Sunday, October 31, 2004
dis is lOng mAnz...
liKe a lot dAez no bLog le...got mah? duNno...haha
FriDae...we went to bren's hse for steamboAt....yUmMy yuMmy haha nice...long time no hav steamboAt le...esp when a alot of pple gather together eat...heex...and finalli i got to eat my mint iCe creAm...haha put v long le...siAnz arhz mYT dietin isnt going aniwre......dun seems to control myself =(
SatuRdae...went bAck to sch to do mAss dAnce wif Jason they aLL haha we uSed im gOOd...nice song from hoNey OST...haha...best arHz...den i go hOme and bAthe den go meet bev they all at orchard...took piC wif anglin and sHUzhen haha...not bAd quite nice...den we took a taxi down to debbie's church...den witnessed her baptizm...haha nice lehz the pool...so coolz...dats the diff wif a big church haha...den wafetr service, we went to Han's for diNner...actualli didnt realli wanna eat but mummy isnt cookin and she cant come out cuz of jOseph...den no choice...
Sundae....notti nooti mi didnt go church haha...i slpt at 2 am den forgot to set alarm...den i jux slp all the wae...pw larz...spent the whole nite doing it...sianz lor...den afternoon i went to Ce-yi's hSe do pw again...hAiz wanted to swim but den...cant arhz end so lAte...no sun suMmore... -_-"
des daez go home so lAtEz....hAiz...mummY nAggin againz~
blEahz......
Thursday, October 28, 2004
meaningful arhz...
as usual i had to do my sickening mt and pw...but after the pw period i pon the next chinese lesson to go out...initially my plan was to watch movie wif ct and go donate blood...but dunno how the calss chat and we decided to go for a movie together so i asked ct to join the clz instead...
i walked outa sch wif carol and enen den we met steff outside...although we knew each other this was the 1st dae we tok...okie datz not the point...so i went to douby ghaut to meet ct and enen and carol and steff wanted to go for a movie...but end up steff had to go home...cuz of some stuffs la...dunno den they watch wif bibi and jessica they all...
ct and i were in a hurry so we hurry to the food court and i wait for ct to finish his food den we rushed to outram...den we donate blood all that stuffs lor...one thing funnie was i didnt realli pay attention to wad the lady was askin mi...den she asked if i had sex in this 6 months so i wasnt sure wad she asked den answered wif a mmmmm....and she was like "how long have u been wif him" dat kind of oH mY goSh voiCe...den i realized the qnz den i quickly clarify...wah mAlu-ating siAz...
hEex i very happi lehz cuz i feel dat i did a gud thingy...although i pon sch...but i still happi lehz...hMmmm the blood doesnt seem to stop flowin itz haben stop since 2 polus 3 when the needle 1st poked into my veins...haha nvm la...oso wun die...happi arhz!
den ct and i had to rush down to sun plaza cuz we watchin show there...DOLL MASTER...run the outRAm link....waHdapiAnGz i alMoSt died mAn...realli louSy le...run so Slow den no stAmInA...die loRx...trg start le i will die de...haha...den i lock ct wif all the planes and helicopters...muahahaha
oHhh yAh DOLL mAster iS not bAd nOe...the story line i quiTe enjoY lOrx...bUt den not very scary lA....i was luFfin loRx...onli got shoCked once or twiCe muahAhha...i not scared lehz...hMMM i woNder if DOlls realli got souL...but oso nvm la...i dun play wif dolls le...when i was a little gal i oso dun have a lot of dolls...haha but i dunno why...i like those clowns attached to strings noe...although they look beri evil and scary...mayb i got some mental prob la...i think they very nice lehz...but i dun think i wanna own one...later realli got soul de den at nite move i will scared to death haha...hMmm...if u guYS go for story line...i rate it 4 stars...not bad...the gal actin as the doll doll oso quite pretty haha... =)
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
pRoJect worK suX big tiMe!
im jUx so siCk and tired of pw arhz i do until i damn pekchek lor....lucki all my troubles will end on mondae!waHhahahA....den i'll be free...wanted to swim todae de but cuz of the stupid pw i cant!damN!
well nuttin le...haha...yay...ive saved 30 bucks le muAhAha...got money buy present lohz~
Monday, October 25, 2004
oHhh mY
weLL ive been so relUctAnt to blOg cuZ i lAzy aRhz haha
oN sAt we when to celebrate bev's bdae...we've put in quite a lot effort arhz although its onli a dae's job but den...we were thinkin of how to make it an unforgetable one...haha
so on that dae chia and i met up and went to do all those preparation stuffs and all la...den at kbOx there dey stArt celebratin...actualli not much la jux singIng soNgz den let her tot dat her cake was onli a miserable brownie den i walked in wif a cake called choColate charlotte haha...well she didnt seems surprised...nvm hapi jiu hao...den we made her wear the dress we bought for her...haha nice siaz...
den we sing sing sing until the last 40 min or so we very high arhz...all stand up jump and jump the k box pple think we siaoz bah i guess haha...1st time see the pple scream and shout until lidatz...haha
at nite we met chubi, vince, weizheng and zhihong at newton circus to have dinner den went home after dat loH....
as for todae...iTz the stArT of pw and mt intensive wad piAngz c.m.i aRhz...i hate chInese so mUch den they giMme suCh proGrAmme...i wanna joiN bI and tAk dey all go out plAy!!! =(
no choice oso lA...hav to go thru de...den at 3 plus went to plAy bbAll loRx...until 7 plUS den go hOme...tiRed siAz...bAck le still mUz do my pw stUffs siAnz... hAiz...well i injUred myself during bbAll...cuz i kNock into hAoyi...haha itz mY fauLt lA....he didnt nOe i wanna goiNg to snAtCh the bAll from him le mAh sO turn den *bAnG!* haha den i neck pAinz... T.T
dAtz all folkS!
