Friday, April 08, 2005

uPdatin frm the past

itZ been so loNg sinCe ive bLogged....mani thingyz hAppened in my liFe....i vaguely rmb each of them....

i can onli sae dis period of time ive been very busy can stressed up....everyting doesnt seened to go on smoothly....i dunno why...flunked my organic chem...and maths...barely scrape thru for my pHysiCz...mAn....life suX....

basketbAll is drainin all my energy...and wastin so much of my youTh...iT hAs coMe to an exTent that i dun think i can continue to love the sport....hav i plAyed too mUch and got sick of it? or isnt cuz of the training? i realli dunno....

im so tired.......im so stressed.....plus i dunno wad happened between my hubby and mi.....suddenly he tells mi our relationship is gettin from bad to worse....knowin the reasons last nite...i guessed itz realli my fault......mayb cuz im not stressed by my work and i m so tired from trgs....thrice a week.....everydae i onli get to go home after sunset...i realli had enuff of this i cant stand it animore......so much so dat i did things that hurt my darlin....without realising it.....i realli dun mean to....

no one understands how i feel....im so tied down by so mani commitments.....to the extent that im not doing good at anione of them.....my world is like tearin apart......im breakin down.....i dunno when dis nitemare will end cuz i dunno when itz my turn to get into woodbridge.....and remain mentally unsound~

i duno.....i get stressed up and worked up when i dun play well....hav i expect too much from myself? i realli dunno......everytime i go for trgin....i will get scolded by the stupid coach.....i dunno why he seems to be pickin on mi.....even if itz not mY fault.....even if itz my fault even if i did the wrong thing....he nid not scream and yell at mi wad.....his tone ish totally diff when itz other ppl.....or even if itz not my fault he will still put the blame on mi.....i realli wanna QUIT bball....i cant stand the face of the damn coach.....he ish so bias against mi and i dunno why.....mani a time i realli wanna tell ms lim that i dun wanna play in the competition animore....but i hav pple tell mi jux persevere for a little longer and it will be over....everytingy in there jux sucKz...

my academic results todae arent even good....and i realli worrie if i can make thru the a lvls this yr.....i did study for mi tests but i still dun understand why i cant do well for it to at least pass.....am i not the cut of such education system? i realli dunno.....it realli worries mi alot.....im so stressed up now.....i dunno wad wrong wif my bloody brain.....

also...dear and i had some probs....i dunno how it happen but dat realli affect mi a lot....ive been thinkin abt us dis 2 daez and i m realli troubled....come to think of it im realli not a gud galfren..... how wud a galfren hurt her boifren unknowingly? i shudnt vent my frustrations on him and try to be understandin cuz the both of us are going thru this very stressed and tired period of our lives...cuz its not jux him or mi going thru all these itz uS!!!!i jux pray for peace and wisdom man......lOOks like at dis period of time, before i break down, all i could do is to rely on GOd's strength.....

dear im realli sorri......

*xiaoxueren* blogged @ 23:17
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