i shared ice kacang again...yummy i eat pink she eat brown...
jux nice...went back and chat in the phone wif dearest till christmas hahaz...

25th dec itz christmas!
our 19th dae

went to kor church in the morning to witness his baptism
but didnt have the time cuz his baptism was after the sermon...so could stay
sorri korkor...
went back home fed the dogs
left home to meet dear (yay!)
went shoPpin for dd's Christmas giFt...
bought him a tee
den we had our lunch at suShi tei
yuMmy...thx dear...
continued shoppin but we didnt jux wanna shop...its like boring lorx...
took a train to marina sQ.
bought tix for movie!
our 1St mOvie toGethER!!!

time : 4:3o - 6:35
Movie : mEet the fOckers

thru out the movie i was tearin...not cuz of the movie cuz my eyes were painful...
mayb cuz of the lites in there too bright le...
when the movie started dunno y dark dark my eyes still pain...

dear thankz for everyting...
sorries i didnt tok much...dunno wad to sae lehz...
but i still did enjoy myself...
i love u

oPPz im late suPpose to meet peixi they all at 6:3o at mArina bAy...
dear send mi there (thx darlin i love u)
and reached at 7:oo soRri guyz...
had our steambOat den acc the guyz go watch dem play billard...
reached home at 11 plus...12
mum's not hapi...hAiz...y stiLL got curfew?! im 18 nxt yr le lors....

dear play majong...dat nite...was quite upset...
he promised not to play de lorz...
i dun mind him playin larz...
but how can they make him play lidat...
dey surely noe that he ish not supposed to play de lorx...
haiz...suan le bah...

让我爱你(战神结尾曲)

2004-12-21T14:01:00.000+08:00

大s：没有起伏的情绪因为你出现后划破平静震撼我已紧封闭的心冰山河雪在融解

仔：回到初次的相遇风在吹一个人独自美丽灰的天空为何没有表情你的心相遇

大s：就让我爱你没有了自己

仔：残破的光影黑暗中深深吸引

绝对地就算生命所剩无几

合唱：只要拥抱瞬间的默契

大s：就让我爱你证明有奇迹

仔：再狂野的心灵魂的深处有你我愿意放弃世界微笑而去

合唱：幸福和缘却在一起

大s：过去总是挥不去

仔：再坚强记忆仍像恶梦不醒

大s：我的泪水淌过你的天空

仔：雨下不停心好痛风像画笔看着我你的容颜尽在风的前头

大s：我的心划出第一次的彩虹

合唱：因为你我相信

大s：就让我爱你没有了自己

仔：残破的光影黑暗中深深吸引

绝对地就算生命所剩无几

合唱：只要拥抱瞬间的默契

大s：就让我爱你证明有奇迹

仔：再狂野的心灵魂的深处有你我愿意放弃世界微笑而去

合唱：下一个世纪让我爱你……

=)

2004-12-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

when was the last time i blogged?i dun rmb le...cuz all that was on my mind was my dearest bibi~hMmm...wAd had happened dis few daez?nuttin much bah...was usual...we spent our times happily =) enjoyin each other's company...

18th dec =)

i brought dear to church for my church's little christmas funfair...but its for kids...nvm la...we jux play along lorx...dear enjoyed himself there and that realli brightens my dae =) love ya dear!we didnt stay long...left after we finished the gamez...and got a precious moments calender...(oHhh i forgot to bring to dear's hse yest.!)

we went to bishan...had lunch...at pastamania...heex...creamy chicken!dear de so watery...hahaz...den we walked ard j8...a lot of new stuffs but the place ish still very sianz...hMmm mayb sec scH dat time go theRE too ofteN le bah....dear wanna watch movie...but dun hav gud movies lehz...den no gud time...cannot watch...oHhh...sayangz...den i went to get mummy a piggy that she likes... =) that'z for Christmas!hahaz...

19th dec

oHhh im such a bad gal...i didnt go church again...very tired arhz...i noe itz noT a gUd excuse bUt im realli tirEd mAh =( so i did croSs stitcH till the afTeRnOOn 12 plus 1?i headed dwn to orchaRd to get soMe christMas giFts!esp for my dear de...if stiLL dun bUy mi no chanCe to get it le...after dat...i went ot yishun to find dear.....cuz i miss him too much le!!!!!!i wanNa see hiM lehz...den dear's christmas secret was found out again hahaz...i was correct!PUZZLE!itz even done le...hahaz...he ish so sweet lorx...*huGz* thx dear...

that nite i stayed for dinner...yuMmy...nice food...he peel the prawns for mi...oHhh...he's very gud horx...cuz i dun like to do the peelin mah...so dun eat prawns den he do it for mi...thou not for the 1st time...hEex.....

20th dec...

earli morning dear play mj...so after i woke up...stay at home a while le den go to his hse acc him lorx...poor thingy dear lost money...no bling bling le...den we when to sch for frenly....woah...jux love it when i watch him play bball lorx...so shuai...hahaz...oPpz...dear realli gud lorz...we won A.I but den ish muz win de lehz...so ok lorx...at nite we didnt eat dinner cuz we're not hungry so dear jux send mi home lorz...

BUT dear lost his wallet...he dropped it on the bus... =( dear realli sway yest. haiz...he was so upset lorz... =( he so tired le still muz go report dis and that lorx...den the police sae i.c lost jux so SIR buildin sae lost can le lorx....kAoz muz be he lazy do report lorx...i.c lost muz report police de lehz...haiz sad lehz...i cant be wif dear when he nidz mi the most~ 对不起宝贝!

21st dec...

dear ish playin mj now le bah...jux wish him luck lorz...den he can cover the loss for losing his wallet =) goodie gOodie luck dear...den i stay at home rot =S

my kor's bdae todae

2004-12-17T18:11:00.000+08:00

hapie bdae to u

hapie bdae to korkor

happi bdae to u

i miss my dear lots arhz...

yesterdae we meet up in the afternoon and i went ot his hse for lunch

his mummy cook for mi de...heex...

after dat we went for trg...and i played bball lorx...

played abc wif mr wong...

yest he no form lehz...won him once...den others lose by a bit onli hahaz...

tried to get 10 free throws in in a row...but i failed

highest record onli 8!

haiz...but gud wae to train my shootin...

when the guys used the court i studied chem...

wait for them to finish trg dear and i hurried off for dinner...

the fish and chips we craved for daez...haha

veri nice! yuMmy!

deAr sent mi home...poor thing he tired till cant slp...

thx dear...

for everyting u've done for mi...

i realli appreciate it...there is nuttin i can do to thx u for everything...

but a promise dat i will be wif u

now till forever...

to hav our dreamz fufilled...achieving it together

cuz i love u

p.s: kangli...link mi in ur blog bah...and leave ur blog add in my chatterbox =)

heex...ma fan u le...everytime hav to tell my dear wad i wrote herez......

sweet lunch wor...

2004-12-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

earli mornin went to sch for trg...wah sianz onli zhen and i againz...
haiz...wadz the heck is wrong wif the team?!
didnt do much lorz jUx conCentrated more oN shootin and stuffs...
didnt get that physical cuz zhen run till puke le...guess she cant tke it lorx...2 person...
how to train?!
after dat dear came to sch to pick mi up...
go buy mushroom soup, fresh milk and baguette
go his hse make ai xin lunch...dear went to bathe while i make the soup
he come out le asked him to make garlic bread den my turn to bathe...
xiang xiang...
by the time i out can eat lohz den we sit and enjoy ur food lorx
after dat dear wash the stuffz
wah...so nice...i cook he wash...heex...
den we put all the saga seeds we collected into the bottle...
chatz...hugz...and watch sesame street...
ELMO! hahaz...
until dear hav to go trg le...den we send him to sch haha...play abc wif mr wong
wahlao lose to him!bu shuang!
den chat wif ms tan and hlp mr Goh before going back...
yawnz so slpy!

our 2nd date...6th dae

2004-12-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

earli morning as usuAl la...go church...
meet dear at toa payoh at 1pm...
he met chiun cher on the train
den very cute...dear alight the train and i boarded the train...
end up we didnt meet and hav to tke the next train...

reach le orchard...we went to eat modanyaki...den drank lemonade from auntie annie...
den go walk ard...lookin for korkor's bdae present...haha
den shop heres and there...
the 37 degrees at far east dun hav animore of the t-shirt i wanna get for kor...
so hav to go heerens again...
thru out our shoppin i realli enjoyed myself alotz...(thx dear...)
we went to tke photo sticker...new machine wors...haha nice picz taken...
den went to collect my t-shirt...
haiz...2nd yr buy 37 degrees t-shirt at heerens for kor le...
den we go cine for BK cuz i hunGry again...
on the wae out...we met deBB dear the traffic lites...
when crossin, i met my dearest peixi!!!
i miss her so much...haha
so we went walked back and chat awhile...so long no see le...
den we went to bK...nO cheeZestiCkx?! agAin!!!
bK not sellin cheezestiCkz le huhz...everywhere oso dun hav so dear bought mi hersheys sundae pie...wah very sweet...dun like lehz...but dear buy de...i like lorx...contridicting horx...whu cares...thou i dun like sweet stuffs since ish dear buy de i will like de...
den deBb dear waLked inand mSg mi to go bK find her...
den i replyed her...lOok to her left...she saw mi and we broke out laughin haha...
she pass mi the christmas invitation card...to the celebration at fort cannin...
dear sae he will go wif mi =) so happiex...
den we continue shoppin lorx...and bought a gift for shuzhen...
cuz...
its her bdae todae!!!
hAppi bDae zhen zhen!!!!!
shop very long arz...heres and theres...actualli wanna go bishan watch kor perform for funKamAniA X de...leg pain le dun wanna go de go home lor...
dear sent mi home... =)
and bathe le herez im here bloggin...haha...

thX for everythingy dear...cant wait for tml to come...den i can cya le...muackz

OuR 1St dAte...5th dae

2004-12-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

Venue: FORT CANNING PARK...
Activity: PICK SAGA SEEDS (wah so romantique...so sweet)
Time : 11 am (tHx dEar f0r waking uP eaRli for mi...)

i reached quite earli so i went to get some food 1st den go to the station to meet dear...
walked to fort canning park...
very nice...so romantique wor...whu saez pa tor mux go for movies, shoppin and food de?
dear and mi walked in the park hunting for saga seeds and lOokin ard...chit chattin...
abt wAd?
our future and stuFfz lorz...so tian hor...hahaz...
we walKed quite a distAnce...and decided to walk to the ROM...
not to get married la...
but there got quite a few saga trees mah...
walk...walk...walk...pass by the fort canning centre
we saw some tcs celebrities filming...
den there got saga seeds to pick so we pick lorx....
den it start to drizzle...and the filming crew packed their stuffs and left the place...
dear and i were still pickin happily
until it started to rain real heavily...so we ran to the nearest shelter (bAd moVe!)
draNk oUr waTeR and cleaned oUrselves abitz...
muMmy msg mi to go shoppin together but im stucked in the rain how to go?
wait lors...
when the rain was not dat heavy le i suggest we run to the fort canning centre...(bad move....sorriez dear)
as we run...the rain got heavier...when we reach the shelter...the pple there...having their food was like...WOAH!
guess they tot we were a crazy couple...
den we went to the toilet to clean up
saw a taxi...dear went out to stop it so that we can get out of there...so ROM idea was put off le...(soRrI Uncle tAxi driver....we wet ur car)
so we went to OA bAckery to hav our lUnch...(itz a cafe)
order speghetti...mi bacon dear ate beef de...
nice lehz...den we sit and chat...(sorri to the workers in that cafe...we wet ur chairs)
after dat we go walk walk awhile den go home...wah buS very cold...
deAr oso go hOme dat time very cold huhz...HUGz...
at home le...i called dear and we chat while he's on the wae hOme...haha
den he go bathe den chat again...den go tke a nap till at nite go eat dinner wif mummy...
go home do a bit work and chat on the phone again...haha...

I LOVE U DEAR

o712 to 1o12

2004-12-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

6.5o
waken...
mUmMy came in took sOme stuffz anD left the roOm
i tried to slp...but cant...wAs thinkin of him...
so i lie chuang...

7.2o
eventualli i woke up anD took my oWn sweet time to wash up and stuffs...
acc dAddy to watch diScovery chaNnel in the mornin...
crOcz...vipers...electric eels...dogz...
i've learnt a lot but i think i forgot all of dem le
discovery channel ish realli gud!
esp when they hav documentaries on animAlz...my fav!

1o.2o
reached his hse...
sat by the bed and watch him slp...
den he sae i look at him slp he cant slp...haha...
den lay dwn by his side...
tang tang a while...he on the tv...
we watched mvp qing ren...den he brush teeth and ate his brekfast...
after the show he wanna slp again (0inK OinK!)
so i off the tv and watch him slp again...
ended up chattin...hahaz...

11.35 (dear sae de)
we became a couple =)

was it 1 plus 2?
"zi mo...gor tai..." tAk come le...
we had our lUnch...tAste not very gUd...nvm lA...hungry le...betta den nuttin...
hiS sistA woke up le...
her laKsa no egg...den she bu shuAnG hahaz...so kE ai...
finished eatin go back to his room and plAyed mj...
he ding mi!!!bleaHz...

3 plUs...
left hiS hse and met ce-yi and his last time tuition teacher, mr neo...
went to get satAy and otah...
headed to chalet...wah far lehz...

4 plUs...
yay reach le...
check the stUffz a bit den plAy mj again...ce-yi mr neo, tak and dear...
i sat by his side and watch him plAy...
den the rest arrived... =)
oNe round dear won 50 buCkz...hAo qianG =)

at nite...
bbq time =) lots of stuffs to eat...so nice so fun...but too bad the teachers didnt come hahaz....
was kinda tired lorx...so went to bathe and sat dwn to watch tv wif dear...
half wae thru...i fell aslp...
mayb was cuz i woke up earli in the mornin...
so we went upstairs to slp...

i forgot wad time le...
we woke up...was in bed chattin again...
morning edden came up again...kAlailai was still aslp...
forgot wad happened and edden and kalai was plAyin le...haha
bit edden's head~
den we slp again...haha...

9 plUs
woke up to get ready to go to wild wild wet!
yay!can go out play le!!!
woke tak at 10...and left the chalet ard 11 plus...to meet bev there...

12plus
bev was there le...so sorri...
we had a woNderful time there...watchin bikini babes...haha...
poor dear...i was there he canot anihow see...haha...
wanna tan but didnt get to tan much...oHhh
my deAr cant get the tan colour i like...nvm la...
"i'll love u as long as its u"

4 plus 5
came up and went to bathe and had our "dinner" at bK...haha yuMmy...
went back to pasir ris and walk at pasar malam...
dear and i left the grp to buy some thingys...
shopped at whitesands...and NTUC...
stRawberries...chOcoLAtes and bOoz
when we went back...the others not back yet...wah...so loNg...
dear went to bathe and the others came back and left for changi village...
dear tired le...so we go shui jiao again...haha yesh itz again...

at nite le
the guy were back...so noisy so i went dwn to ask them to be softer...
dear still sound aslp...
after dat went dwn again...
passed edden his hp...
dear still slpin...
3rd time...dear went dwn...he wake up le...nuttin to do...
we watched 50 1st dates...
dear cut the strawberries for mi to eat arhz...so sweet horx...wah so gud wre to find?!
(thx dear...u make mi love u more...)
ate our strawberries and chocolates...drank our booze...
he did some card trickz...
wah shuai dai le =) love him so much wor
after dat played mj...no plAy money de...

2 plus 3 am
dear got headache...went up to slp again...haha...

6.11am
checked the time...and lay in bed...chat...hugz...

dunno wad time...
tak, zhihong papa...ce-yi and sy came into our room.....
to slp...dey on the air con...so cold...
so at 9 plus i woke up and gave them my blanket and went dwnstairs to slp...
10 plus dear came dwn to look for mi...
den we wash up and he cleaned the chalet...
wah...zu jia nan hai...heex...*gigglex*

11 plus le
we prepared breakfast...instant noodles and lin n zhen woke up le...
watched mVp qing ren
den on long foNg dou to watch...
the guys woke up one by one...
left tak still slpin...
went out to play vOlleybAll...den frizbe (duNNo how to spEll la...)
fun worz...den tak woke up and we went back to chalet...
showered and played mj again...

4 plus 5 le
everyone ready?
left for food at changi village...
not realli full de...but i forced myself to finish the xian cao shui...so full...
walked to cheers to get grill to bbq...
on the wae back we left the gang to go to the beach...
we didnt get there...instead we ended up at a club...so we sat there and enJoy ur time together
the breeze
nice scenery...
chat and took photos...
we walked back to chalet...
we went to pick up some saga sees on the wae back...so mani mosquitos!
dear kip scratchin...haha...ask him dun scratch dun listen...
thou i had a lot of bitez...they werent very itchy...cuz i didnt scratch haha...
called everyone no one pick up my call...
he called ce-yi and he ran back to giv us the keys...
was our hands and legs den the saga seeds and left for the beach...
the guys were playin doDgeball...den soccer...
dear and i jux sat there and watch =)
den we went to walk on the beach...
wah roMantiQue lehz...
wrote stUffz on the sand... =)
when we went back the gang took my cam and were takin picx...
joined them den afTer a while we went back to chalet...

7 plus...
i wanna stay wif dear...for the last nite...but daddy didnt allow...
sadz...packed my stuFfz...
dear didnt hlp mi...
so that i will tke longer to pack...
slowly pack...but there wasnt much things...so i finished quite fast too...
farewell my beloved clzmates...cya nxt time and left...
the bus came...
didnt sae much on the bus...too sad to tok...
didnt feel like it...
my tearz flowed dwn...guess he didnt noe...
he tried to make mi smile...and he did...
walked mi back home...
kissed him gudbye and went up...
i MISS u, DEAR!

9.10 pm
reached home le...sms dear...went to the com...sth wrong wif internet connection...didnt check mails didnt blog...sobz...went o shower and...lie on the bed smsin dearie...
suddenli i like fell aslp lidat till dear call mi...chat for 4:03 mins...
smsed him...wished him luck...and fell aslp le...

7.10 am
woke up le...smsed dear...he still playin mj...
so i asked him to msg mi when he finished...
he won again...haha...
in love le the luck oSo change hor haha...
so i slpt again...
and woke up again...and came online =)

juX wanna tell my dear...

i love u lotz...

thou im not very confident wif our relationship now

i will try hard and put in all the effort our relationship nids...

cuz itz after last nite...

i realized that i cudnt bear to leave u even for a min or sec...

i nid u lotx...

promise that u wun leave mi alone kaez...

muackiz...

evEryoNe....iM So hAppi!!

2004-12-06T14:27:00.000+08:00

the clOck sTrIke tWelve and itz morniNg le haha...not loNg after dat i chat oN the pHoNe...nice tok =) den we put dwn the pHoNe at 2.o5 am and i msGed dd...wahLao he so lAte le still plAyin...plAyin gal summore...he ask mi sHhhh bUt i decided to sAe out haha cuz he plAy gAl!!!bleaHz...i leaked it out and i leaked it out loUd mAn!muAhAhaha...she u still dAre to plAy wif gAl not...haha...

woke up at 8.45 den went dwnstAirs wif daDdy to buy pAiNt to pAint my room...den daddy teach mi how to do it and pAinted 2 waLLz...haha so proud of it cuz i onli wanna waNNa pAint tHAt 2...sO my roOm iS hAlf pinK(sick of dis coLoUr!yuCkz) and hAlf gReEn =) yaY!den my roOm iS messY agAin~ waHlao jUx pAcked nice nice a few daez ago lehz...gGgRrrr...but stiLL very hAppi achievement lehz...

hMmm...stiLL got a lots stuFfz but canot sAe haha...mY bAoBei chONgtAk sAd sAdz diS morninG horx...dun sAd kAez...haha tml i mSg u guD mOrnIng haha...

gtg le...meetin soNgYu and chRis...see siNSeH...iF not my leg fei le jiU die lOhz...haha tata

hApPiEx!

damn bOred!!!

