todae watched white chics wif 1s1 pple haha...very funni!!!muz watch!!!i luff until pengz...very guD... 5 star moviE~ i wan new hp!!!!!!7610...my hp spoil le dunno why...the alarm dun work....sth wrong wif my mms oso...i cant send to email! -_-" im mOody...nuttin seems to be right...im shaq...i dunno wad im busy with...i onli noe dat ive wasted them awae...doing wad?why do i let my mood affect mi so much or shud it be i let my tots rule over mi?i feelin so useless and dumb!im so sad...i feel so silly!im heart broken...="( soBz...sobz yesterdae was healthy lifestyle dae for 1s1...played table tennis and badminton...c.M.i...i think i betta stiCk to dancing...but i still had fun...itz nice to hang out wif the 1s1 ppl...jux feels great hMmm mAyb i jux dun like to be alone bah...im afraid of loneliness...cuz it is when my thought will over rule my mind...i jux think too much...
i feel so sucky...realli bad...im jux plain jealous and i dun understand...
for a short moment itz spring in my life...
filled with beautiful colours and beautiful things
but now...itz once again the cold winter...
darkness everywhere...i ve got no destination...not even sure of the next step
so...everytingy was juz a dream...jux my wishful tots...my naive thinkin dat wad he said was wad he meant...
sadly it isnt...he wasnt serious
everythingy seems to change...well if he didnt mean all those stuffs he said...
how could he made it so real...
why he wanna offer mi a beautiful dream den smash it without a single trace
i dun wanna wake up...
knowin dat its all delusional...
one joke played twice...not funni
but wad he said was repeated...whether he mean it or not...i'll still believe
as long as he said it to mi...
anithing, everything...i'll trust that wad he said is the truth...
