i dunno wads wrong wif mi these daez...everyting seems to make mi upset ( of cuz except my dear lA) im beginning to feel dat im realli not the type whu can study well lor...although i manage to get into jc without difficulty...i dunno how i do it oso la...im beginning to doubt my abilities...at a point wre my morale ish realli ultra low...no matter how much i study my grades jux sux!dunno why...
oh well sth made mi happi n sad... we didnt get into the 2nd round for bball...but im happi cuz i dun nid to go for trg and now i got extra timeto study le =) another thingy that uPset mi is that we lost to acjc...i dunno why...my mAgiCal powers for 1st half of the match jux disappear after i went to the ladies during half time...den we lost.......den injured myself summore...dunno why the gal tried to snatch my ball den foul mi till i bang my head on the floor den headache aRhz...luCky free throw still got go in... =)
well dis morning i got scolded by mummy cuz of my result...they sux terribly...very streSs le...
FridAe... touGh dAe mAn...very tired le...den stiLL gota go for trg...siAnz...i got my pw resultz...2! gUd or bAd? okie la haha...den i during trg i was damn bored and suddenli bev shouted chubi gao wai yu...i was like okie...den seeing him behaving like so secretive...dun let bev hear his conversation on the phone...i began very pissed off...pluS the team got some gal i dun like den still hav to defend her...wahlAo even more siAnz...
on the wae back i was feelin better le...den i tot we will be going to his hse den he ended up wantin mi to go home...den i bu shuang again...i juX wanna acc him mah...den nvm la go home go home lorz no big deal...den we had a serious conversation at nite AGAIN~
but everything was okie le back to normal den the next dae we confirmed our date at adam's food centre...
e nxt dae... i packed my notes and stuFfz for the whole aftErnOon hAven pack finish hahaz...but nvm left those little unimpt stuffs that is on my table...very messy...haha okie nvm whne i was abt to leave home...dear sae dun go out 1st left the two of us n edden...but nvm la jux go ahead cuz cant stand le wanna eat stingray and kangkong!!!
so dear came over to my hse 1st den it began to rain and i went to get darlin whu was at the bus stop...the rain was super heavy dat my jeans was all wet!!!!!i jUx bathe lehz!no choice lor hav to go home change again...on the wae back...i still got wet lorz...althou the umBrella was so BIG!!!! -__-" penGz diAoz...
den we left home together for adam's roaD! woo hOO! ordered stingray, kAnGkOnG and soTonG...edden ate 3 bowls of rice!!!!!!waH! so yuMMy...den we left the plAce and dear n i went to town n edden to amk...
we waited so loNg for 171 lorz.....den ended uo dance at the buS stoP and singing oNe million green bottles hanging on the wall... oNe million green bottles hanging on the wall... when one green bottle happen to fall off there's nine hundred ninty nine thousand nine hundred and ninty-nine green bottles hangin on the wall haha...dancing on the streets...under the moonlight sing song summore haha so cute!!! den we go heerens to tke da tou tie!!!!haha so nice...den darlin send mi home....
todae! guYz n gals had their matches todae... guys vs cJc : 41-39 yeah babY! gals vs srJc : i dunno wad score but we lost...=(
disappoinTed la!hAiz...tml stiLL got chem test siaNz!gtA go le...i miss my dear!!!
above all powers above all kings above all nations and all created things above all wisdom and all the ways of man you were here before the world began above all kingdoms above all thrones above all wonders the world has ever known above all wealth and treasures of the earth there no way to measure whats your worth crucified laid behind the stone you live to die rejected and alone like a rose trampled on the ground u took the fall and thought of me above all (like a rose trampled on the groun u took the fall and thought of mi above all)
itZ been so loNg sinCe ive bLogged....mani thingyz hAppened in my liFe....i vaguely rmb each of them....
i can onli sae dis period of time ive been very busy can stressed up....everyting doesnt seened to go on smoothly....i dunno why...flunked my organic chem...and maths...barely scrape thru for my pHysiCz...mAn....life suX....
basketbAll is drainin all my energy...and wastin so much of my youTh...iT hAs coMe to an exTent that i dun think i can continue to love the sport....hav i plAyed too mUch and got sick of it? or isnt cuz of the training? i realli dunno....
im so tired.......im so stressed.....plus i dunno wad happened between my hubby and mi.....suddenly he tells mi our relationship is gettin from bad to worse....knowin the reasons last nite...i guessed itz realli my fault......mayb cuz im not stressed by my work and i m so tired from trgs....thrice a week.....everydae i onli get to go home after sunset...i realli had enuff of this i cant stand it animore......so much so dat i did things that hurt my darlin....without realising it.....i realli dun mean to....
no one understands how i feel....im so tied down by so mani commitments.....to the extent that im not doing good at anione of them.....my world is like tearin apart......im breakin down.....i dunno when dis nitemare will end cuz i dunno when itz my turn to get into woodbridge.....and remain mentally unsound~
i duno.....i get stressed up and worked up when i dun play well....hav i expect too much from myself? i realli dunno......everytime i go for trgin....i will get scolded by the stupid coach.....i dunno why he seems to be pickin on mi.....even if itz not mY fault.....even if itz my fault even if i did the wrong thing....he nid not scream and yell at mi wad.....his tone ish totally diff when itz other ppl.....or even if itz not my fault he will still put the blame on mi.....i realli wanna QUIT bball....i cant stand the face of the damn coach.....he ish so bias against mi and i dunno why.....mani a time i realli wanna tell ms lim that i dun wanna play in the competition animore....but i hav pple tell mi jux persevere for a little longer and it will be over....everytingy in there jux sucKz...
my academic results todae arent even good....and i realli worrie if i can make thru the a lvls this yr.....i did study for mi tests but i still dun understand why i cant do well for it to at least pass.....am i not the cut of such education system? i realli dunno.....it realli worries mi alot.....im so stressed up now.....i dunno wad wrong wif my bloody brain.....
also...dear and i had some probs....i dunno how it happen but dat realli affect mi a lot....ive been thinkin abt us dis 2 daez and i m realli troubled....come to think of it im realli not a gud galfren..... how wud a galfren hurt her boifren unknowingly? i shudnt vent my frustrations on him and try to be understandin cuz the both of us are going thru this very stressed and tired period of our lives...cuz its not jux him or mi going thru all these itz uS!!!!i jux pray for peace and wisdom man......lOOks like at dis period of time, before i break down, all i could do is to rely on GOd's strength.....