2004-12-05T20:20:00.000+08:00

wAd the borin dAe....

hAha...did nutTin at hOme but watCh tV anD more Tv...hAiz...dyiNg soOnz lA...woKe uP in the morniNg didnt go chUrch...dunO why didnt feel lIke it lorx...very tired arhz...den walK mTV the wHoLe morninG den cOntinue watchin GoSpeL of JOhN...den watch 2046...wAdz bi sAe de dui...dat moVie iS lIke sO siAnz...

den i pAck mY stuffs for chAlet....yEah!!!gonnA bring mY snooPy thEre Again...wAshed it yesterDae dry le...so cleaN so nIcez!hAiz....boring dAe oso nUttin to write le......bleahz X(

bAsKetbA|| cAmp!

2004-12-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

pErioD :29 nOv to 2nd dec

29th...
Reported to scH earli in tHe morning...den we un pAcked and stuffs den hAd training...waH...siAnz lorz...but trg was stiLL okIe la...hAd free time in the afternOon aFtEr tRg...wanNa BAtHe de bUt forgot why the gAlz deciDed not to in the end so we proCeEded to the Guy'S Room for bonding gAmes cUZ dey arE nOt aLLowed to coMe in to oUr rOom lorz haha...we plAYed hUnTer aND bear...wah bear twiCe...mAke mi lie so mUch~ =s hAiz...mr woNg lARz!hIS faUlt...bren chOse mi to be bear for 1st rounD den 2nd roUnd stIll chOose mi... -__-" den soNGyu kiP gettin kiLLed in the beGiNNing...hahaZ 1st roUnd 1st to be kiLLed 2nd roUnd 2nd to be kiLLed...3rd roUnd 3rd to be kiLL...hao qiAo ohhh oSo very sWay lArz haha...den in the evening...we joined the gUyz for trg...den rain a bit so we went to hAll to train...VERY hUNGRY~ at niTe we went out for dinner...aTe fish and chiPz but didnt eat mUch...didnt hav the aPpetite...den gave kim hAlf my shAre...den at nite went o GUy's room plAy agAin...MONOPOLY~ wah...actuAlli can win de...den BecuM 1st to bAnKruPt -__-" den aCtauLli iSh see chRis bAnkRupt de den he let Bibi plAy den he plAy until the ultimate winner woaH...den we went bAck to slp at 1am

30th...
earli mornin hav to wakey up le and hAd mAtch wif ChoNg cheng HS...kAoz so beng arhz they all...we loSt...hAiz...but nvm lArz...we our team wasnt completE!injured arhz...they so chor lor...bleahz...but our guyz won them =) revenGe hahaz...den in the faterNoon weiping and i went to get lunch for the pple...wahlao...the auntie so blur!got all the orders messed uP...wit for alnmoSt and hOur stiLl hAven get all the food kAoz...waste mY time...den so tired suMmore...food not nice...haiz...rubbisH la...afTer food went to tke a nap...slp till dun wan wakey up arhz

evening had trg again but i didnt go for the warm up...cuz my leg hurts...cant bend~haiz...so jUx did a bit of trg wif them den we had a small 3 on 3 match...fun arhz...den at nite we went out fo dinner again and aTe BK! =) yuMMy...den ewnto arCade to plAy initial d...haha...den everyone hang out there for abt half hr...cuz the guyz followed bren they all went they went to lOOk for mi...haha den at nite we went to guy room again play den watch bi and edden play monOpoly the final showdown went everyone else bankrupt...ZhiHong stiLl bAnkrupt twiCe!once went he plAyed for himself anoTher when he played for chOnGtAk...haha...sO fArnie!and the uLtimate wiNner wAd Bibi agAin~ haha den we went to slp at 3am...lin and bren was deep aslP den...haha

1st...
woek up had breakfast and prepared the stUffs for the notice board and the guyz hAd some lite trg haha...shOot bAll and pUmp haha...den we went for 1st aid course den go out eat lunch while Bi and tak went to buy the bbq stUffz for the bbq at nite...ate duck rice...not nice de!!very tired arhz...den we stayed at guyz room play pictionary until its time to do the preparation work for the bbq at nite and we played testimonial match wif the alumni and lost...nvm la...haha they so pro...den i sprained my ankle!pAIN!

den bbq and stUffz went the alumni go home le bren,lin, zhen, edden, bi and i did the cleaning up...and plAyed wif water!haha bibi zAo genG!haha...den we play pressure...denend up play match wif lin, zhen, bi, chris and mr wong...wah bAi kA still plAy...but nvm la...if not i will slp de...cuz ce-yi watch us play till fell aslp at the bench at the court haha...den at nite zhen and i stayed over at guy's room cuz lin sae wanna eat den we got chris to acc her...den dey go so long...den we wanna shuA them...turned off the lites den we fell aslp le... ...

2nd...
bi hAnd was numb....cuz it was under my snoopy and i was slpin on snOopy until like dead log liddatz...GUilTy...bleahz...den we did some cleaning up and den i hlped ms lim to type the alumni list den the others clear the pe rOom and mr yip'S office...wahlAo he very lUp shup!so mAni stUffz....he so diSorganiSed and diSgUstIn!yuCk!den i inJured didnt hlp much end up sot at mS lim tAble ther tok to bi and jOyCe...haha

break Camp le we went to northpoInt for food den went home wif daddy...cuz i asked him to pick mi up to go hOme...slpt in the car...den reach home hurry slp le...got message oso cant hear...realli tired~ i miSs my pArents and bed!~

chioNg mY dAte wif vAmpire 3

2004-11-26T22:54:00.001+08:00

duNno why these few daez im feelin so weak...waNNa bloG oso siAnz...hAiz duNno worz...was doIng mAss dance in sch the whole dae...siAnz lorz...hAiz...yestErDAe more fun...plAy water...too bAd i cant get wet cuz i dun hav extRa shorts...cuZ hAv to go for nike 5 on 5 selectioN...siAnz aRhz wait so loNg can form stAtue lohz...

todae chiong finiSh all the dWnloAded esP of my dAte wif vampire 3 de drama...mA xiAoling goNNa becuM vampire le...den the stuffs jian tou sae to her while she wAs still uncoNciouS wAs so touChIN~ hAiz...iF onli all these happen in mY lIfe...bUt duNNo whethEr i can hAndle worz...haha...bUt stiLL wan dem to hAppen lArz cuZ very sweet...u noe it jUx shows how much the mAn love u...even iF no feel for hiM will oso touched de lorz...mAyb i watCh too mUch of thiS kinD of unrealiStiC stUffs le...like the guy (ma xiao hu) in the shOw whu sAez he wud rather be in hiS dreAmz cuZ at least he feels wanted, at least he can feel tHAt he iS the main chArActEr anD be wif the gAl he lOve lotx and be together forever....protectin her and feelin her huG...oHHhH~

back to jiAn tou...cuZ he iS the pAst of kuAnG tiAn you the "lead chAractEr" in the drama (at least he was for the 1st and 2nd series) whu was brought to year 2oo4 from the song dynasty(chim huhz...nvm la haha) thou he noes he is the suBstItute of kuang tian you he still love ma xiAo ling...very much...till he is willin to do anithingy for her...risked his life and he found the meaning to continue to live in dis freakin world...HER! woAh...i oso wan arhz...den will start to imagine stuffs like ma xiao hu le haha...but dunno whu is the lead character in my dreamz lehz...why cant see his face de?!dunno whu...mAyb he dun even exiSt haha...think to much le lArz...i think i better go slp le haha...mayb dreamin at nite when we slp is more realistic than day dreaming bah...hahaz...

we are the lead characters in our lives...

thatz why we shud make our lives a beautiful story

den we can sae that we've lived a life without regrets

and that we had made it a meaningful one =)

*****

i wanna live a life as beautiful as my dreamz...

thou it may be kinda dramatique...

wanting him to truely loves mi and mi alone...

~~~~~~

18th and 19th nOv

2004-11-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

18tH....
iT wAs mUmmy's bDae and i pOnned gP lesson...cuZ i coUld wakE up...kiNDa tired plus i decided nOt go aniwaez...afTer dat daddy bring to sch...cuz he asked mi if i nid a lift to sch mah so i said okie lorz...end up late for chem lect -_-"nvm la...at least got pple bring mi there haha...no nid ownself tke bus...not bad oso mahz...

evening le...we went for training lorz...so suNNy!very hOt plAy a while very tired and stiCky and tHiRsty...den coAch took over trainin...run 20 roUnds...can die...i almost did aniwaez...i run till my heart very pain...couldnt tke it lorx...den we did 4-ze...wah...dying soon...den do layup fullcourt de...run till i wanna puke!and i mean it...lucky i didnt eat arhz...if not everytingy puke out le...den free throw...after free throw i left for home cuz itz mummy's bdae!hahaz...henG arHz!

we went to a tHAi reStAuRant for dinner...jiLL came too...haha expected lA...kor sure bring her de...nvm sOon she will be part of the family thou not so soon haha...hMMM...daddy order shark fin!yummy...each oNe oNe claypot summore...eat until 3/4 full~ li hAi!den can realli see the fin loRz...waH...shioK!ordered sOft shell crab too...one oF my fav haha...gud diNner...too bad i no bf bring...if not can bring him xiang shou oso haha...too bad los "bf"...dun wan bf oso la...i like being single!

19th...
hMMm i missed chem lect todae...cuz cudnt wake up on time...den quite late le so didnt go loRx...haha den mr liM wear until so yAndao todae!!!sobz...den cannot xing shAnG during lect cuz not there...den carol bio him until very shuAnG le lorz... =( todae lesson kinda slack...i like!haha i gettin lazy haiz...WAKE UP LARZ SHUHUI...ONLI NOE HOW TO SLACK!!

afTer sch went to collect reSUlt slIp den go MAcphersOn ITE look for my wanZi laoGonG plAy bbAll...plAyed wif her frenz...okie la...got 2 not bad hahaz...den rain! siAnz...den she had to leave for jOb inTErview den no choice plAy wif hEr freNZ lorz...haha...until 4 liddat den rusH hOme again...bAthe and left hOme aGAIn~

mEEt chiAlinG, bev, soNgYu and hAoyi for fOOD...den afTer dat we went to meet ChUbi...cUZ we go anD watCh shUttER!haha super nice...watCh so mAni horror moVies this is the best...i like the part at the pHoto stUdio best!nice mAn...new idea~ hahaz...quite scary oso...cUz iT did scare mi...haha...den sat beside chia...she so cute...scared until lidat~ den some stUpid pple behind siAo arhz...tryin to scare pple horz...throw pOpCorn...childish lors...kAoz!so bo liAoz...gROW UP LARZ!after the movie we left for home and i end up heres bloGgin haha...happi dae...too bad chonGtAk didnT joiN uS...mSg hiM duNNo how to reply de lehz...bleahz

emotional dae...

2004-11-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

yestErDAe wAs the reLeasE of the reSuLtx...well i wAs proMoTed...hAppi of cuZ but the grades werent great...wAsnt plEasEd...proMo...D O O...oVeraLL C D D...stiLL alRite lors...dunno lehz...althOuGh ChoNgTAK hAd beeN buGGing mi tHAt he suRe keNNA kiCkEd oUt...wheN iT is coNfirMed that itz the truTh i wAs reaLLi sOrri for him...i duN wAn hiM to leAve 1s1...cuZ 1s1 wiLL nv be comPlete without aNioNe of uS!itz diFfErenTz...

weLL there Are high anD lOws aLL aroUND the clZrOOm...anD i feeL sO uSeless cuZ im oF no hlp to mY siStAz and baobei...i cAnOt do aniThingy for deM to hLp them...afTer tHAt we went to waLk in the raiN den aFtEr awhIle mS lIm aPpeared SayINg dAt sOmEone caLLed her to teLL her we r in the raiN...and she wAs worried aBt us...weLL cAn underStAnd la...aNd after all dez...i stAyed in the clZrOom aND waited for time to pAss to go for chem lect. mR Lim teAch lehz...haha mUZ go mah alThOu not rEAlLi in the mOod for stUdies and stuffs...

den todae as uSuAl the clz wAs uLtra quiet...itz so nOt like 1s1...im not uSed to it man...so little pple appeared...and afTer sch bren, zhen and i went to orchard...cuz i wanna go lOOk for job bUt no jobz avaiLable for mi soBz...hAiz...nan de i realli go anf ask for one i didnt get it...haiz...den afTer dat we went shoPpin...no wre to go lehz we even went to the super market to shop!den bren left us for church and zhen and i went to heerens...shop shop shop den i suGgest we go and try a chaos dress which i kinda like lorz...very nice lehz...tempted to buy...but so ex- haiz...

well dis is how i spent my dae...sianz

2004-11-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

daTz my lAogOng wif the chOp sTickz in hiS mouth!!haha so cuTe!!!muAckiEz...i wan cyA!

2004-11-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

datz my lAogONg fofo!!!i miSs hIm so mUch!

itz been so long

2004-11-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

hMMm...i forgoT when was my last blog lohz...let mi recall... *thinkin proCesS* wah last post was like 31 oct!iTz like the 14th todae le!!!!!!

well i cant realli rmb wad happened for the past 2 weekz la haha...oHh i forgOt!mY dEArest DD...hAppi belAtEd bDae...didnT wisH u on mY bloG yet haha...okie...cuz the 31st was DD's and enen's bDae...haha happi bdae to enen on the blog oso

one nite i went out wif kUAn to buy dd's bdae present at orchard...

well bAsiCalLi wAs slAckIn all the wae lOrx ever siNce the proMos were over...hMmm i cud onli rmb that i went swiMMiN wif brenDa, sHuZhen, bEverly and anGlIn...alThoUGh anGlin stAy on thel anD...i swAm abt 35 lApz~ wha...im aMaZed man...den there's diS irriTatin peH peh whu kEpt lOOkIN at bev deaR...kAoz...i wanNa slAp hIm aNd kICk him uNDder mAn!mAchAm Nv seE gAlz sWiM before...dAmn yoU lArz se pEh peh...afTEr thAt i ruShed hOme to chAnge and rushed to orChArd...cUZ bRo andY got free to tiX to the iNcrediBles~ wAh nice show mAn...sO cuTe so faRnie!!!haha...actualli im suPpoSed to meeT bev and cHA for diNner at kObAnYaShi bUt i wAs reaLLi late when i reAched hOme so by the tiMe i reAch ciNe itz alMoSt 6.45 le the show sTarTin le...so didnT hAv diNNEr and went to wAtch the show...siAnz diAo the pOpcorn wAs sweet!bUt free oSo la no choIce haha...jiAnG jiu yi diAn bAh...free de...dUn asK for too mUch lorx...haha...

hMmm then the next event i rmb was the dae i went to plAy cS wif bibi, tak, ZhihoNg, Sze shEan, viNCe and weizHeng...i went for chem and phy lect in the mornInG beFore meetinG them...den pOn mAtHS lect. afTer lect i wAlked ouT wif eddeN and leeyOnG and afTer dat leeyoNg left and edden aCc mi wait for tAk to meet mi...we chaTted quiTe a bit den he left when tak reached yiShuN to meet mi...den we went to plAy cs...wah fun mha!viNce and weiZheng pro lehz...scaRy...mAchAm got cheat coDe lidat...aniHow oso can headshOt...die le...hAben even see wre they are die liaoz... -_____________-" afTeR dat we went for food at pS den i go bAck yiShuN meet kIm korkor to swiM and taK they all go plAy mahjonG...hAiz...he addiCted to it le...i got nutTin to sAe...hahaz...den at nite go home eat le slp lohz...

hMMm and wad did i do on sat?i duN rmb lehz...oHHh...mornInG i went for mAss dAnce praCtice den jAson ask mi meet too earli le end up i sit there stArE in the aiR~ hAte u jAsoN!mAke mi wAke up!den aftEr dat i went to doUBy ghAut to meet dd,yi gege and ah lInG...go arCade pLAy haha...plAy initial d lOrz as uSuAl de den got competition...wah...xiOng arHZ!but gud wae to aTTrAct croWd to ur arcade...but whetHeR they spenD bling bling tHeRe is anoThEr cAse hahaz...went home le i watChed my date wif the vaMpIre 3 den joSeph, my nephew kip kAjiAo-ing us...so nOtti...and we had pizza waH so fuLL arHz...didT eat mUch...

den todae i went to church, as usual la...den meet dd to go orchard shOppIn haha...i missed shoppin wif him!!horz dd!!!u miSs oso yAh?hahaz...cUz i wAnNA buy bdAe presEnt for mUmMy...her bdae on 18Th comIng soOn...wed end sCh quiTe late so betTEr bUy todae lorx...haha...den we go shop shop ard orchard...dd coUGh couGh...u betTA tAke gUd carE of urself...i duN wanna worri for u lehz...alTHou u dyin soOn mUahAhHA...

hAiz i got so mAni stUffs to do~ but no mOod very siAnz...aLL haBen do yet tidy my roOm 1/8 wae onLi hahaz...siAnz aRhz!!!life is boring...i shAll enD iT!

tues noe proMo resUltz le...dd pray for mi arhz!i mUz proMotE!aNf hope mY bAobEi chOnGtAk will proMote oso...haha cant imAgine s1 without him mAn!

iTz been a weeK arHz...datz lOng mAn~

2004-11-06T11:41:00.000+08:00

hAvent beeN bloGgIn for a weeK haha siAnz mAh...if not isH too buzy mAh...haha

dAy 1 (moNdAe)
hMMm eArli mOrnInG geL mY hAir nICe nIce...aCtuAlli nOt very nIce oSo la haha...jUz lOOk neatEr lorxz...den in a hUrri suMmore cuz i wokE uP lAtE...den DadDy hAppenEd to be awAke den asK him to bring mi to sCh lorz...haha...i even waNna teLL mUmMy dat i No wan go sCh hahaz...den i remembered got oRal presenTation... =S haha...wAh gAn chiong arHz...heHez...they thinGy wAs quiTe okIe la...bUt i think my quEstion and anSwer c.m.i lArz hahaZ....afTer dAt bren, lin, zhen and i went for lUnCh cuZ we're stAyin in sch to plAy bBall...den sAw eDdeNz...haha miSs him mAn...selDom see hIm de...afTer fOOd we go chAnge den plAy bbAll lorz...plAy pLAY play...a liGhTning flAsHed acroSs tHe sky...wha...sO nICe...den iT stArTed to raiN...yAy...den can plAy in the raiN...bUt den...ct they all there duN let mi plAy...bleaHz...den siT there do nuttin...haha den i cAme uP wif an idea dat i go run rOunD the tRAck...1 roUnd isH enUFf haha den run wif ct lOrz...waH alMoSt died arz.... XÞ hEHex...den i went to nOvena to bUy sHoe bAg den waHlAo eh bU shI ba...sAw mY op accessor...-_-" hAiz...den dun caRe lorx...read mY biBle and xin shAng mY new shoebAggie...

dAe 2 (tUesDay)
hMMm...wad haPpened oN tUes hUHz...i forgot le lehz...oHHh i tink wad suPposed to go cell groUp wif deBBiE anD bev de...but soRRIez agAiN arHz pAng seh u aLL haha i was realli tiReD wAd...den i went hOme slPt till at nitE...haD diNner didnt eat mUch...den mY stomach start to feel werid le...den i dun care lor...i tot i huNGry i eat suMmore...den go slp...

dAe 3 (wedNesDay)
yAy swiMmIng dAe...went to swim wif lin,zhen and bren afTeR sch...haha...buT im feelin very coLd the whOle dae...duNNo whY...but i didnt care jUz went to swim cuz i wanna tan...but i didnt get tan!!!!!soBz...afTeR swimmin sHud go to chubi's hSe de...watCh them plAy majOng bUt didnT go cuZ was feelin very uncoMfortaBle...so i went hOme...tOOk the thermomEtEr and guess wAd 38.8 degrees arHz....alAmAk i think i suFfered from minor brain damAgE le haha...hAiz...oSo abit siAo liAo i think now i more siAoz le...haha...den took mediCation...when wakey up ate instant nOOdles den tke medicine and went to bed again...no strenGtH to waTch my tuO qiAnG shi jIe =( lAst episoDe lehz...soBz...

dAe 4 (thursDae)
didnT waNNA go to scH...but ct aSk mi go den i go lorz...siAnz aRhz afTeR dAt i regret...haha but luCki lessoN wAsnt very long...den they asK mi go bOwlin...didnT wanA go...was still siCk...den i go hOme sLp agAinz...yEsh...orhorh...hahabUt....mY stOmAch stiLL guAi guai de...mUmy sAe is cuz i fri exam den pSyChoLoGiCal effect...guess so bAh...everytime exam oso lidat...haha bUt i nOt gAn chioNg abT chInese lehz...hAiz duNno duN care...

Dae 5 (fridAe)
toDae tke ao chinese pAper...siAnz aRhz duNNo can get b notz......hEEx...den afTeR dat bev,cha,lin,zhen,bren and i went to ljs for food...den went northpoint walk walk...den bev realize dat she didnt hav her wallet wif her when she wanna pay for the bookmark and card she wanna buy,...(i think) den she chioNg to ljS find lorx...den i run afTer her...wah...fat le pAo bu doNg...went to lJs cant finD lehz...sobz...sAyaNgz arhz DArlin...we even search the bin...like oNli hapPen in draMA ritez?bUt it reaL...stiLL nUttin den went to mAke poLiCe report lorx...the Sir lOok lIke sAmUel korkor arHz haha bev and cha oSo sAe...den afTer dAt go hOme le lorx...anD slack the whole dae le....

Dae 6 (todae)
acTuaLLi dis morniNg wanna go jOGgin wif mY belOved pEiXi de...bUt she soreeyes.....cAnt go oUt!y liDat...when i wanna meet her she kenna sore eyes...kaoz..i mISs pX!!!!!den slAck till now...lAtEr hav to accomPAny mUmMy out to GH...bUy medicine...hAiz...siAnz...bUt nVm latEr go bren's church! haha

dis is lOng mAnz...

2004-10-31T22:07:00.000+08:00

liKe a lot dAez no bLog le...got mah? duNno...haha

FriDae...we went to bren's hse for steamboAt....yUmMy yuMmy haha nice...long time no hav steamboAt le...esp when a alot of pple gather together eat...heex...and finalli i got to eat my mint iCe creAm...haha put v long le...siAnz arhz mYT dietin isnt going aniwre......dun seems to control myself =(

SatuRdae...went bAck to sch to do mAss dAnce wif Jason they aLL haha we uSed im gOOd...nice song from hoNey OST...haha...best arHz...den i go hOme and bAthe den go meet bev they all at orchard...took piC wif anglin and sHUzhen haha...not bAd quite nice...den we took a taxi down to debbie's church...den witnessed her baptizm...haha nice lehz the pool...so coolz...dats the diff wif a big church haha...den wafetr service, we went to Han's for diNner...actualli didnt realli wanna eat but mummy isnt cookin and she cant come out cuz of jOseph...den no choice...

Sundae....notti nooti mi didnt go church haha...i slpt at 2 am den forgot to set alarm...den i jux slp all the wae...pw larz...spent the whole nite doing it...sianz lor...den afternoon i went to Ce-yi's hSe do pw again...hAiz wanted to swim but den...cant arhz end so lAte...no sun suMmore... -_-"

des daez go home so lAtEz....hAiz...mummY nAggin againz~
blEahz......

meaningful arhz...

2004-10-28T21:02:00.000+08:00

as usual i had to do my sickening mt and pw...but after the pw period i pon the next chinese lesson to go out...initially my plan was to watch movie wif ct and go donate blood...but dunno how the calss chat and we decided to go for a movie together so i asked ct to join the clz instead...

i walked outa sch wif carol and enen den we met steff outside...although we knew each other this was the 1st dae we tok...okie datz not the point...so i went to douby ghaut to meet ct and enen and carol and steff wanted to go for a movie...but end up steff had to go home...cuz of some stuffs la...dunno den they watch wif bibi and jessica they all...

ct and i were in a hurry so we hurry to the food court and i wait for ct to finish his food den we rushed to outram...den we donate blood all that stuffs lor...one thing funnie was i didnt realli pay attention to wad the lady was askin mi...den she asked if i had sex in this 6 months so i wasnt sure wad she asked den answered wif a mmmmm....and she was like "how long have u been wif him" dat kind of oH mY goSh voiCe...den i realized the qnz den i quickly clarify...wah mAlu-ating siAz...

hEex i very happi lehz cuz i feel dat i did a gud thingy...although i pon sch...but i still happi lehz...hMmmm the blood doesnt seem to stop flowin itz haben stop since 2 polus 3 when the needle 1st poked into my veins...haha nvm la...oso wun die...happi arhz!

den ct and i had to rush down to sun plaza cuz we watchin show there...DOLL MASTER...run the outRAm link....waHdapiAnGz i alMoSt died mAn...realli louSy le...run so Slow den no stAmInA...die loRx...trg start le i will die de...haha...den i lock ct wif all the planes and helicopters...muahahaha

oHhh yAh DOLL mAster iS not bAd nOe...the story line i quiTe enjoY lOrx...bUt den not very scary lA....i was luFfin loRx...onli got shoCked once or twiCe muahAhha...i not scared lehz...hMMM i woNder if DOlls realli got souL...but oso nvm la...i dun play wif dolls le...when i was a little gal i oso dun have a lot of dolls...haha but i dunno why...i like those clowns attached to strings noe...although they look beri evil and scary...mayb i got some mental prob la...i think they very nice lehz...but i dun think i wanna own one...later realli got soul de den at nite move i will scared to death haha...hMmm...if u guYS go for story line...i rate it 4 stars...not bad...the gal actin as the doll doll oso quite pretty haha... =)

pRoJect worK suX big tiMe!

2004-10-27T17:28:00.000+08:00

im jUx so siCk and tired of pw arhz i do until i damn pekchek lor....lucki all my troubles will end on mondae!waHhahahA....den i'll be free...wanted to swim todae de but cuz of the stupid pw i cant!damN!

well nuttin le...haha...yay...ive saved 30 bucks le muAhAha...got money buy present lohz~

oHhh mY

2004-10-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

weLL ive been so relUctAnt to blOg cuZ i lAzy aRhz haha

oN sAt we when to celebrate bev's bdae...we've put in quite a lot effort arhz although its onli a dae's job but den...we were thinkin of how to make it an unforgetable one...haha

so on that dae chia and i met up and went to do all those preparation stuffs and all la...den at kbOx there dey stArt celebratin...actualli not much la jux singIng soNgz den let her tot dat her cake was onli a miserable brownie den i walked in wif a cake called choColate charlotte haha...well she didnt seems surprised...nvm hapi jiu hao...den we made her wear the dress we bought for her...haha nice siaz...

den we sing sing sing until the last 40 min or so we very high arhz...all stand up jump and jump the k box pple think we siaoz bah i guess haha...1st time see the pple scream and shout until lidatz...haha

at nite we met chubi, vince, weizheng and zhihong at newton circus to have dinner den went home after dat loH....

as for todae...iTz the stArT of pw and mt intensive wad piAngz c.m.i aRhz...i hate chInese so mUch den they giMme suCh proGrAmme...i wanna joiN bI and tAk dey all go out plAy!!! =(
no choice oso lA...hav to go thru de...den at 3 plus went to plAy bbAll loRx...until 7 plUS den go hOme...tiRed siAz...bAck le still mUz do my pw stUffs siAnz... hAiz...well i injUred myself during bbAll...cuz i kNock into hAoyi...haha itz mY fauLt lA....he didnt nOe i wanna goiNg to snAtCh the bAll from him le mAh sO turn den *bAnG!* haha den i neck pAinz... T.T

dAtz all folkS!

finalli...

2004-10-22T17:14:00.000+08:00

dOtz...im writin dis for the 2nd time...dunno why the poSt didnT get pUbliSh...duNno why got error...-_-"

todae is the last paper...and im happi!!!cUz it mArkz the end of all the late nites i hav to go thru to study...and dey seems to be of no help cuz like no difference...got study oso like dunno lidatz...sobz...no choice too stupid le...

haha physics todae...wanna score a or b de!...haiz...dunno wad to sae arhz...i dunno how to do my paper 1 alot qnz oso anihow whack haha...i scared arhz....how how...i cant retain arhz...i wnap romote lehz but if i promote i scared i will hav a hard time but i realli dun care i jux wanna get promoted!haha

well after the paper...i went to town wif tak, cha and haoyi...tak and i went off to get the present we wanna get for bev and haoyi and cha go get wad cha wanna buy...cuz lidat we can save time...woah raining...mi and tak yu zhong man bu haha...no larz...normal speed...wre got so much time to romantique?haha den wan oso not wif him lor...he ming hua you zu de haha...we went to tke sticker photo very fun...den we met up wif cha and haoyi get the 2nd present for bev...haha nice shOppin aRhz...

sUrpRise sUrpRise...i lOok forwArd to tml aRhz...haha...

mi realli xian mu bev arhz...got so mani teng...esp her darlin cha...i oso wan...when is my prince charmin comin to sayangz mi...haiz...see her lidat i feel like i wanna be in love...but on the other side i wanna still wanna be single cuz i no nid to report to anione abt my xing zhong...haha singlehood rox!jux dat sometimes abit lonely...haha den see other galz got bf care and love them so much...see le will envy de wor...haha but i oso nt in a rush haha...still so young...play enuff den sae...haha

oHhh we went to stadium den bev showed mi a reebok top...nice lehz...so we decided to get it tml cuz im left wif 0 cents todae... =s nvm tml den buy...hahaz...

went home...i showed mummy the presents...and her rxn was...."stuDentz toDae arhz...so gou donG..." okie larz...i think not everytime lidat...and it doesnt happen for everyone oso mah...bev so close to mi of cuz mux treat her gud gud la...her bdae stuffs lehz...haha

muz start mY healthy lifestyle plan...gettin fatter des daez...haha canT stand......... >_<

MY BOo

2004-10-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

"My Boo"

(feat. Alicia Keys)

[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person

That will always have your heart

You'll never see it coming

Cause you're blinded from the start

Know that you're that one for me

It's clear for everyone to see

Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl

I was the one who gave you your first kiss

Cause I remember girl

I was the one who said put your lips like this

Even before all the fame and

People screaming your name

Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]

[Usher:]

It started when we were younger

You were mine my boo

Now another brother's taking over

But its still in your eyes my boo

Even though we used to argue it's alright

I know we haven't seen each other

In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]

I was in love with you when we were younger

You were mine my boo

And I see it from time to time

I still feel like my boo

And I can see it no matter

How I try to hide my boo

Even though there's another man in my life

You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

Yes I remember boy

Cause after we kissed

I could only think about your lips

Yes I remember boy

The moment I knew you were the one

I could spend my life with

Even before all the fame

And people screaming your name

I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]

[Usher:]

It started when we were younger

You were mine my boo

Now another brother's taking over

But its still in your eyes my boo

Even though we used to argue it's alright

I know we haven't seen each other

In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]

I was in love with you when we were younger

You were mine my boo

And I see it from time to time

I still feel like my boo

And I can see it no matter

How I try to hide my boo

Even though there's another man in my life

You will always be my boo

[Usher:]

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]

[Usher:]

It started when we were younger

You were mine my boo

Now another brother's taking over

But its still in your eyes my boo

Even though we used to argue it's alright

I know we haven't seen each other

In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

cheM kiLLed mi...i duN nid to kill mYself to die...

2004-10-20T18:00:00.000+08:00

mondAe: chinese and mathz
mAthz sHud be can get sOme decent gRade bAh...chinese...as uSual de la...dun nid to tink so muCh but i think mY compo iS not written dat well...haiz...den my marks will be pulled dOwn further...hAiz...

tueSdAe: gP
quite okie but i didnt finish my aQ... =( duNNo jUx hope dat i can pAss den hApi le...haha

wedNesDae: ChemiStRy
i waNNa hAng myself...i tot i can like get a relatively gud grade when i do paper 1 but the damn pAper 2 kiLLed mi...im pissed...no mood arhz....i dun care physicz muz score...i still wan my 7610...

siAnz...headaChe arHz...

2004-10-15T18:11:00.000+08:00

hMmmm...stRess....i cut mYself wif ruler todae...heez...nuttin better to do aRhz...too stRess le...

hEAdAchE arHz...i veri sTrESs iM not prepArEd for mY proMoz esP my mAthz...and physicz
-_____-"'
hEEc jUx back from bAsketball...went to sembAwang play wif bibi, ct, and sy and the pple there...oMg mY shOotin suX....the mOre i shoot the more weird...o_O

pple in mY clz realli stressed arz...tml is scott's bdae le...haha...ehhh like nuttin to do wif mi oso...but den he still my fren...nvm la...haha

i feel so useless...i missed him again todae...he is jux so irresistable when i see him play....but i noe i cant like him...cannot...haha...im not gonna like him...mux control...haha

itz ms oNg's bdae~

2004-10-14T13:19:00.000+08:00

hapi bdae to u
hapi bdae to u
hapi bdae to ms ong!
hapi bdae to u

haha i noe she cant see larz...but jux wanna celebrate heres...afTer maths lect our clz ran to her to sing her a bdae song...haha...den i found myself in the library le...whaha...hmmm i didnt fall aslp during gP!!! hahaha...gud lehz...haiz i was slackin yesterdae...slpt all the wae...dunno why the more i slp the more stress i becum...isnt it suppose to destress mi?! o_O

2 daez later will be scott's bdae...dunno wad to get for him...hMmm...and bev too...im saving up for her...haha scott...oHhh since he likes eEyore so mUchy get him something dat has eeyore shud be a gud idea ohH...haha...c how bah...mi under financial crisis...

hMMm during chem tutorial jux now bev and mi chat all the wae...1 hr sit there tok tok haha...so mani thingyz to chat...galz mah surely got lotas things to sae...moreover we all ish sistas lehz...of den she name mi all the pple having their bdaez on october...whaha so mani...consecutive bdaez for more than a week...wah...kong bu arhz...lucki my frenz not lidat de....if not can go siaoz arhz...haha

hMmm missed everyone in secondary sch...and chongtAk...and korkorz

(i can see the smile on his face when he see dis siaz...haha)

i wiLL suRvive

2004-10-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

"I Will Survive"

At first I was afraid

I was petrified

Kept thinking I could never live

without you by my side

But then I spent so many nights

thinking how you did me wrong

And I grew strong

And I learned how to get along

and so you're back

from outer space

I just walked in to find you here

with that sad look upon your face

I should have changed that stupid lock

I should have made you leave your key

If I had known for just one second

you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door

just turn around now

'cause you're not welcome anymore

weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye

Did you think I'd crumble

Did you think I'd lay down and die

Oh no, not I

I will survive

Oh as long as i know how to love

I know I will stay alive

I've got all my life to live

I've got all my love to give

and I'll survive

I will survive (hey-hey)

It took all the strength I had

not to fall apart

kept trying hard to mend

the pieces of my broken heart

and I spent oh so many nights

just feeling sorry for myself

I used to cry

But now I hold my head up high

and you see me

somebody new

I'm not that chained up little person

still in love with you

and so you felt like dropping in

and just expect me to be free

and now I'm saving all my loving

for someone who's loving me

Go on now go walk out the door

just turn around now

'cause you're not welcome anymore

weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye

Did you think I'd crumble

Did you think I'd lay down and die

Oh no, not I

I will survive

Oh as long as i know how to love

I know I will stay alive

I've got all my life to live

I've got all my love to give

and I'll surviveI will survive

[x2]

AfRoDisiAc

2004-10-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

AfRoDisiAc

[INTRO:]

Ha ha ha ha ha

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

[VERSE 1:]

Whatever you want, I got it, Papi

Don't hesitate, holla at me!

What I'm lookin' for

Is simple, you see

Love and support and sexuality

When I'm with you,

I don't wanna leave

I need you just like air that I breathe

But when I'm not with you,

I'm missing my peace

I got a lot inside I need to release

You fulfill my every desire

When I'm with you, you take me higher

(Wooo woo whoo)

[CHORUS:]

You're my afrodisiac

You're the only one I'm needin'

When I go, I'll come back

'Cause there is no way I'm leavin'

You're my afrodisiac

You're the only one I'm needin'

When I go, I'll come back

'Cause there is no way I'm leavin'

[VERSE 2:]

There is no way you are gettin' away

I need your love every day

Medicine can't cure the way that I feel

What I need is my inner fill

Being without you, its makin me ill

Stressin me out i need to chill

Something this strong, gotta be real

Nothing or noone, show my skills

You fulfill my every desire

When I'm with you, you take me higher

(Wooo woo whoo)

[CHORUS]

I admit that I'm a prisoner of your sex appeal(sex appeal)

I can't seem to find a way to escape how i feel(how i feel)

I can't wait no longer, please come give a dose to me(dose to me)

Breathin's gettin stronger need you now, close to me

[CHORUS x2]

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

depression...

2004-10-13T19:40:00.000+08:00

im feelin sucky...i dunno why but i jux feel so bad in mi~ i dun wanna live...but i noe i mux...i nid to tke life positively but i dunno how...cuz all the sudden i jux felt that my world collapsed...and there is no one to hold it up for mi...

i guess there is some serious probLems wiTh mi...iM gettIn violent thEse daez...tryin to breaK the thingz i hOld in mY hAnds...guess itz strEss and i have got no idea how the hell i can let it all out...i feel like cuttin myself...i wanna try the pain...but my hse no proper penknife lehz...if buy a new one den waste money...buy le i guess i'll be holdin it and dun hav the courage to try...omg...wad am i thinkin!well this tot jux came by...its not cause i waNna kiLL mYseLf...oHhh ive yet to enjoy so mani thingz in diS world...i wUn die sO eaSily de...at leAst muz plAy finiSh tried wad i waNNa try do wAd i wanNa do den die...liDAt den without regrets mah...

dotz...i duNno wAd am i sAyin...im v tired...

jUX siCk and tired of life...or shud i sae life wif exsistance of exaMz?

.a.wound.i.inflicted.on.myself.gave.mi.a.scar.to.remind.mi.if.my.foolishness.

im.not.in.control.of.my.emotions

not.jux.dat.the.sight.of.u.reminds.mi.the.wae.u.hurt.mi

but.whenever.i.see.ur.smile

it.brightens.my.dae

winnin.the.duel.with.my.feelinz

since.i.ve.decided.to.forget

i.definitely.will

i cut my hair again...

2004-10-09T10:34:00.000+08:00

yesh~ mentalli unhappi...physicalli im happi...haha complicated...so i go cut my hair again...and now im hapi!!!i can spike my fringe!haha...

wah mummy alwaez make her hair very long de lehz....but nvm la...no choice oso...so i play wif eke...my nephew...haha so cute...den we go buy sweets that got colour de...den we play wif it...he realli so ke ai...kip wanting to scare pple wif his colour tongue and lipz... -____-" haha den so notti...make mi eat the jelly bean licorice de...wah i hate dat man...

did do anithingy yest haha...jux studied chem...when i reached home...showered and drop dead...so todae muz jiayou lo

oPen hSe!!!

2004-10-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

yEstErdae wAs family dae...had dinner wif my family...my bro was there too...and his gf...haha...cuz dad nid to renew his membership at Jack's place so asked us all to be home earli den went for dinner...as usual...FIRE steak wahhAha...the braNdy...uLtimate mAn...hEez...i ate 3 escagots...yUmmY...but the oysters werent v freSh yesterDae...but still ate one la...haha...had 2 glasses of red wine...perfect haha...

hMmm yestErdae oSo iCe cream dae arhz earli morning eat ice cream in sch den evening ChingtAk bUy mi iCe Cream...at niTez at Jack's chOcolate iCe cream wif almond nut...share wif my bro...hEEx...bu fei de hua i happi till siaoz...but i manage to lose 1kg!haha...happi worz...

hMmm...oPen hSe...sch enDed earli for us to prepare for it...so we went out to Mac for lunch...v fuLL arhz...i skipped usher...haha didnt wanna hlp them so i hlped bren...hEEx...did do much oso i dunno wad to do oso jux chat wif the pple lorx....haha....den i went o play bball wif kim, bo en, jing guang, yeehao and samuel...wadapiangz i sux man....v long no play le realli C.M.i le... T_T haha...debbie, david, MaoMao and andrew came back haha so happi to see them missed them all!

den in the evening we sat near the basketball bench wif bren, zhen and lin...we macham siaoz...partly cuz didnt hav much to do la...or shud i sae nuttin to do...so we did all we could to entertain ourselves haha...realli like 4 siao za bor lehz... -_-"' nuttin to play even go and play wif water...wet wet

wah i sprain my ankle!PAINz!
and bren maDe the presentation v nice!haha gUd effort...I loVe yA! and of cUz i lOve 1s1!!! *muAckiEz to all in there...esp those v close to mi =) sMiez

life sux!

2004-10-01T17:22:00.000+08:00

todae watched white chics wif 1s1 pple haha...very funni!!!muz watch!!!i luff until pengz...very guD... 5 star moviE~ i wan new hp!!!!!!7610...my hp spoil le dunno why...the alarm dun work....sth wrong wif my mms oso...i cant send to email! -_-"

im mOody...nuttin seems to be right...im shaq...i dunno wad im busy with...i onli noe dat ive wasted them awae...doing wad?why do i let my mood affect mi so much or shud it be i let my tots rule over mi?i feelin so useless and dumb!im so sad...i feel so silly!im heart broken...="( soBz...sobz

yesterdae was healthy lifestyle dae for 1s1...played table tennis and badminton...c.M.i...i think i betta stiCk to dancing...but i still had fun...itz nice to hang out wif the 1s1 ppl...jux feels great hMmm mAyb i jux dun like to be alone bah...im afraid of loneliness...cuz it is when my thought will over rule my mind...i jux think too much...

i feel so sucky...realli bad...im jux plain jealous and i dun understand...

for a short moment itz spring in my life...

filled with beautiful colours and beautiful things

but now...itz once again the cold winter...

darkness everywhere...i ve got no destination...not even sure of the next step

so...everytingy was juz a dream...jux my wishful tots...my naive thinkin dat wad he said was wad he meant...

sadly it isnt...he wasnt serious

everythingy seems to change...well if he didnt mean all those stuffs he said...

how could he made it so real...

why he wanna offer mi a beautiful dream den smash it without a single trace

i dun wanna wake up...

knowin dat its all delusional...

one joke played twice...not funni

but wad he said was repeated...whether he mean it or not...i'll still believe

as long as he said it to mi...

anithing, everything...i'll trust that wad he said is the truth...

but it doesnt seems to be, now

whu shud i trust?

can i even have trust in anione?

...dun think so...

i dunno who to ease the pain im going thru...

baby tell mi wad to do

haPpi bDae sOnGyU!

2004-09-27T20:33:00.001+08:00

S0nG yU 's bDae oHhh...haha
Went sEouL gArden celEbRAte...
niCe arHz...At untiL v fuLL
bUt sadlY todae's mOod not so gUd...
he seEmz to be kiNda coLD towaRds mi...
y?
so i was mOOdy...
he nOticed and dat brightened mi up a littlE biTz
but i still feel oUttA plAce...
i feel dat he belOngz to her...
duN thinK he feElz liKe wAd i feEl for hiM...
dun feEl like toKin arz...
nOt in the mood...

haPpi bDae to u...
haPpi bDae to u...
hApi bdae to songyu...and jing guAng
haPpi bdae to u...

ohhhz iTz jing gUAng's bdae oso...

interim mOnDae...

2004-09-27T13:48:00.000+08:00

sad wor...he didnt call mi last nite...guess he was doing his stuff at nite cuz he went home quite late i guess...he was with his frenz...hMmm...duNNo....den miDnite waTa...wake uP stUdi pHySicx!woAh!haha siAnz slPy loRx...

siAnz lEhz i think my test will fail...mY ans diff from tHem! =( soBz... duNNO le...haha im goNe...nO mOOd arHz!

im happi...

2004-09-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

yEstErdae wAs the mid auTumn fEst celebration...i went for dance praCtice wif corneliUs...den rUshed dwn to sch for the celebration...i met kim kor at the mrt station...den bo en cam oloNg...he was waitin for him so we walked to sch together...at the sch area...suddenli bev called mi den we hug hug outside haha...chia dun nid jealous de hor...den i went in with kim n boen cuz i nid to change and chia was behind...walkin quite slowly...haha...i was late and missed the front part...emcees for the nite is chongtak and chubi!

den i change le go join them...wah some sing quite nice but some oso v c.m.i sorri lar i noe i sound kinda mean but realli la...we plAyed wif spArkers all that lor...kinDa fun la...after dat we went for fOod...at bK...den after i finish i had a craving for iniTiAl D so i jio sHuzhEn go plAy...denaftEr rAcinG wif hEr...i cuDnT leave the thinGy le...cUz soMe guyz werE racing with mi...and by lUck i won...cUZ he let mi win la...den hiS frenz beSide mi tell mi wAd to do so i jUx foLLow oNli noT diFf...plAy until i wanna go hOme bUt was helD up...went home that time kenna nagged...den still hav to tke cab cuz no bus le...

hMmm...alot oF sTuff...moStl;y cant discloSe de sor...

thx kor...

2004-09-25T11:29:00.000+08:00

fiRsTly mUz tHx my kOr...dor jie...whU iS alWaeZ theRe for mi...dui mm ju arHz...orh mm hor yi tell whu the persoN is...cUz therE miGht be sOme pEople whu wiLL be unHaPpi if they noe...plUS it iznt reaLLi love bAh...mAyb iTz a cruSh?iM nOt sure myseLf...hAhA...And hAo hAo yAng sAng arHz... *heArTaChes fOR u* actuAlli iM reAlli fiNe lArz...And the quEstionz u aSked in tHe commentz...mOstly iS i duNno whAhAhha...fuNNi hor...

yEstErDAe...X sent mi to my bUS stOp...wAit for tHe bus wif mi...he drOpped hiS hp on the flOor...oPpz...cUZ my bUs alMost left...i didnT waN him to wait for tHe seConD bUs wiTh mi cUz he is kiNda tired...wan him to go hoMe reSt earli...sO i ruShed lor...a bit baD lArz cuZ i didnt noe he droPped hiS hP...untiL whEn he cAlled mI...i tort hE wun cAll mi lAst nIte...bUt he did =) vEry unexPectEd...suMmOre at the wRong time...i wAs in the toiLet haha...

we chAt...after i was out...haha his family tot he got gAl le...duNno whu...haha den tok a lot think a lot oSo we iMaGine tOo mUch le...u nOe sOmetimez...i oSo duNno whEtHer if reaLLi like mi or the oThEr gal...cuZ he didnt sae it...bUt he sEem to show...but when he show...i douBt him...thinkin that he is jUx joKin wif mi...mi v bad hor...but i jux kip feeLin that he isnt serioUs wif he sAid to mi...he tired to qian jiu wo...but i qian ju hui ta...end up we didnt get wad we realli wanted...fuNnie hor...duNno why feEl like cryin again...

all those imaginations we built in our dreamz

wud they come true...

the dreamy morningz we wish we had

in the cosy hse we share

sounds so wonderful and romantique

but it wud be ultimately sad

to find out that ur heart wasnt wif mi...

dat those dreamz werent realli shared

aRrGHhh diS poSt iS a piEcE of cRAp!

2004-09-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

the sudden feelin came to mi...im sadz...im feelin v terrible...i duNno why...mayb is the song of my blog...and im so caught up wif the things around mi...emotionally, mentally and physically...

a sudden tort came to mi...my cough...so long le still haben recover...izit a sign of a terrible sickness?i duNno...jux had dis feelin...i doubt i'll live much longer...wad if tml i were to leave dis world? wad can i do? NUTTIN! shud i be happi...cuz i can escape my a lvls and to meet God in heaven...or sAd...cuz i'll hav to leave my parents and frens (currently no lover haha) hErez...

u noe...im confused...have i fallen in love? whu izit? i dunno...which one? *bluRz* but even so...does he hav feelinz for mi? are they real? how to prove? if its true...den there will be ppl whu will get hurt and that includes mi...hope dat itz jux mi whu is here thinkin too much den i dun hav to make decisions...so mani times love had failed...finalli when opportunities are given...i dun wanna take it...haha...funni ritez? im not in the mood to tok abt love...too complicated...still muz think so much...gRrr...single but unavailable haha...

every nite i hear u cry

dun u wanna tell mi why
im afraid of wakin up without u...

(horrible + terrible)x 2

2004-09-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

hMmm...nuttin mUch hAppened la...haha juz bits suay dis morning...was walkin to sch den stomach ache...as usual...i'll cut across the carpark...den got a bio teacher stopped mi cuz i didnt tuck in my t-shirt...haiz...nvm larz...but im in terrible pain wor...so i nod and said okie...i guess she didnt hear mi larz...den she call mi..."didnt u hear wad i sae...n u jux walk off lidat..." den she ask for my name and clz all dat den sae cannot cut across carpark cuz dangerous and blah blah blah...den i was there yah yah...im in terrible pain... =S

den i forgot to bring physics tys...shudnt hav stayed up so late to finish it...haiz...siAnz aRhz...latEr still got gp lAb...sobz...y my enGliSh gettin from bad to worse? -___-"

itz been ages since...
why am i still dwellin in the past?
the memories given arent dat beautiful
but the tot of it often puts a smile on my face...
the 2nd second....
it jux makes mi realise my foolishness...
but im still glad dat we've spent happi daez together
all i hav to sae is gudbye...
our sweet memories stays but...
my love for u is thrown into the ocean

when u could find the drop of tear i dropped in the sea...
dat will be the dae i stop loving u...

how sweet isnt it?but it eventually turns out to be a lie...how cruel is the world...

zzz

2004-09-21T14:03:00.000+08:00

liFe is tough mAn!hAiz...i ve been slackin so much dAt im lAggin behind!weLL deS few niTez hAd been uP chAttin on the pHoNe...haha more oFten till 3 am in the morniN...siAnz...

i took eArli leave yestERdae...

i wasnt feelin dat well...was breathless during chem lect...wad d heLL?i duNno whY so i left school and met kim kor outside...accomopanied him for lunch as i wait for daddy to come bring mi home...

we drop by at the clinic and itx cloSed so i went to 18 clinic...haha i wanna go there actualli cuz itz a christian clinic claimin the verse acts 1:8...haha...

you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you

deAr frEnz...for all whu showed mi care and concern thx a lot lOve u all haha...

siAnz lesson le...but iTz chem =) haha wOOhOo... *im gonE*

xia yu le xiA yu le~

zzzzzzzz

sobz...i love u

2004-09-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

itx a dae filled with tears...
i dunno why oso lehz...jux kept crying...
after church...i went back home...i think i saw s0on, jUnwEi cOuSin
but cOuldnt realli recognise him...not sure...
=reached home=
i hav a sudden urge of watchin passion of christ
i saw wad Jesus underwent...
for the last 12 hours of his life...
i couldnt hlp it...
i cried
all he suffered...the pain...the mockery...
it makes all the other unhappi things day happened in my life seems so insignificant!
den since the 1st tear that rolled outta my eyes...
i couldnt stop cryin...
suddenly i becum so emotional todae...
muz be the holy spirit that touch my heart...
suddenli i juz felt that i could relate to how Jesus and the pple whu loved him felt...
it made mi feel dat im not worthy of the pain he suffered for mi...
*s0bz*

-God's love for mi is the greatest!more than anione whu claims to love mi till the end of time-

it is romantic to hear dat
but how mani times it could realli be fufilled?
i doubt no one could love someone else as great as God's love...
it makes mi guilty...
ive not love God as much as i claim to be...
Lord, i wanna love u more than anione!

i duno...

2004-09-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

the dAe b4 1409
bRenda, AnGlin, sHuzHen n i wenT joGGing wif mS tAn...
- shaq wor...
- mS tan iS gUd!hEr sTamina huHz... woAh!
- hmmm iTz reaLLi diFF esP when i StoPped den ruN agAin...
- broKen mOmenTum den i becum v tired -______-"

plAyed bbAll wif the 1s1 pple...
~ iTz fuN....
~kim was there tOO...afTer his pAper go and plAy till niTex... =s
ps. kor, cnT liDDat wor...
~ ChuBi inJuReD himself *ouCh*
~ ZhonGyi koR inJure him de~ the cuT quiTe deep leHz....
~ bLooD!
~ wAtAshi v lOuSy leHz...not zUn le...actuAlli noT v zUn de nOw worse... ="(

mAthz pApEr =S
> toDae got mAtHs test...suRe fAil...
> triGo wor...
> lAst niTe v tiRed didnT stUdy...went hOMe den slP le...
> if i pAss i wiLL jiO the foLloWing
*Mr liM
*cHuBi
*Zu eN
*aLeX
*choNgtAk

1509
wAhkAo...late wor...
saw the bUs pAss mi dis mOrniNg siAnz...
ruSh to mrt hOpin to get the 7:09 trAin...miSsed it tOo...
tooK the 2nd trAin...miGht be lAtE....
met sCoTt on it...
waLked wif him to schOol
met zhen zhEn...on the way
bEll raNg..
Run in to the scHooL...cEceliA duTy haha
woAh i AlMost diEd...
cAnt bReAthE!
i siCk mAh...
gp v siAnz aRhz...sO tired didnt fall aslp at anI lessOnz exCept gp haha
afTer gp lAb...wenT to cAuSewaY pt wif anGlIn, ShuZhen, Bren, ChA, bEv, cArOl anD en en
we tOok photo sticKer...haha nice wor...
den went hOme le slp...

1609

nuttin special happened...jUx dat we tOOk oUr clZ pHoTos haha...

yesterDae

we went to brenDa's hSe for stEAMbOAt...yuM yuM before dat...we had lessoNz ms oNg werent there cUZ she go denTiSt...den mAtHs perioD we were at the lIb basemEnT...the guYz were plAyIn haha v fuNni...for the Whole hr aftEr gp i wAs lUffin awaE....haha den we went to biShan to bOok chAlet...bUt didnt bOOk cuZt hey sae theY dun proViDe dat service aNiMore... sO...we went to chubi hSe...wait for him to chONg liAng...den go bren'S hSe his jIe quiTe pretTy wor... den we tok tok awhile den go bren's hse...wah mS tan n mS liM so lAtE den come...eat eat eat didnt noe itz 9.30 le...no chOice hAv to go...piA cab go hoMe...tOOk the coUgh mediCine...den fell aSlp...stUpId thinGy mAke mi droWzy!

Now And Forever

2004-09-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

Whenever I'm weary
From the battles that raged in my head
You made sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way, but still you
Seem to understand
Now and Forever,
I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
That Heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you Each and every way I can
Now and Forever,
I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries
And always be sure
That I won't be alone, anymore
If I'd only known you were there
All the time,
All this time.....

Until the day the ocean
Doesn't touch the sand
Now and Forever
I will be your man
Now and Forever,
I will be your man..

sOb soBz...

2004-09-10T16:53:00.000+08:00

hAd been enjoyin too muchy le...cannot arhz...finalli i sat down and do my work...but i still cannot still still lehz...izzit cuz i hyperactive?no lehz...i can like slack one whole dae awae not doing anithingy but sit at a corner and stone de wor...mayb itz work...hate it arhz...haha

todae i woke up kinda earli...wanted to reply to the msg kim sent last nite...i was in the mist of reply den i reply until fall aslp haha...pro bAh? hEex...oPpz...sorri arhz kor...deN i hAd a nitemAre...i woKe up crYing...iTz reaLLi sCary lorx...imagine ppLe cHoppiN theMselves uP...deN they liCk the bLooD flowing from tHeir woUnd...lOokin at u wiF tHAt eviL eYes...tHe scAriest thinGy wAs whEn im suppOSed to do tHe sAme!aRhhHhh...xiA si wo le...den i jUmP oUt of bed...thEir face v bian tAi!eeeeeeee..mY gOOsepimPles coMing out agAin~ aRhhzz...itz beeN a long time since i woke uP cryin le the lAst time wAs wheN scott broke wif mi...so sAd...hAiz...

oHhh den i mSg kiM anD told him aBt it...at 1st i tort he slp le haha didnT nOe he replied mi...wOah...so kan leK dok xU wor.... =) hAha...den he sae he MoodsWinG...haha can uNderstAnd lA...tAuREaNz everytime lidat de...esP when he iS oNli a dAe lAter den mi...in teRms oF the dAte lArz...den he ask mi thingz abt bgr...i was hAlf awAke and i forot wad i told him...haha i oNli reMember i sAid it depEnds on whethEr the feeLingz iS mUtUAl...yAh den duNno wad le...den he aSk mi go slp...den i wanNA reply him le...bUt i feLL asLp wheN i wAs replyin hAlf-wae thRu...haha soRri agAinz...

kor...nor gu li dou sek yin zor nor msg li msg dOu fan jiOk zor bah?haha mm hOu yi si...haha li gah mui hAi xiao zhuzhu lei ge mah...

hMmm den i went out for breAkfaSt wif dAd, mUm anD joseph...den went hOme le slp agAin...reaLLi leading a piGgy's liFe haha...waKe up le kim jUx mSg mi...den we toktok as i watch tv den go oUt eat agAin...haha bUt im bAck le i do my pHySics...haha a bit oNli lArz...lAter im goNNa wAtch A1 tOu tiAo wif daddy mUmmy aT orchArd...bOOked the tix online...dATz why iM hErE bLoGGinG...

kUan wAnna go sEntoSa tml So the triP iS stiLL oN =) yEAh can go tAnNinG le...

kor, hoU hor seK li yAo prelims mmm tak yat cai huei fan...haha li jun xum dok xu...hAo dou hOu hou gAh cHan zek... =) deN nor dei zao yao li yao huei cheng zok lor...haha...ur man tai, leave it until after ur a lvl den solve bah...lui pan yao mah...man man lei...nor dui li yao soan xum...li ge "loupoR" yat deng we hOu leng gah >_'

hMMm mUZ go dO work agAin le...toNite go oUt watch moVie...tml go plAy...so caNnot coNtiNue to sLAck le...haha
colourful blog...

slackEr's liFe~

2004-09-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

i've bEen slAckin since friDaE~ omg...dAtz v bAd...haha...des few dae hAv beeN mSg kim wif cAntonese haha...v fun!!!

MoN...
wOke up aNd i fAced the coMPuter...sAw brAndOn oNline anD chAt wif hiM a whIle...den went Out wiF beV aND chiAlIng le...aCtuAlli we are suPpoSed to gO kBoX de...bUt oNli 3 oF uS i dun feeL like singINg le...cuZ not v fuN mAh...the mOre the merrier...haha sO we enD uP go oUt lorx...i was cOOking mAsh poTato wheN chiA- caLled aND she sAid she waNted soMe too sO i pAcked half of it to giV her...haha...v niCe hEEx...v cheeZy...i like...she sAe tAste not bAd oSo lA...oHHh yAh...suPpoSed to meeT keLLy anD caRol de...bUt they lAtE...sO we went to bUy tiX...we waNNA waTCh anAcoNda bUt they watCh le...so we were stiLL deciDin wAd to wAtch den duNNo from wre caMe aN ideA dat we watCh diFF mOVie lor...so we stiCked to anAcoNda and caroL and keLLy went to waTCh the ciNdereLLA story...

wOaH~ dAt mOvie dAmn nICe siAz...weLL mAyb i jUX love snAkes sO mUCh bAh...afTer the mOvie we went to aCcompAny beV cut hAir...den chiA and i wenT to plAy pOol uPstAirs wHile waitin for her...she cut le v nIce leHz...v guAi guAi liDat...haha den we went tO lOok for cArol aND keL...waH diFf to finD huHz wAlk here walk thEre like plAy hiDe anD seeK...
meet le chiA and bev went for diNner i mUz meet mUmmy oso den caroL sAe eN En coMiNg oSo...so i wAs lIke...cAn ask her driVe mi to liTTle indiA to mEet mY mUm?sO okie lor den wait for hEr...saw eve and joYce agAin~

afTer dat meet eN eN...den she drive mi thEre meet mAmA~ haha eN en driVe mi thEre woR! =D
at niTe...i wAs chAttin wiF kiM koRkor oN the pHoNe...wAh froM fuLl chArge tok uNtil my hP lOw bAtt aUto oFF...li hAi bAh...haha oHhh yAh...we cHAt cuZ of one mSg i sent him... "nor hOu gUA zu li arhz..." den he dun unDersTanD cuZ itz in caNto...haha den lidat lorz...

TuEz...
eArli mOrning kiM anDi go plAy bBAll aT tP...hAha...wAh plAy ABC dAmn sWay lor...2 timez i reAch 3 poinT le air bAll hAv to reStArt -_____-"' aftEr dAt we went swiMmin...haha...aftEr dat go eat moS...den chat v lOng arHz...den he send mi hOme...v slpy arhz...aftEr i reAch hOme i go orhorh le...till evening den wakey up for diNner anD stArt drAwin myself wif heNNa....haha

WeD...
MorniNg got chEm leCt..mS seaH iS bAck! =) haha den After dAt weiliAng, Ceyi aND zhen zheN cAme to my hse to do pRoJecT...sAe is do project bUt hAlf the time is uSed for slAckin...eat, plAy minesweeper plAy coM gAmez...we fiGht puZzle fiGhTer...wah they cant win mi~ haha den we bEcum go to the living rOOm plAy pS haha...plAy poCkEt fiGhter...hEEx...they plAy till 10 lidat den go hOme...

tHurZ...
woAh lAtE le...suPPoSed to meeT chOnGtAk at 9.30 bUt i 9.00 den woke up...cUz we r suPpoSed to mEet yAng lAoshi bUt duNNo wre he diSAppear to le...den choNgTaK jio plAy cS so go loRx...wAs thinKin dAt i like suPpoSed to see kiM in sCh so...i caLled him anD ask him go plAy wif uS lor...haha den he agReEd

went to chONgtAk'S hse...wAh hiS rOOm...wOoo neATEr den mine siAz!haha den he bAtHe den we sit sit lOOk at piCtUrEs den go oUt meet chUbi~ woAh dAt zhiHonG huHz...hAiz...lAtE! hahaha den we went seLegie plAy cs...afTer dAt go eat dAohUey agAin~ woAh...nice...den walked to pS...go eat...den go aRcade...wOah...soNg arHz...i woN mAn at hiRosAkA...mAhhahAha....v soNG!

den kIm send mi bAck...den chubi, choNgtAk and Ceyi stArt tHeir gAme...they foLLowed uS bAck...hOw i nOe? sAw cEyi when i wAs in the tRain...den we went to them...tHey sAe go chiNatown...but they're taking the wrong side...so they got doWn...bUt got up the train from the oThEr dOor thinkin dat we didnT noe...den at bOOn keng the ruShed dowN the trAIN thinkin dat we didnt noe...so we went to lOOk for them haha...ceyi and chubi did even notice dat i was beside them, still hiding beside the pillAr haha...thinkin dat they realli go back le...we left the station den they follow us all the wae baCk to my esTAte...i went uP le den go see kim from the lift area den was curioUs why he walk into the bLoCks so i caLLed him...he sAw cHubi they aLL agAin haha den end up all oF them come mY hse sit sit loRx...haha den ct shower at mY hSe haha den they left loHz...and im hEre bloGging le haha...

gtg lE...mUZ stuDy i canNot continue to slAck lor wiLL die de...hahaha

toDae iS fOfo's bdAe!!!happi BdAe lAoGong! muAcKz

2004-09-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

hAppi bdAe FoFo =) lAogong...sOrri i didnt noe itz ur bDae mAh...i nv celebratEd ur bdae wif u before wor...hEEx...aniwae...next yr den come back celebraTe wif mi uR lAoPo hAo mAh?dat meanz after u come baCk ard june dat time le...ur bDae come bAck again...we go canDlelite dinner...go lAng mAn lAnG mAn...haha...*muAckIez* luRvE yA *i wan hug hug~*

darlin...i realli enjoy chattin wif u...u noe how muChy i missed u?plS hurri bAck to siNgapore!cAnt wait to cyA and spend time wif u lehz...

hEEx....so mani thingy happened dat i forgot wAd hAppenEd haha...ok larz im toot la and damn forgetful...but u think i wan meh...i no time come in blog mah ="""( *soBz...* can if i alWaez coMe in and blog mY poSt will be short short de...long ones nicer mah haha...okok bAck to zheng ti

yEst, sAturdAe oHhh...hAd my chEm and pHySics sAturdae test...siAnz...chem pAss le aRhz...but i think pHysics fail le...hOpe not loRx...haha i wAs studying for chem all the wae didnT touch physics until afTer my chem test...'powderful' hor...haha hMMm den i went to have lunch wif chia-ling, songyu and chris...walk ard yishun there nuttin to eat lehz...cuz a lot pple mah...den ended up eating bK lorz...den chat chat a while den go back...songyu pei mi wait for bus...den when i board, i tried to scan my ez-link card...but no card!!!cannot scan...den v malu-ating...so hav to alight the bus...lucky songyu haben go yet, borrow money from him...den i recalled that chia-ling took my card! iTchy hAnDz, qian mi da le...haha den i tried to call her to confirm that my card was wiF hEr...she nV anSwer mY caLL wor...win lE lor...hAi mi pAniC...plUs my hp lOw bAtt wor...i forgoT to chArge lAst niTe...den i sO tired waNt to go hoMe slP...den kEnnA delAyed...u sAe shud i beat her up?haha sound violenT....bUT iM wAd!den nO choIce lorz...wAit for neXt bUs...den soNgYu pei mi waiT again...haha den took the buS bAck...fell a slp on the bus...cuZ got bitZ tRaffIC jAm at CTE...so mi shui zao le...

when i got home i bathe le den lower the blinds in my room, on air con and cover the blAnket over my heAd and try to sLp...wah...shui bu zao!!!think i have too mani things on my mind le...wad i oso forgot le...den when i was abt to fall aslp le...den my hp rang...kim call mi...den heard my slpy voice...( -_____- )" haha den he no sae much den let mi orhorh den i was thinkin he call mi for wad den jux took my hp and msg mi wad lor...he ask mi go eat daohuEy... den my eyes was o_o...den ok lorxz...go lorz...den da ban mei mei den go out...cuz aniwae later muz meet bev they all...

after dat meet them le i eat daohuey den we walk to pS...sO mAni pPle!!!!
SharoN : " wAh so mani pple...why so mani?!"
kim : " todae saturdae lehz...of cuz alot pple larz"
shAr0n : "ask them to leave lehz...i dun like so mani pple...haha"
kim : "..."
hEEx...den we walked ard...den go tke train le...tOOk to mArinA den baCk and i aliGhted at orchArd...meet wif bev and chia-ling...bev bought a slipper for mi =) thX darlin...but hAoyi leHz?no hEre yet wor...he v xUn lehz haha...reaChed orchArd abt 15min earlier den mi stiLL habeN founD them haha...but still mAnAged to la...den we went for dinner at cineLeisure...wah niCe fOOD...den we proCeeded to clEmenti le...

got cuTe guy on tRAin!haha...den i finalli saw keLLy uPcloSe haha...den saw rui rui again~ my darlin...haha hUgz...den went ot watch the oPera le...waH got aNother sHuaI gege...haha
the opera not bad la...but didnt understand it...mayb i dun like singing de...haha inside got dance...i like...they did polish character...i remember!!!i got dance before mah...haha cuz ogt maZurka...and holivex(dunno how to speLL...haha) but still left earli...so late le wor...i v slpy lo...den we went back and met chubi and edden...chat awhile and took a cAb home...

todae daddy woke mi up in the morning to eat bah kut teh...yUck...i dun like dat..but im shud a guai gal u noe so i go accompany him eat lorz...v nan de to hav the whole family eating together these daez...so i listen lor...haha den after dat went home and continued my sweet dreamz...unfortunately i nv dream of anithingy haha...den 3 pm i went to meet chubi,edden, songyu, zhongyi, shuzhen and hao yi to play cS...wahLAo eh dat songyu duNNo is wanna tio dai ji from mi izzit aRhz...kip fraggin mi...i noe i v louSy oso dun nid lidat bully mi de mah~ taoyAn!after cS we go eat daohUey agAin~ haha wah...den i met mummy to hav dinner...at cine...den we go shop shop awhile, i bought a shorts and bikini and she bought a bangle like thingy...haha spend a lot money again~ hAiz...im gettin poorer each dae...onli noe how to spent nv save... ="""(

and now im back bloGging haha...todae not a lot activity la...slack onli...heeX

mS seaH siCk le!!!

2004-09-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

ms seah not in sch again todae =( but mr lim came to tAke oVer the clZ =) haha he cuT hair todae wor...bU hao kan ke...but nv hair will grow de...long le den hao kan again liaoz...haha okok back to mS seah...wah her throat infection realli bad wor...so mani daez no come...no come for teachers' dae celebration too =( den nv see my perFormAnce...soBx...FEL'S FAN CLUB president cant get ms seah to watch her performance...soBz soBz...hAiz...jUz hOpe dat mS seah will get well real soOn =) we miss yA!!! sobz...come baCK sOon...but dun worri cuz i will do mY beSt~ so sae le mUz do...mUx go stUdY liAoz...

ohh yAh...the dAnce...i wAs realli fed uP when pple sae dat our dance wAs copied from MI's mAss dAnce!oMg...plS lArz...we cheograpHed the dance oUrselVes...i've nv even seen the MI mass dance before lorz...how to copy?wHoever who started dis shit rumour can pls clarify urselves...i wan my credit back...it belongs solely to mi and my dancers! Jux cuz of the soNg, doesnt mean we copied their dance...im not dat unoriginal kaez...i may alwaez dl mp3 from net but i will not do that for dance!and...those whu noe how dat mass dance look like...u guyz shud noe the difference...and pls correct the pple whu still saez dat it is from MI~ plS dun tke oUr creDit awae...itx unfair to us...especialli when we came up wif the steps by ourselves...we put in lotas hard work in it de lehz...

MUZ GO le...i wAnNA stUdy~

FINaLLI oVer!!!

2004-08-31T20:08:00.000+08:00

30th aug...
Sharon n ShuZhen went to jog togethEr...raN aroUnd yiShun at abt 7 pluS till 8...wah lOng run...but duNNo how long was the distance...haha...when we reAched northpoint area it wAs 8 liDAt lorx...den we raN ard lOOkin for chiCkeN riCe to eaT...but noNe wAs oPenEd!kAoz...so nO choIce...we went to hAve our diNner at the fOOdcourt...we shared hOr fun den ate desserts...haha...den we slOwly walk bAck to tHe stAtion to tke traIN hOme...left 1 min! den i ruShed up lOrx...deN gUess wAd?!met sCott oN the trAin! =) haha...he cAme over anD toked to mi as i wAs seaRching for my pHone...i didnt nOe he wAs on the traiN...onli sAw weijie aND zhiJian...haha den tok and tok...hAppi lorx haha...

31 Aug
woke uP lAte dis mOrning...iRritAtin de leHz...everytime i try to be earli i sure lATe de...den sWay swAy kennA stOmaCh aChe...pAin liKe heLL lorx...den we gAtHer to leAd the sch in bOxerciSe...mAlU-ating leHz...wAh but stILL mAnagE to mAke iT kiNda suCcessFul la...haha

den afTer dAt we gAtHerEd at the stUdy cenTrE for soMe drinKz aND we did "yAm senG' thRiCe...evErYtime SplAshing watEr at cHonGtAk haha...den i oSo got tiO lA...bUt nOt as mUChy as ct haha...den we went to clz for lessOnz...chinese lesson laoshi was tokin abt ci xi tai hOu...haha den we didnt do work oso la...after dat we got excused from attending maths lect so we go walk ard den i go meet the rodney gals to practice le...and prepare for teachers' dae...change, make up and all dat LAr...

malu case 1 : have to teach the college boxercise...
malu case 2 : to sae my hse-mistress' name wrongly... -_-"
malu case 3 : they said i dance till too sexy le...( wadapiAnGz...did i?okie loR mY faulT lor...)
malu case 4 : im teased by my clzmates and frenz... ="o
next time i suo xing stand there dun do anithingy lor...

den iT was performAnce time le...v gan chiong aRhz but it tUrnEd oUt gReat! =) no miStaKes Jux a biT FF bEAt...we were doinG iT too fAst...haha bUt the effect wAs greAt =)

aftEr dat i went for lUnch wif bo en, yeehao and kim...den went out wif kim for movie...Alien vs predAtor...wAh...dat movie er xin lehz...tHey gluey gluEy sticky sticky stuFfs...haha but the pyramid realli v speciAl wor...very interestin...haha

den we went to cityhall walk walk...den sit outside esplanade there...many memories there...sad or happi...i still rememeber v clearly dat wre we sat todae was somewre v near wre him and mi sit in the past...den he send mi home...on the wae back...we went to buy chocolate...wanna to get the one wif alcohol content but scare not nice t0o eat sO didnt buy in the end haha...

got home le oso nuttin betta to do...jux chat and miss him...

hey hey hey

2004-08-30T18:48:00.000+08:00

wAH i v tired arHz...sianZ dao...tml is teAchers' dAe liaoz le haha...exciTed siAz...plus afTer dat i'LL be free le!!!so buSy lehZ......wha todae chem n pHy test die loRx...pHy fail till cham cham...last nite dunno do wAd shit canT get A SINGLE THINgY IN my bLoODy head~ blEahZ...

hMmm...tok a lot to kim kor last nite haha...tok wad arhZ dun tell yAh!

oH yAh...sat nite i went for the z pop concert!nice wor...but i stand till my leg damn pain lor...wah lao so mani sun's fan...cant stand arhz...=s all there churchmates lai de...

hAiz todae ct try to del scott de pHoto in mY hp again le...waH he anti-scott wor...so sAd...hAiz...i oso wonder when will the dae come when i realli bear to delete all his photos from my hp lehz...dun wish dat dae to come...but i noe if it dun mY potential prince wun come into mY liFe...even if he appear i wiLL miSs the chAnce...hAiz...realli love him lotz...

it pains my heart to see dat u r so near to mi but i cant be wif u...
its real killer...every single dae and nite u've nv left my mind...
and knowing that no matter wad i do, u'LL nv come back...

hEEx...

2004-08-30T18:43:00.000+08:00

hArloW!!!!! Shu Zhen here le.... heheehehehesssss......

This sharon arh... bth arh....... shou bu liao ta.... lalaaaaa..... so skinny.. 47kg only los... muZ eAt and Eat more hoR....... if nOt wInd cOme She suRely bE bloWn oFf de.... ahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

waH.... so Coldddd.d...wor... *shiver*...

miSsin fOfO

2004-08-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

wOAh dis weeK is a super busy week for mi...so mAni stUffs...esP bZ wif the teAchers' dae de...v tired...stiLL goTTa do the inTerviewin for the potentiAl oGls....waH da piAngz...sO mUchy work hAben dO yEt...go bAck hOme tired tiLL no energY le...

yEstErdaE wAs practiCing boXerciSe wif 1s1...shout till gonna sore throat arhz...diStuRb kim wheN he wAs siTtin at the benCh areA oUtSide the dAnce stUdiO haha...sAw sCott tOo =) hEEx...but hE nV sEE mi...deN at niTe wif the roDney gaLz doinG oUr dance...den toDae reheaRsal arhz...1 dAe onli wor...lAst nite stAy up wif yi gege to do the remixinG of the tRaCk...haha i oWe him a big fAvour...

i tokEd to mY lAoGong....fOfO...i miSs him sO muCh...iTz beeN a yEar sinCe i've sAw him wheN he suDdenLy diSaPPeaRed durinG the juNe holiDaeZ...wiThOut teLLin aniOne of uS dAt he iS goinG oVerseAz to sTuDy...u noe hOw sAd i wAs deN?as hiS lAopO i duNNo a single thing...he leFt hiS dAuGhtEr and mi hErE...=( im v gLaD dAt we got to chaT with eaCh oThEr...hE's in chiNa now...hAving hiS breAk i think...FofO lAoGonG...i miSs u sO mUCh...reAlli lOOk forWarD to nEw yR wheN u coMe to sIngApoRe...u beTTA noT bluFF mi leHz...lAtEr u suDDeNli sAe not cominG bAck agAin i wiLL crY let u see de...flY aLL the wae to wre u r aRhz...den u pAy for my air tiX hEEx...wHen u coMe bAck im goNNa accompAny u as muCh as i cAn... =D *huGz*.

wonDerinG...how we got mArried huHz?i foRgOt le...jUX suDdenLi sAe dat u become my lAoGonG...hEEz gLAd dAt mi, ur 4th wife, becoMe 1st le...haha hapPi to hear dat amonG so mani he "loVe" mi the moSt haha...seCondary sch arhz reaLLi got nuTTin bettA to plAy...sec 4 stiLL plAy dis kind of stUffz haha...

okok bAc to toDae...wAdapiangz haD the reHaersaL...wAh not guD...iT sux loRx....i think we did reaLLi badly...loNg time no perform le...staGe friGht arHz!mUZ praCtiCe arHz...they stiLL unsure of the steps arhz.... -_-" but for a dae's effort not baD le lArz...den we onli spent like 1 1/2 hrs on it?haha *clAp*

gtg le...mUz do mY work...mUz study...cannot let mS seaH, mS onG, mS tan, mS lim doWn arhz...anD cAnnot let myself and daddy mummy dowN oso...promiSed to do weLL de...*goNez*

boxERCIsE

2004-08-24T11:53:00.000+08:00

aces dae coming le lehz...den ms lim as mi hlp in doing the workout on that dae...and the whole 1s1 is involed =) haha v fuN! yesterdae, in the dance studio play until like hella...haha...v tired wor...den dance until my leg kenna blister!!!chongtak oso got woR!

"hai you wad huhz?"
Chongtak shruGs...haha

hMMm...duNNO la...teAchErs' dae coming le...rodney stuff haven even come out yet...the cd oso not out sianz lorz im gonna die le....

hMMm last nite nv do phy =( but i almost finish my chem tutorial...achievement wor...haha den msg a lot pple...kenna "scolded" by jAsoN for not going for the meeting...sorri lArz...althouGh a bit on pUrpoSe de haha...bUt lAst nite tok to u u oSo shuAn bu chang le bAh....hMMm guEss nuTtin le...haha *gonez*

the kNot in mY heart

2004-08-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

i duNno wAd hAppened recenTly...iTz like scott anD i arenT freNz aT all liDat...hMM didnT tok mUCh or shUD i sae at aLL...mayb iTz oso my fault bAh...i didnt wannA face him...i dunno wad to sae to him...i dun wanna love him but i cant hlp it...i jux look forward in seein him everydae...but one the other hand i noe dat its impossible for us to be together again...it jux makes mi so jealous to see him tokin to other galz noe...i dunno why...as long as he is tokin to a gal i would feel v unhappi...den poor zhongyi and chialing and carol hav to bear wif all my nonsense...sorri arh bRo...haha not i wanna zheng dui u but u too crappy until i cant stand den shoot ya...soRri la

todae after sch carol and i accompany zU en go cold storage buy ingredients to make eve's cake...so sweet lehz...although dey break le...but she still treat eve so gud...so sweet noe...if he liddat den gud le...but i noe that dae wun come de not even in my dreams man...i realli feel useless siaz...academically and emotionally...i alwaez tot that i wun so affect by a guy...so long le i still cant put the relationship down...now i noe how junwei felt...how my ex- z felt...im jux so sorri...

i jux wish i could end my life...one part of my life saes dat no matter wad i muz giv up scott but the other part of mi jux cant do it...he is a dead knot in mi...alwaez entangled in mi...cant be undone and i dun wanna undo it...am i v silly to wait for him liddat...knowin very very well dat its jux futile?if he were to come back to mi i would surely accept him de...cuz i jux lOve him so much...

yesterdae was a bad dae although i portrayed to be rather happi...but inside mi i was weepin...cant he jux come back and love mi?izzit so difficult?sobz...can i turn back the hands of time and alwaez remain in those daes spent wif him?i will do anyting as long as he return to my side lorx...sobz...jux tell mi wad i shud do...as long as its within my limits i wud definately do it de...

i wanna walk home wif u by my side...feel ur heartbeat as im in ur arms and feel ur lips again...sobz

I JUZ cANT sToP loVinG u...NO ONE cAn rEPLAcE uR PLaCE in mY hEArt...

snowin in mi

2004-08-15T17:57:00.000+08:00

xin zhi xiang ni hui zai hui lai
xiang ze ni,
chong mei gai bian,
zai du guo ze yi wan

mei yi tian dou huai nian ni
huai nian zai zhe chan shi zhong deng ni
ni ai shuo
ai xiao
ai yu wo tong hui wei...

well i jUx hAd nuttiN bettA to dO wor...so mAni thinGyz hAppened lAtely dat i oSo no mOod to tok abT loRx...depreSsed and fridae 13...earli in the morning got scolded by ms tan...den found dat i lost 10 buckz...kaoz...damn lorx...

life is tormenting man...i cant forget him...ultimately its still him...yeye...how?if bro andy noe he is gonna scream mi again...haiz...shao le ta de shou bei dang zhen tou wo hai bu zi guan

ni shen bian shi fou you ge ta......qu dai wo zai ni shui qian wen ni ma?

national dae le...

2004-08-09T11:21:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was church dae..heeX went for church in the morning den to scott's church at nite...yuPx...weLL he was kinda buSy bUt he still did try to tok to zhong yi and mi =) the ting wAs nice esPecialli the skit =) yupz and saw mani familiar faces...truely enjoyed myself last nite...heex... (mayb cuz he was there ba...)

todae is national dae and oso chubi bdae =) happi bDae cHubi!!!

going to watch the ndp again tonite...yes... for the 2nd time heex...got tix wad so juz go lorx...haha

i've got nuttin to sae >_<

2004-08-06T19:52:00.000+08:00

itz national dae celebration todae...haha kinda fUn...bought a short skiRt from mS chuA a top and neCklace frOm ms seah....haha wah spend so much money...broke le arz...die...no money buy present le...

todae after the celebration, bev, cha, rui rui, debbie and cha's fren went party world sing song!haha...lOng time no go k le...fun!!!well although got bits sore throat, dun care jux go ahead~ haha...sick le...prepare to attend my funeral soon yah?

I dun wanna love someone else except him...

i wanna fly!
to escape from dis world.
pls tke mi awae...forever...

"i wanna love u forever...ur all i ever wanted...to alwaes remain in ur sweet embrace..."

i hate mi...

2004-08-04T19:34:00.000+08:00

itz a wonderful nite dat dae...but i was extremely sorri for my action dat made him misunderstood...

kinda happi at first...cuz i passed my physics saturdae test... =) but i felt stressed emotionalli...haiz...i dunno...i dun wanna drag dis stuff so i told him le...i hope he understands...u noe...i still hav feelings for scott,mayb not as much le ba...and i cant afford to hurt someone i noe so well and whu have been my fren for so long!!!

todae...he walked mi home and mummy saw us...and she tort we are together but we wernt...and i guess she was rather unhappi and worried abt mi...iTz the 1st time i toked to her abt my love life...of cuz she didnt noe abt mi and scott and i think she isnt as open as i tort when it comes to my relationship wif guyz...i may not be mature enuff to handle all these craps but itz jux part of growing up...i guess i made her worri even more den i asked her if she would mind if i have a boyfren provided dat i tell her larz...well i dunno wad will happen hav to wait till she comes back tonite and see how it will go...

hAiz...sam kor im realli sorri...

soBz...

nDp...

2004-08-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

todaE iS pHySics sAt dAe tEst...waH quiTe ok worz...thinK caN pAss bA...aFtEr dAt we wsent to hAv breAkfaSt...we wanTed to have it at mAc bUt the guYz wanTed kFc so we boUght iT oVer to kFc anD eat...thrU oUt the gUyz were tokin abT pHySics tEst....aftEr dAt we went to plAy bball while waitin for weiliAng to finiSh hiS biO tEst...when he was here le we do ouR pw...den at 1.40pm liDat we plAy bbAll again tiLL 2 plUs den hAv to rUsh hOme for nDp preView...

hEEx...went for nDp wif pX and hAoYi...yuTing wAS suPpoSed to coMe tOO bUt we wait for her for sO lOng till we pEkcHEk den sHe stiLL in sCh...den dun wAnA waiT le...i dun hAv so mUch pAtience aND so gReAt to sAcrifiCe sO mUch oF the perfoRmAnCe waitin for hEr...cUZ the thinGy stArTed le...bitz gUo fen lorx...more den an hR le bAh...buEy tAhAn loRx...

the preView wAs v nice...niCe performAnce...wonDerFul fiReWorks hEEx...weLL i fiNAlLi met Roy...The army bOi mAmA hAve bEen tokiN abT...waH he reaLLi v cuTE!!!taLL and kiNDa tAn...hAha even pX oso sAe...if nV rmb wrongly he dun hav gf yEt...PX sAe kiNDa iMpossiBle lo...but i duNNo lehz...hAiz...mighT not be able to see him aGaiN le...hOW?

im depressed...

2004-07-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

liStEn uP,
iM dEpRESseD!!!!!!!!!!

life sUx u nOe...and iTx stInkz bAdlY...wAd d hecK aM i doINg in diS stUpid woRld?!i tOrt eVeRyThinGy wiLL be fiNe...bUt wHy evErYtimE whEn i thinK dAt life is a bit bEtTA le reAliTy sEemz tO pROve mi wRonG!!!dAmn thIs plAcE...stUpid life...i raThEr diE~

itx the 1st time i've seen him in the library since we broke up...he sat wif us reading his history book again...but at least he still comes and sit wif us...i dunno why and i dun wanna noe...but we were doing our own stuffs den...den we went for lEarnin jourbey...actually is juz to go and see the fAbric of the nation...not bAd lArz...see le alMost pUke onli wAd...so mAni...i wonder if the people sewing it got puke not...hEEx...den went to mos eat wif the galz...saw azaleas and gang...wif daniel...he realli gay arhz?alwaez wif galz...cant stand...his actions oso gay...chia, bev and carol oso sae so lorx...*goOSepimPLez* evoLuTion of sinGapore mEn?eeeee die le lArz...wRe can kAo him to proTect the coUnTry?!omg...

haiz...cAn i get a beTTa liFE?!dis sux u nOe?i reaLLi wiSh dat i can jUz vAnISh from the sUrfAce of the EaRtH!

i dun wanna noe...

2004-07-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

"i dun want wanna noe...if u'r playin mi kip it on the low...Cause my heart can't take it anymore...And if your creepin...please don't let it show...Oh baby... I don't wanna know"

haiz wAdz happenin to my life?itz all screwed up...sianz...or shud i ask wad the heck happened to mi?itz not my usual self...wre am i?life is so sleepy dez daez...other den him my mind is alwaez sleep...i dun wanna escape frm reality but my mind is makin mi do it!haha...well seeMz like i muz plAce all my hopes on physics and study it well if not i'll be failing all my subjects le...fail chem and maths saturdae test cant fail physics as well... =( pw is v sianz...

im stressed...physicalli, mentally, and wadever -ly dat can be stressed...haha oH Lord sAve mi...shall i cut my hair short?juz like guy...hEex...ohh i got gold for napfa =)

hMmm i met pat todae...while was on the wae to deli to do pw...haha so mei now...haha...oh yah...dat dae i went to tok to ms lim...she asked mi why am i so stressed lidat...asked mi okie nots...well of cuz sae yah de lorx...not xi guan in pouring out my feeling to the teachers...but dunno why dis time i did so...guess ms seah oso noe bah...but not the details...hmm she told mi, up there were sayin mi and scott dun suit each other...and told mi lots abt love...haha and comfort mi alot...thx mS lim =) ...but one thingy i dun understand is why dun we suit?in wad area?i dun understand...am i realli so darn dumb to not realize things or wad?i duno lehz...even scott thinks dat we dun and i guess im the onli one whu think otherwise...mayb cuz i love him too much...muz realli let go...if not im the onli one sufferin...realli affects mi lotz...teachers sae the bubbly side of mi is gone...ms lim, ms ong and ms seah....haiz...got mah?onli when im alone bah...i still got crap and luff along wif everyone mahz...well mayb when time pass it will be bac to norm le haha...i love smiles...wre is cheery shuhui?

muz call myself shuhui again...if not i scared i will forget im shuhui haha...well...was readin bev's blog jux now...i realli agree dat why am i in jc in the 1st place...or shud i sae why do i wanna go?izzit merely cuz i cant afford to go overseaz?now i wanna study overseas...i wanna see the world...Singapore is so small, sad and tiny place...haha...doubt i wud ever hav that chance...i used to sae if scott was accepted into cjc instead we wudnt hav met...wud it be diff den?will we be brought together by fate den the whole story jux continues?u mean i cant escape from all this sadness?or mayb the person whu wud make all these happen whu be him?den there wun be an ending to all this lor... -_-" for now...i jux wanna realli accept the fact that we cud onli be frenz...can i do it?guess so...but not so fast ba...im silly yah?hMMm...he used to alwaez tell mi, " dun be silly..." did i realli become silly le or am i jux darn silly? "-_-

truely...

2004-07-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

i love Scott...

and i miss him...badly...i miSs hiS hugz anD kiSseS...*tiCkles* can i not let u gO???mUx i realli do it?

iM suPer shAq...haven beeN slpinG mUch for the pAst weEk...everydAe aftEr 2aM...saVe mi...

do i hav a choice?

2004-07-17T19:04:00.000+08:00

i've not slept well since the breakup...im suffering from missin u...sch and stress...and of cuz sadness too...the 1st ting dat came to my mind when u forwarded dat msg to mi was snow...not moon...itz rather true...cuz i love and miss u...

i stayed up last nite to study my chem for todae's tEst...bUt i guEss i wiLL stiLL faiL...iM jUx uSelesS larz...i cOuld uNderstanD evErythinGy...bUt i didnT hAv the time to dO the qUesTioNz i nOe...didnT hav eNuff time...sO soRRi...mS sEaH...i diDnT meAn to disapPoiNt u oVer and oVer again...afTer dAt wAs my chiNesE pAper...v tiRed...dUn hAv the coNcenTraTion to Do it...aND guess i'Ve wriTTen oUttA point for mY comPo tOo...hE ainT in sCh todAe...pOn tEst, pOn debAtE...duNNo...didnT mSg mi the wHole dAe...and iM feeLin sICk nOw...hEadAche, nAusea and sliGht fever...mAmA got tix to Ndp previEw...bUt go alOne...siAnz sO dun go lo...

u nOe...if we didnT sPliT...itz oUr 1st month anNiVersAry...weLL at firSt i wAs lOOking foRwaRd to it...bUt nOw iT reminds mi dAt iM frAgile inSiDe...mAyb yE wAs coRrect...i aint as sTrong as i seeMz to Be lorz...but Not dAt weaK riTez....haha

i remembered dat oN dis dAte...a moNth agO...we fell together den kiSsed for the 1st time anD u sAid "i love u".and held my hands startin the 1st dae of our relationship but 13 daez lAtEr u toLD mi wAD happened anD asKed for mY decisioN on whethEr we shOuld continUe notx...i was huRt...and i was afrAid dat i miGht be hurt iF we were to conTinue...sO i shOok mY hEad...tHe next secoNd i regReTted my decisiOn.....den u asked mi if i bear to let it end i shook my head agaiN...and we continued to be together...i was happi cuZ at least i feel wanTed...bUt sAd cuz iM not suRe whEn wiLL u sae dat we will end it...den in sch the next dae...i wasnt avoiding u...jux dat i wanted u to approach mi to tok to mi...but lOOks liKe we haD a miSunDerstaNDin...and i was depReSsed the whole dae...i criEd...

at nitE...i mSg u to askin, " do u stiLL love mi?"...u changed the toPiC saying dat u wiLL caLL mi lAtEr...i was glAd at leaSt u reMmeber u haD to caLL when u said u wiLL...bUt my heart wAs broken once agAin...we stArted too faSt anD u sAid iTz bEst if we diScontinUe for a period of timE...anD u stiLL didnT anS mY questIon...aftEr we spliT...i was having the hOpe dat u wiLL come bAck to mi...i knEw u wun...so i lied to mYself over and over again...i knew ur anS all along...i guEss dat nite...u told said dat we shud giv another try cuz i was crying...not cuz u realli wanted to...

things had happened so fast...one month ago u said u love mi...i was so happi u did...one month later i tell myself...dat u are not coming back to mi animore...life have to go on...the intentions of hurting myself was gone....once again...buT nO matter wAd...i wiLL stiLL love u...u will alwaez have a special place in my heart...even thouGh iTz onli a shOrt time dat we were togethEr...i muz thAnk u for giving mi wonderful memoRies...i love u...so im lettin u go...

=S

2004-07-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

siAnz...i wAs aLmoSt lAte for sCh toDae...ruShed in jUz before nAtionAl anthem...phew...v sLpy arhz...todAe wAs piA-ing mY chem tutoriaLz...i cAnt aFford to flUnk my sAt tesT mAn...iF not mS seaH woUld be super diSapPoIntEd in mi lE... =S

hMmm toDae got investiTuRe reHeaRsaL again...waH...kinDa siAnz bUt cAn poN tRg so nVm bA...reaLLi beGinnin to hAte bbAll cUz of tRg...hAiz...soBz man...oHHh i hAd diNner wiF scOtt anD frEnz aND my bro, zhOnGyi...cUZ scOtt waited for mi toDae =D hEEx..den tOOk tRain bAck...hEEx...

tOniTe hAv to coNtinue mY muGGinG cAmp...

...

2004-07-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

iM supEr slPy mAn slPt at 3am lAst niTe...wAs doIng my worK...siAnz toDae a lvl oRal...waH lAst 2 persoNz to tke...nVm bA...sit thEre tok shun biAn see scoTT plAy teNNis froM faR...haha...i miSsed hiM...soBx...

stArt oF muGGinG caMp le...soBx...i caNt fLuNk mY tEst agAin...cAnnoT!!!!

and i love u so...

2004-07-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

i fluNked my testS!mAtHs. and cheM...soBz...terribLe i mUz stArt mUgginG caMp liAoz...cant slAck aNiMore...

todaE wAs a raTher terriBle dAe...wAs aLmoSt late for sCh!den forgot to bRing my tRg stUffs anD pHySics tuToRiaL...stUpid wor...

todAe is hiS oRaL...hOpE he doEs reaLLi weLL...weDnEsdaE mY tURn le...hMMm...jUX nOw afTer sCh...BEfore mY reHeaRsAl, he sAw mi wiF soNgyu...wOnder if he got liKE unHapi abT iT noT...cUZ mi n sy kinda close frenz...i hOpe noT...hOpe dat it doesnt giv hiM the wrong ideA...haiz doUbt he wiLL lArz...soBx...

i realli dun wanna leaVe him lorx...it breaKs mY heart whenever i see him and nOe dat he haD left mi...bUt i canT stAnd the daez whErE i duN see hiM cUz i wiLL miSs him loTx...and i stiLL cant fuLLy let go even aftEr my hair cuT...wAd the hEll lorx...y do i liKE lOve him sO mUCh?

"dun let go of my hands, cuz if u do i will fall and hurt mYseLf..."

and "itx been agEs siNce u sAid i loVe u...bUt i wan u to noE...i am still loving u..."

pls be by my side...

2004-07-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

u Noe...iT mAke oNli be the 4th dae after oUr breaKuP bUt iM feeLin much bEttA nOw...mUch mUch betTA...esPeciAlli todAe...cUz he went out wif mi...i mUx sae dat i reaLLi enJoYed hiS comPany...the oNli diff wAs he iS nO lOnger my bOyfreN... ="(

we wenT to pLAza sinG bUt the earliest time slot is 6.50...tOO lAtE!!!so we wEnt to ciTyhAll loRz...

we waTChed wiNDstrUck toDae...had been pesTerin hiM to waTch siNce iT oPeNed...iTz greAt...and toUchinG!!v nICe moViE...den we waLked to clArKe quAy...chAt...yah...den tOOk a bus to buGiS...waLKed ard...anD bouGht diNner hOme for mUmmY...on the wae bAck we met fOOkAi at the buS stOp...on the bUs we toKed a bit lArz...bUt when fOOkai asked iF he's mY bf, he saiD nO...alThOuGh iTz trUe...bUt i doEs hUrt mi muCh...soB soBx...

oH yah...i got mYself a new hair cuT...feeLin so mUch betTEr afTer i cuT my HAir =) mAyb iTz sOme pSychO stuffs lArz...im not as depressed...alThOuGh i stiLL loVe hiM alOt...the prObLem nOw iS im nOt sUre iF he stiLL hAv feeLinz for mi...i hOpe hE doEs...cUZ i think unlEss thErE iS reaLLi nO pOssiBiLity dAt we wiLL ever be toGetHEr agAin...iF noT i wiLL not force mYself to forGEt mY lOve for hiM...yAh and he tickle mi again...sO bAd...

siLLy ger wAdz...mAyb thAt's juX mi ba...

2004-07-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

i'Ve lovEd u...iM stiLL lovinG u aNd i alWAez wiLL...

shAttErEd

2004-07-09T19:09:00.000+08:00

he left mi...i cant tke it lorx...i doUbt he even love mi aniMOre...if nOt why he chanGed the topic when i asKed hiM if he still love mi?iM feeliNg shAttered...broKen inTo a millioN piEces haVing ppLE aRd me teLLin mi dAt we weRe not meAnt to be...cL dAt he feeL dAt i wAsnt hiS type...dO i giv uP or sHud i coNtiNue to hOpe dAt we wiLL hAv a chAnce to be togeTher in fUture, after we nOE eaCh oTher beTTa...

i duNNo...i jUX cAnt cOntrOl mY eMotioNz...mY heArt iS sO heAvy...i dun bear to pArt wif hiM...i duN...

"the people who realli care wun hurt you, but if they do,u'll see in their eyes, for they'll be hurtin too." does dis apply to him? ="(

"AsK mi wHy i kip on loVing you wHen itx cLeAr thAt u dUn fEeL the SaMe wAe fOr mi...thE prObleM ix dAt as muCh as i cAnt forcE yOu to love mi, i caNt fOrce mysElf to stoP loVing yOu..."

i dun wanna pick pieces of my shattered heart

2004-07-07T20:18:00.000+08:00

i saw it coming...but i didnt noe dat it was so soon...for once i tort God had finalli send u...but he seems to want to tke u back...

"Sae that u never stopped loving mi, but jux for this moment that u didnt let it show..."

"And as i stand here lookin at u, i wonder if there will ever be a dae when i will get over ur smile...when i will let go of the hugs u gave mi, or whatever happens to us...i noe i could never get over, let go, or forget u..."

siAnz mAn~

2004-07-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

toDae.....duNno why whOle dAe like not hAppi...mOOd swiNg dAez...gueSs is cUz he diDnt come to sch todAe...hAiz...sO mUCh work to do! i jUx finIShed pW!aNd i stiLL hAv so mAni tUtorialz to do!oMg iM liKe...ruShin tHru?!hAiz dun even noe wAd i noe or duNNo...hAiz nO mOOd to bLog lArz iM goNe!!!

life suX!

4th and 5tH

2004-07-05T10:47:00.000+08:00

whAHAHa todae yOuTh dAe...toNiTe gReeCe vS portuGal haha...

afTer chuRcH wenT to sNk agAiN...wiF yeye...bUy clOtHes for yI gEge...hAhA...waH sO shioK mAn!go thErE eVeRy weEk hAhAha...den afTer dAt go hOme loRx...den hOr v fuNNi...jUx reaChEd hOmE oN com...mR scoTt-iE deAr caLLed mi...sO gO oUt loRx haha...

wRe did we gO?

wAtErFrOnT loRx...hAha As uSuAl loRx...nO wrE go iS liDat de lArz...siT thErE chAt, slAck, sLeeP, plAy, etC lARx...hAhA...den plAy lOck...whA lAo eH sAw so mAni mercs cAb, police car...civil def. haha so mAni...

at hOme siAnz liKe heLL aRhz!sO tIRed sLepT sO earli...hAha

miDniTe waKeY uP waTch tHe lASt 10 min oF tHe 1st hAlf tHe mAtch...haha den fEll aSlP agAin...yAy...grEEcE woN!!!

deN nOw? in sCh...dO duNNo wad...hOliDAe lehz!!!!stiLL hAv tO do woRkz siAnz liKe heLL arhz!!!

siAnz...

2004-07-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

teRrible man...afTer oBs sO muCh woRk hAb to cAtCh uP oN...soBz lA...eSpeCiAlli pW...cAnt stAnd...reaLLi cAnnot make it loRx...

wAh the raShes are mAking mi iTch liKe craZy...*scraTcH*

oHHyah yesTerDAe we went to OCS...sO mAni aH binG ge...got taLL, short, cuTe not so cuTe de haha...the plAce nOt bAd loRx...aLthOuGh i wEnt thErE beFore lE lA...mAke mi hAv tHe urge to join thEm man...haha mAyb can siGn oN...bUt den iTz not wAd i waNNa do in futUre...iT seeMZ fun aND gud bUt i think wHen we geT iN iT wUd bE v (to pOwer of infinity) toUgh...den i'LL die in thErE...haha...

oH yAh...i sAw gAbRieL but he nV see mI lehz...i oN bUs he oUt there walKin haha...and warM yAh...after dat we wenT to the shOppin centre thEre...iZziT caLLed jUroNg poinT?i forgot...haD mOS buRger for diNNer anD lUffed oUt loUd...yAh we sAw mS Ang anD bf haha...den we went to the oeT shOp to get bEv's haMstEr's fOOd anD lOOk at the pUppiEs...sO cuTe... =) tOO tRaiN bAck aND at oUtRaM we wre so ugenT TO pEe...we went out the station jux to pee and wAlked ard chiNAtOwn den go hoMe...

haha 8 plUs hOme le...buT was hanGinG oUt dwnStAirs for abT 2 hrs alMost 10 den go uP...he's tired so aM i...*yAwNz*

miSs oBs!!!!!

2004-06-26T19:49:00.000+08:00

sOa aND inStuctor keLviN

dAe 5 : yAy!!!cAn gEt bAck hP le...but a bit sAd to leAve the pLAce...

2004-06-26T19:21:00.000+08:00

coMmUniTy serVice : piCk up liTTer anD cleaN toiLet

lUcky iS cleaN the gAl's toilet dat pple seldOm uSe...haha nUttin to do so we wet the fLooR...deni pressed the shower anD ran oUt buT whu noez the shOot sPray oUtwards de...run le oSo no uSe i got myself weT...wAhlAo eH!i duNo i shUD lUff or cry mAn...

buT befOre dAt we plAyed a gAme...fun lehz den we went to the jettY to do our shAring...wah sO wiNDy...faLLin aSlP agAin haha...iTz realli nIce...shAre arh shAre got a bit bu se de to leave keLvin anD vaNessA...aLmoSt cry oUt mAn...soUnd so serioUS...

i missed hiM till mY tears drOp...

den we when to buy thinGz...wanNA buY a tAnk top bUt noT enUff moNey cuZ hav to buy pOlO tee for scOtt'S siStA...nVm bA...next tiMe see whu got go den ask theM hLp buy lorz...afTer dAt sIt there anD slAck agAin...caLLed scoTT but he sAe he's goiNg sCh...sobz caNt see hiM...hAiZ...anD den waiT and slAck we fiNAlli get to leave uBin...went to cOmpaSs pT to eat wiF 1s1 ppLe...gUd fOOd arHz...haha den went home waHlAo ehz fell aslp on the trAin...-_-" realli tired...aND everythingy seEmz to change a lot during the 5 daez whEn i not at hOme...

cAr aCcidenT hit the raiLingz spOil...at hOme mY biKe got stoLen~ nO woNder the coRriDoor lOOk sO diFF...thEre'S a biRd nest nest on mY neiGhBour's plAntz...so cuTe!!!jUz hAtched oNli mummY sAe...den i go bAthe AnD got ready to sLp...slP frm 5 pM tiLL next dAe 9 plUs...awAkeN bY scoTt'S mSg ard 8 plUS...but didnT hear hiS mSg at 10 plUS...den woke up aT 1 plUs aGAiN cuZ im iTchinG...den aPPly mediCation aNd comE online awhile check emAil anD wenT bAck to bed...

toDae, dae 1 afTer i left uBin, stiLL cANt see hiM...siAnz...but got chAt wif hiM online for a while loRx...deN i aCcoMpAny mUmmY go mAriNe pAraDe bUy stUffz...he diDnT send mi a mSg at aLL...soBz...

dAe 4 : Sea-x and the sOa suffers =(

2004-06-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

morning v tiRed arhz...den hAv to loAd stUffs inTo the boAt...anD go for kAyAkinG whOle dae...finAlli foUnd the wae to conTrOl tHe kAyAk in a proPer wAe...den dun nid to kAyAk too mUch extRA diStAnce haha...kAyAk kayAk...go inTo tHe "river" wah stinKy noe...den tired mAn...den kelVin cAme in a boAt...kenNA suAn agAin... "waHlAo sOA..." haha

den we got intO the swamPy aRea...stinkY, dirtY anD diSgUstIn tHe wAtEr iS blAck!!!wahLAo the worse thinG iS wEn hUie thRew mUd at mi...wah i dAmn mAd den...bUt nVm lArz...i apOlOgiSed anD he did tOO...den nO choiCe hAv to geT oUt oF the kAyAk anD walK...itz heLL mAn...tErriBle!so yUCkY...cuZ oF that i cuT awAe my freNshiP bAnd on my leg...aNd lJ stIll go anD tke mud pUt oN my fAce...i oSo goT pUt oN him afTer dAt lArz...haha den whEn mY tuRn to get dwn to the oThEr side lJ waNa pUt mUd on mi agAin...den i siAm and feLL...haha wenT dwn the wrong wAe not hIS fAuLt heeX...shOck hiM anD mingloNg oNli...got cuT...bUt miNOr lorz...

suPer tiReD arHz...why the river so long?!kAyAk untiL hAnd nUmb anD bliSteRed...at the bAck tired leHz haV to coNtrol kayAk and hlP padeL...finAlli kAyAk to an area whErE hAv to leAve the kAyAk agAin...bUt to cleaN water...waSh up abiT...ate lunCh anD oFF we go...wAh stiLL got aBt 1/3 of the jOuRney...i shAq le lArz...can duN pAdeL le mA?dYinG lE lEhz...deN sAw kelvin in a boAt agAin...anD keNNa "waHlAo soA..." agAin haha...waHlAo eh soA tired le lArz...y viNce duNNo how to conTroL?!

den finAlli can see oUt enD pt, cAmp 2 bUt stiLL suPer faR lehZ...mY hAnDz reaLLi wAnna droP le arhz...tired mAn...kiLL mi bA...den lJ they aLL went to a shore lOOk for DuriAnz haha...den he foUnd dead fiSh anD toLd keLviN...den kAyAk to mi "i hOpe u like fiSh..." den tHreW iT at mi!!!!!eEeeEEee...diSguStin leHz...thinK le oso haiR stAnd...haha den i threw the fish baCk into the sea anD tKe the watEr to cleaN mY hAnds anD legz...oMg...aRhhz!!!!!!haha

fiNAlli reaChed oUr destInATiON le!!!!den stIll hAv to waSh the mUd oFF the kAyAkz...whA i ratHer hAv lAnD-X...abt 8 hRs lehz!!!jiU miNg arhz!!!hunGry tired anD blAh...den wE unLoAd the pAckz from the boAt anD went bAck to the store den head to dAt niTe'x cAmo siTe...i pitChed a tenT wiF amiR anD viNce hElpin mi to hoLd...den went dWn to cleAn the lifeVestS...den go uP eaT...not bAd lArz diNner...my pOt is pOrriAge...dun care jUz eat den go dwn shower...waHlAo eh...got raShes!!!!!scArY leHz...bUt noT iTchY lehZ guess mY moSquiTo biTez more itcHy den cAnt feEl dAt one le...i bAthe sO lOng arhz...sCrUb anD waSh sO lOnG...den waSh mY cloThes...wAh damN diRty lehz...

afTeR batHinG den go hlP oUt in the sTore agAin...aND den siT there slAck a bit...eat pruNez haha and chAt...afTer all doNe, kelVin checKed den we gAtHer for shAring aGaiN...wAh tired lehz...keLvin tok i faLLin aSlp haha...den afYTer dAt i siT at one cornEr write my jOurnal and write a letTer to scOtt...bUt wAs reaLLi tired...write write wRite...feLL asLp...bUt cAnt leaVe there...mUz wait for chiAlINg...slp lehz...den eDden's wAtcH plAy truth or dare...sO siT there anD waTCh to kiP mYself aWake...den chiAling ok le...aSk for tOothpAste den tke le we go toiLet den at the same time kelviN cAme anD sAe the gUyz gAtherin iLLegaLLy haha...den afTer bruSh teeTh we wEnt baCk tO uPstAirs slP aWhile...in the miDdle of the nite we sHifted to beV'S cAmpsite...den i slp wif them in choNGtAk's tenT...nO one slPin wAd haha...waH yi jiAo dAo tian minG...6.45am den waKe uP...sUper lAtE hurri Jump oUtA tenT le...

dAe 3..."besT dae oF aLL"

2004-06-26T12:16:00.000+08:00

todAe we soRta hike to cAmp 1...caRry the bAckpAck heaVy bUt den ok laRz when iTz up thEre le haha...at caMp oNe sO ciVilISed!!!i wan stAy thErE...1sT we go ouTdOOr roC-cliMbinG...i wAS slackin dwN thErE bEfore my turN...aND keL ka jiAo mi...wAh wan mi to noe the nAmez of pple from mEgeLLa...suA wo!!!

den when i go clImb wif viNce, miNglONg belaY mi...mi climB riTe sIde more diff woR...plyus i sO short even more diFF...bUt itz wAs A woNderful exPerienCe...a time wre i learnt the mOst...pErsErVe aNd detErMinAtion fElt foR the 1st time...realLI alMost sHoUtEd to giv uP...tHx to miNgloNg dWn thEre aND the oThErs eNcoUrAginG mi...*tOuChEd* iF oNli mY loVe is thERe...hAiz...uPthErE mY legz weRe like shAkinG loRx...sO tiRed...1st time i see my pErSpiRatIon driP dwn liDAt mAn...waH...

"liVinGstOnE!!!" i've reaChEd the toP mAn! wOohOo!

den afTer dAt raiN...-_-" buT guD lAr aT leaSt cAn mEEt up wiF aNgLin, bReNdA, soNgYu afTer tHey go leFt chiAlIng, vinCenT, zHihoNg anD mi agAin...den we coNtiNue tOKin anD eat prUnes anD gEt intO the mOOd oF "dA biAn-inG" haha...they 3 mAnAgE to get it oUt bUt i stiLL caNNoT leHz... *siAnz 1/2*

den we pRoceEded to the TrIpOd...woRkiN thErE loRx...i belAyEd tHe gAlz haha...iT was fun man...1st stAtion...LJ, kel and vAnessA tHrew stoNez aT mi loRx...haha...den at 2nd stAtion i aLmost fall wahaha bUt diDnT pHew...aND they coNtInUe to thROw...3rd station...was a pIty i shUd go w/o hoLDing to the roPe and walk thrU...i walk so fast so sMooTh mAn...den keL pUll mY stRinG...waH...kennA stUck awhile den huRry walK thRu when LJ stiLL thRowing stOnes at mi...haha

aftEr dat i bElAyed the pple...haha and they stiLL contInue to buLLy the SoA...datz' mi!haha...tHrOw stonez....aiM mi...eveN vaNessA jOin in leHz...waH i sAve her a fEw timez dUrinG the groUnd pRaCtiCe...den she liDAt tReAt mi soBz...haha...sHe's the inStUctor SoA haha lJ aND kElvin oSo bUlly hEr De...heY heY...

toDae"S mEnU...inStanT nOOdlEz...i cOOk agAiN...haha niCez lehZ haha deN meT cHonGtAk they aLL wHA gUd mAn...at lAst chiAlIng get to see Bev...at niTe mEEt tHe inStrUctors aND briEf aBt dAe 4's sEa-X haha afTer the brieFinG, we pAcK oUr stuffz aND gOt bAc to CamP...sUPpoSed to sLp lArz...den sAmUel aNd aMir diDnt aND wAs ard the beaCh so i stAy wif tHem...tHey sAe theY sAw shOotin stAr...waHLAo i miSsed iT...den stAnd thEre waiT for chiAlInG tiLL v lOnG lehZ...so AmiR, sAm aND i went to exPLOre aRmsTroNg's caMp...nOboDy oSo...

wHen chOngtAk bAc...i aCc hIm go to the sch tHere duNNo do wAd i forGoT lArz...den sAw bev anD chiA agaiN...wahlAo eh...thEy two hUHz... -_-" haha left sHuzHen siTTin at one coRner...stiLL thinKin dAt beV in toilet...sO keLiAn arhz haha...den afTer dAt chiA and bEv left uS anD sHuZhen, cHonGTAk aND anOthEr guy, i think he iS nUri(duNNo how to spEll) siT aT a cornEr aND tok...deN, ZhonGyi, aNdy anD Jun nAn joiNed uS...den we plAy gAme loRX...aND sit anD tok...afTer dAt lUcern theY aLL aPpear aND they told gHoSt stories bUt we contiNue to tok aMong oUrselVez...nuRi left uS aND cAme bAck afTer dAt...he sAe sO sCary arHz haha...

In tHe miDdle oF the nite i think iS 3-4 am liDDat got inStruCtor so we left the plAce anD wenT bAck to cAmp...bUt we wenT to aRmstRonG's cAmp area...sOMewre oUtSide got oNe aRea we pUt pOnCho there anD coNtInued oUr tokijn sessioN...dAt time the ghoSt stOry tellin gUyz go baCk sLp anD chRiS joiN uS...tok alot oF stUffz aRhz...buT dArk sO cAn do nuTTin but tok anD tok...tok abT love...ouR moSt concerNed toPiC haha den until abT 4 plUs 5 i realli cant tke iT le sO i slP lorz...pArTly see the oThEr gUyz like so tired den kEnnA tHe tireD "flU"...den we all sLp loRx...in the oUtSiDe...wAh...coLd lehz...cUZ chONGtAk dat dAe den nOe i got mY lOve lE so he mAke mi tell hiM wAD hAppeNed loRx...den jUn nAn wHU hAppeNed to nOe sCoTt heaR le luFF lArz...waHlAo eh...listEn to wad we sAe...haha...den cHonGtak v fast fall aslP...10sec? i hAben even get intO a nICe pOsiTion cAn hear hiM sNore le...den jUn nAn aND i lUff...den fell aSlp le...untiL 6 liDAt waKe uP naD sAw meGellAn pple unpiTchin...den hAppen to see wiLLie sO i sAid i waNNA go toilet so he aCC mi loRx haha...bRusH teeth all tHAt aND sAt inthe toilet to tok to BEv...

oBs dAe 2

2004-06-26T11:27:00.001+08:00

dAe 2 "waH wAd iS SoA?"

wE diD tRust fall aND plAyed soMe gAmez...den learnt how to belAy...haha quite fuN lArz...den we went into the forested area to lOok for treez...abit lame larz bUt itz a lessOn learnt thoUgh...den suddenLi bEcome sOa...bLur lorz didnt noe wad iT meaNt...den found out onli on thurs dat itz "sUbject of aBuse" wahlao eh noT "aFfectiOn" haha

in thE forest arEa, we aRE blinDfolded to find the tRee...insecuRe lehz...buT den still manAged to do iT...but toOk sUper loNg time to find it...hAiz...aNd of cuz the intruCtOrz got more time to disTuRb uS laRz...

at nite we cOOked instanT nOodles...wAh sAlty for miNe...i didnT add wATer cuz i scared lAtEr too blenD...haha nvm lArz i like sAlty fOOD haha...den when to the open to slP...wAh sO diff to pItCh the tent there...go there at niTe oso scaRy...dat nite chiAlinG told mi dat she dun wanna slp bUt end uP sHe sLp earlier den mi...aND sLpt so soUndly....wahLAo eh...blUff mi oNli hUHZ~

iM stArTin to feeL inseCuRe...

2004-06-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

liVinGstOnE roX!

0bS......dAe 1 =)

2004-06-26T09:56:00.000+08:00

wAs lOokin foRwArd to oBs tiLL i mEet hiM...oNli toGeThEr for 4 dAez deN hAv to sPliT up foR 5 dAEz...soBz...iTz bEEn 1 enTiRE wEEk aND oNe dAe waH...nv hEar hIS voiCe for 5 dAez...soBz soBz...

dAe 1 "wah stiLL got 4 daez"

eArLi moRninG gO to sCh...boArD tHE bUS tO puNggOl jEttY anD wHEn we wErE thErE, we hav to wAit for tHE feRRy to cOme den coMez a gRp oF chiNa stUdEnTz...but gOt oNe inTrUctOr v cuTe!!in cAp anD shAdez...sO coOl arHz...hEEx...

we aRRiVed at caMp 2 den walKEd to tHe pArAde sQuAre. tOk n tOK thinKiNg thAt we wiLL be in the saME waTch buT enD uP aLL sPlItEd uP...waH lAo eH~ mUz be thEy jEaLoUs tHAt 1s1 uniTeD den waNA spLIt uS uP...i toRt dis waS a bOnDinG cAmp for uS? -_-" aND i enDed up wiF liVInGstOne...bEing tHE oNli gAl froM yjC aND wiF vinCenT As the onli oNe i nOe...bUt den we not clOSe de leHz...so equAl to nO comPAny aRhz...

den we plAy gAmez aNd inTRo oUrselves to the oThErz...we leart to piTched the tent(althouGh i nOe lArz) den into oUr weT cloThes anD oFF to the beaCh...to kAyAk!!!yAy!!!haha...pArTnEred wiF vinCenT and i sAt in froNt...den wHen we weRe suPPoSed to kAyAk to keLvin to pRaCtICe hOw to cApsiZe, i duNNo hOw he conTrol den wEnt to chiAlINg anD zHiHoNg'S wAtch, mAgeLLa (tinK iTz spelT diS wAe) waHlAo eH so mAlU...den stIll hAv to mA faN LJ(thEir watCh inStRuCtOR) to pUSh uS therE...den capSize lOrx...aFtEr dAt kelvin bRief uS and we sEt oFf to praCtice kAyAking...diS tiMe i siT at thE bAck...i nOe hOw to coNtRol wAdz...haha wHu ask mi gOt kAyAk bEfOrE...whAhAhAHa

oH yAh...den we sEt oFf and do oUr cApsiZin anD reScueinG...haha siAnz goTA caPSize agAin waIt for pple to sAve uS....*hElp!!!!* bUt den i nV resCue pPle lehZ...sUpposed to resCue sAmUel aND aMiR bUt den they duN wan den we oSo duN waN loRx...den duNNo dey got caPsize noTz...haha waH got jeLLyfiSh!!!scAry...in thE sEA for quitE soMe tiMe le den we go bAck loRX...put all thE kAyakz at oNe coRnEr le...we goT to the jEttY foR JETTY JUMP!!!waH lAo eH mY tURn sOOn le deN gO jEllYfiSh...kAoz!stUpiD leHz...den we canNOt juMp lE!!!iM goNNA revEnGe...i'LL eat tHem whEneVeR i gEt to mAn!!!eat them aLL!!!

bAc oN lAnd we pItch tenT anD do oUtdoOr cOOkin!!!yAy so loNg nv cOOk liDat lIAoz...2 yRz le bA...haha...cOOk cuRRy chiCkEn...waH keLvin pOuR evErYthinGy inSide!sTiR stiR stir...diNner dat niTe tErrIbLe...not cuZ his cOOkin suX lArz iDS we too hUnGry den imPATienT so we eat juZ liddAt wre hAlf the rice is stiLL unCooKed...haha end uP i eAt chiAlinG's diNNer...den bAThe anD go slP le...buT bEfore dat we atE pOtAtO chiPz haha i bring oNe!!!dat niTe i kiP waKin uP...noRmAl lArz...a bit oF soUnd i wAke up...den sO hoT!!!!!!!!mAcham sAuna!!!

i miSs him!!!!!so muCh...did he miSs mi AS muCh?

sObx

2004-06-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

in lEss than 12 hRs i'll bE at caMp liAoz...i miSs hiM... =( 2 dAez no sEe le...nExt 5 dAez oSo caNt see...sObx...nOw i rAtHer not gO...iF i cAn sPenD all tHe 5 dAez wiF hiM...anD thAt iS (24x5) hRz...

hMwK stiLL not finiSheD...dun feEl lIke doinG...

waH todAe's pApA's dAe...weNt to sAmUeL anD keLviN to get a tEE for hiM...hAhA tHe guy tHeRe lOOk sO fAmIliar...wre i sEe hiM b4 hUHz?senToSa?mY frEn's frEn oR diD i see hiM in mY dreamz?haha thinK tOO mUCh bUt i reAlli thinK i noe hiM loRx...

wAh iF oNli i goT aNoThEr wEek oF hoLiDAez mAn...

hUnnY...
i wiLL miSs yOu loTx...aNd u rMb to miSs mi oHh =p i lUrvE yA...*muAckiEz*

.......

2004-06-19T19:11:00.000+08:00

gUeSs yEsterdAe wAs my lAst dAe sEeing hiM beFore oBs...="(waH den i wUn see him for a wEek!!!

wAh tOdaE eArli morNinG kenna kPkB...wAD mOod oSo duN hAv...den hAv to gO pW...lUcKi stiLL cAn go oUt tOu tOu qi a while...iF not i thinK i suRe gO mAd...wAd a boriNg dAe...sTay at hOme sToNe, do woRk watCh bA hAo dAng pU...

i dO woRk untiL goNNa pUke liAoz arHz...den latEr stiLL hAv to gO joSePh's oNe yR oLd bDae ceLebRatioN.....-_-" wAdapiAnGz eHH...

i wiLL alWaez rMb 17/06

2004-06-18T12:25:00.000+08:00

mEt sO mAni of hiS freNz yeSterdae...tOOk the wrong bUs to eAst coAst and eNDed up at tHe mArinA bUs tErMinAl haha...waH on the wAe thErE kiP tiCkling mi agAin...dEn my hEaLing woUnd kEnnA AgaiN...wAh...bLooD!!!hEEx...pAin siAz...

...walked froM tHe bUs tErminAl to marinA bAy...haha not v far larz...v quiEt tHerE at tHe pArk thErE oHH...sO mAni coCoNuT tReEz haha...mAchAm gUD plAce for inDi fiLminG haha...gUd for mi...hE iS afRAid of bEing tiCkled tOO =) haha...

plAnEz fLew over...to pRaCtIce for nAtionAl dAe...bLAh blAh bLah...iTz a nICe plAcE thEre aND a niCe pUTing tOOk placE thErE wiF hiM =) haha alTHouGh iTz jUz aNoThER dAe oF slAcKin hEEx...

aT niTE we wEnt to faR eAst for diNner...tHe inDoNEsiAn fOOD thEre noT bAd woRz...haha

wah...

2004-06-16T13:16:00.000+08:00

yESTeRdAE WENT OuT WIf Px TheY All...WAtCh tHe dAe afTeR tMl...wAh niCe siAz...sTuPiD yE kiP drOppiN tHe stUpId pOpCorN oN mi kAOz!!!wAh waNNA eat yUki yAki bUt tHe ice-cream thinGy enD at 5 finiSh movIe oReAdi 7 pluS lE =(
den go sHoPpin...nuTtin to dO...wAlk ard see see lOOk lOok den AfTer dAt hE caMe to mEet mi...

waH sTupId pAt, kIp sAyIn mi anD ye mOre comPAtible...waD LOrX...SinCE iTz oVer nO point Being togetHEr agAin wAd riTez?aNiWae we aRE bEttEr as freN wAdz...pAt arh pAt...u hUhz...Next time u sAe i duN let u bE mY brideSmAid...haha

den we meeT le gO eAt roChoR dAo hUey haha...yUmmY...den went to plaY pOOl...wAh...lOst all to hiM yEstErDae... -_-" *peNgz" hAiz...soBz mAn...den he send mi hOme...agAin worZ...SCOTT!!!U GuD...kiP tiCkliN mi...bU hAo waN foR mi leHZ...haha nVm lA everyOne hAppi cAn le...HEex...hAiz wenT reAch hOme le sO bU se de tO pArT woRz...

chAt oN the pHone at nIte tiLL alMoSt 1 wahaha...den fall aslP dreAmiNg of hiM duNNo he got dreAm oF mi bO...

wAh so piSsed...stiLL canT find mY shirt...den wad man holidAez stiLL goTtA go bAck foR tRAiNinG -_-" mS liM gOt sAe hOliDaEz lEt uS resT de loRx...den stiLL nid go tRAinINg WTH lorx...hAiz...i v bU shuAnG lehz...kAoz

zZz

2004-06-15T11:37:00.000+08:00

siAnz...lASt niTey bReAk at eSplANADe...kAoz sO lOuSy le -_-" caNt evEn do my bABy frEeze pRoPErly mAn...doTx...feLL sO mAni tiMez dOinG mY aiR frEEzEz anD hAnDstAndZ... *ouCh* aND mY wiNDmiLL iS gOne! ="(

goinG oUt lAter...siAnz woR...iM deClAring bAnkruPt sOOn...

hEEx...abt mi...nuTtin to do...

2004-06-14T11:03:00.000+08:00

1. Sleep with or without clothes on?
wiF cloThEs oF cuZ...
2. Prefer black or blue pens?
bLAck
3. Dress up on Halloween?
nOpE...i coUlDnt fiNd a drAcuLA cApe...bUt i tRiEd oNce...iM an elF?
4. Like to travel?
oF cuZ...
5. Like someone?
yUpz...
6. Do they know?
yuPz
7. Sleep on your side?
hUHz wAd slP on my siDe?nuTTin...mY soFt toyz...
8. Think you're attractive?
nOpe...
9. Want to marry?
oF cUZ...
10. Who?
sOmeone i lOve a loT aNd wiLLin to spenT mY enTiRe lIfetIme wiF...
11. Are you a good student?
guEss noT...gEttiN woRse i pOn lessOnz...oMg...and i sUx in stUdiEs
12. Are you currently in a relationship?
nOt yEt...
13. Are you involved in sports?
yUpz...i plAy baSkEtbAll...weLL i plAy evErYtinGy...i tRy la...
14. Birthplace?
siNGapoRe =)
15. Christmas or Halloween?
cHriStMAS...=)
16.Colored or black-and-white photo?
cOloUred oF cuZ...buT blAck-anD-whiTe sOmetiMez oSo not bad...
17. Do long distance relationships work?
yEs...sHud be mAtUre enUff for it to woRk...iF not it jUz proOfz thAt tHe tWo aRnT meaNt to bE...diStAnCe shUdnT be a fActor dAt cAuSe aNy bREakUpz...
18. How u and ur family going on?
gReAt =)
19. Do you believe in God?
yUpz...im chRiStiAn =)
20. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yUpz...
21. Do you consider yourself the life of the
party?
as in Am i hAppenInG?gUeSs sO...
22. Do you drink?
yUpz...i love vOdkA raSpbErrY...
23. Do you have a car?
tOy cArs...haha i waNNA gEt a convertible...
24. Do you have a job?
nOpE...
25. Do you make fun of people?
yUpz...bUt selDoM...
26. Do you think dreams eventually come
true?
nOpe...not all
27. Fave thing to do?
slAck, dAnce, gO dAtIng, plAY bbAll
28. Fave breakfast food?
aMeriCaN bReAkFaSt! chiNAtOwN's gLutinOUs riCe for BreAkFaSt not bAd oSo...haha
29. Fave Candy?
nO iDeA...aLot yAh...
30. Fave Vacation spot?
cuRRenTlY hK, i love shOppiN aND aUstRAliA...i caN sEe my coUsiNz =)...bUt iM sUrE as i viSit more coUnTriEs i wiLL begiN to faLL in love wif all oF tHem
31. Favorite body part of the opposite sex:
eHH...eyEzb iS coUnTed as an body part yeaH?i like smAll eYez noe...haha noT tOO smAll lA...like chONgtAk oNe loRx haha...iF noT a coMfoRtABle shOuLder to leAn oN...haha
32. Favorite cartoon character?
cOnAn, eHHh aND i forgoT the resT haha
33. Go to the movies or rent?
movies...weLL i duN rent i bUy the vCd haha
34. Have you ever moved?
yUpz froM yiShUn to bOOnkEng
35. Have you ever stolen anything (from a
store)?
nOpE..."thoU shAlt not stEAL"
36. How's the weather right now?
ok lArz...a bit stUffy...iM mY brO'S rOOm wiNDow noT oPened aiR-coN noT oN...wAd do ya thinKz?
37. Hug or kiss?
i wAn bOth...hEEx...
38. Last person you talked to on the phone?
hEex sCott =Þ for 40 min 32 s haha im tHe miDdle of the niTe uSing hP
39. Last time you showered?
jUX now
40. Loud or soft music?
as iN tHe voLuMe?mEdiUm...i duN waNNa sPoiL my eArs
41. McDonalds or Burger King?
bUrGer kinG =) ]cHeeZestiCz, MusHRooM sWisS, oNioN rinGz[
42. More romantic; baths or showers?
bAtHs oF cuZ...
43. Night or day?
niTe
44. Number of Pillows?
2
45. Piano or guitar?
piAnO...

ÄnD i fiNa||i g3t t0 cYaŽ =)

2004-06-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

yEsterdAe hAd finaLLi pAst...miSsin hiM sO mUch...kEpt lOOkinG at the pIX oN mY hP...i think mY hP mUz be thinKiN iM crAzy le...oR i aM iN love wif iT hahA...]cRaPz[ weLL iT wAs sO swEet oF hiM to sAve hiS lAst bit of bAtt tO SenD mi a guDniTEy mSg...aND to sAe dAt he did miZ mi (~".~)

diZ morNing weNt to chUrcH and wAs waiTinG for hiM to caLL mi...bUt dAt gUy nO gO chuRcH...nOtti ohH...hEArd hiS sLpY voice on tHe pHoNe agAiNz haha...sLpinG at hOme!!!
(-(00)-)zZz hAhAz...bUddEn we stiLL went oUt...gO hArBouR fRoNt...diD nUttIn jUZ wAlkEd aRoUnd...

hE boUght a mOOD rinG...deN pLaYed pOol...loSt 2 gaMez...oHHh =( haha nVm i shAll wiN hiM nXt time hEEx...dEn we wEnt to pAstaMAniA foR fOOd...crEAmY chiCken *YuMmY* aND i atE tiRaMIsu...hAhA...dAt caREleSs bOi bOi evEn spiLLed hiS creAmy chICkeN sAuCe on hiS kU zi...hAhA...aftER dAt we weNt bAck to the ShoP wre hE got hiS mOOd rinG aND goT a hP aCceSsOry eAch...tHe piNk anD bluE crOSs...jUZ to leT hiM feEl sAfE for tOniTe'S niTe hiKE hAhA...cUZ he brOke hiS cRoSs on tHe neCklAce...oHHh =( dAtz sO wAstEd...thAt croSs sO niCe nOe...

hE'S lAtE!bUt we stiLL toOk oUr oWn sWeet tiME waLKiN bAcK...
wAh kiP tiCkLinG mi...iN tHe lIft evEn wOrsE...jIu ming arHz!!!
help!!!

weLL iM goNNa get iMmuNiTy for dAt mAn!caNnot lEt hiM hAv to mUch fuN tiCkling mi!

gUd bYe kiSs?!nAh dun giVe yA...haha...*eViL gRiN* hE wiLL get it whEn i nOe hiS weAkNeSs...hE's goNNa suFfeR aS lOnG aS i eXiSt oN eArTh mUAHAhAhA

2004-06-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

my dArliNg eDiSon =)

§n0w ƒ¤uNd ïN šÞßínG

im daMned

...

above all

uPdatin frm the past

itZ cha'S bDae todae!

wAd the f***

hMMm...im back fiNaLLi

wadz upz...doc...

wad the...

the past week

thiS week

oRientAtioN wEek sO bz

promise mi a wonderful future wif u

i dun wanna spend any christmas without u...dear

让我爱你(战神结尾曲)

=)

my kor's bdae todae

sweet lunch wor...

our 2nd date...6th dae

OuR 1St dAte...5th dae

o712 to 1o12

evEryoNe....iM So hAppi!!

damn bOred!!!

bAsKetbA|| cAmp!

chioNg mY dAte wif vAmpire 3

18th and 19th nOv

emotional dae...

itz been so long

iTz been a weeK arHz...datz lOng mAn~

dis is lOng mAnz...

meaningful arhz...

pRoJect worK suX big tiMe!

oHhh mY

finalli...

MY BOo

cheM kiLLed mi...i duN nid to kill mYself to die...

siAnz...headaChe arHz...

itz ms oNg's bdae~

i wiLL suRvive

AfRoDisiAc

depression...

i cut my hair again...

oPen hSe!!!

life sux!

haPpi bDae sOnGyU!

interim mOnDae...

im happi...

thx kor...

aRrGHhh diS poSt iS a piEcE of cRAp!

(horrible + terrible)x 2

zzz

sobz...i love u

i duno...

Now And Forever

sOb soBz...

slackEr's liFe~

toDae iS fOfo's bdAe!!!happi BdAe lAoGong! *muAcKz*

mS seaH siCk le!!!

FINaLLI oVer!!!

hey hey hey

hEEx...

miSsin fOfO

boxERCIsE

the kNot in mY heart

snowin in mi

national dae le...

i've got nuttin to sae >_<

i hate mi...

nDp...

im depressed...

i dun wanna noe...

truely...

do i hav a choice?

=S

...

and i love u so...

pls be by my side...

*shAttErEd*

i dun wanna pick pieces of my shattered heart

toDae iS fOfo's bdAe!!!happi BdAe lAoGong! muAcKz

shAttErEd