Friday, October 22, 2004
finalli...
dOtz...im writin dis for the 2nd time...dunno why the poSt didnT get pUbliSh...duNno why got error...-_-"
todae is the last paper...and im happi!!!cUz it mArkz the end of all the late nites i hav to go thru to study...and dey seems to be of no help cuz like no difference...got study oso like dunno lidatz...sobz...no choice too stupid le...
haha physics todae...wanna score a or b de!...haiz...dunno wad to sae arhz...i dunno how to do my paper 1 alot qnz oso anihow whack haha...i scared arhz....how how...i cant retain arhz...i wnap romote lehz but if i promote i scared i will hav a hard time but i realli dun care i jux wanna get promoted!haha
well after the paper...i went to town wif tak, cha and haoyi...tak and i went off to get the present we wanna get for bev and haoyi and cha go get wad cha wanna buy...cuz lidat we can save time...woah raining...mi and tak yu zhong man bu haha...no larz...normal speed...wre got so much time to romantique?haha den wan oso not wif him lor...he ming hua you zu de haha...we went to tke sticker photo very fun...den we met up wif cha and haoyi get the 2nd present for bev...haha nice shOppin aRhz...
sUrpRise sUrpRise...i lOok forwArd to tml aRhz...haha...
mi realli xian mu bev arhz...got so mani teng...esp her darlin cha...i oso wan...when is my prince charmin comin to sayangz mi...haiz...see her lidat i feel like i wanna be in love...but on the other side i wanna still wanna be single cuz i no nid to report to anione abt my xing zhong...haha singlehood rox!jux dat sometimes abit lonely...haha den see other galz got bf care and love them so much...see le will envy de wor...haha but i oso nt in a rush haha...still so young...play enuff den sae...haha
oHhh we went to stadium den bev showed mi a reebok top...nice lehz...so we decided to get it tml cuz im left wif 0 cents todae... =s nvm tml den buy...hahaz...
went home...i showed mummy the presents...and her rxn was...."stuDentz toDae arhz...so gou donG..." okie larz...i think not everytime lidat...and it doesnt happen for everyone oso mah...bev so close to mi of cuz mux treat her gud gud la...her bdae stuffs lehz...haha
muz start mY healthy lifestyle plan...gettin fatter des daez...haha canT stand......... >_<
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
MY BOo
"My Boo"
(feat. Alicia Keys)
[Usher intro:]
There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo
[Alicia intro:]
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
[Usher Verse:]
Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby
[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo
[Alicia Verse:]
Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby
[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo
[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo
[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo
[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
[Alicia & Usher:]
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
cheM kiLLed mi...i duN nid to kill mYself to die...
mondAe: chinese and mathz
mAthz sHud be can get sOme decent gRade bAh...chinese...as uSual de la...dun nid to tink so muCh but i think mY compo iS not written dat well...haiz...den my marks will be pulled dOwn further...hAiz...
tueSdAe: gP
quite okie but i didnt finish my aQ... =( duNNo jUx hope dat i can pAss den hApi le...haha
wedNesDae: ChemiStRy
i waNNa hAng myself...i tot i can like get a relatively gud grade when i do paper 1 but the damn pAper 2 kiLLed mi...im pissed...no mood arhz....i dun care physicz muz score...i still wan my 7610...
Friday, October 15, 2004
siAnz...headaChe arHz...
hMmmm...stRess....i cut mYself wif ruler todae...heez...nuttin better to do aRhz...too stRess le...
hEAdAchE arHz...i veri sTrESs iM not prepArEd for mY proMoz esP my mAthz...and physicz
-_____-"'
hEEc jUx back from bAsketball...went to sembAwang play wif bibi, ct, and sy and the pple there...oMg mY shOotin suX....the mOre i shoot the more weird...o_O
pple in mY clz realli stressed arz...tml is scott's bdae le...haha...ehhh like nuttin to do wif mi oso...but den he still my fren...nvm la...haha
i feel so useless...i missed him again todae...he is jux so irresistable when i see him play....but i noe i cant like him...cannot...haha...im not gonna like him...mux control...haha
Thursday, October 14, 2004
itz ms oNg's bdae~
hapi bdae to u
hapi bdae to u
hapi bdae to ms ong!
hapi bdae to u
haha i noe she cant see larz...but jux wanna celebrate heres...afTer maths lect our clz ran to her to sing her a bdae song...haha...den i found myself in the library le...whaha...hmmm i didnt fall aslp during gP!!! hahaha...gud lehz...haiz i was slackin yesterdae...slpt all the wae...dunno why the more i slp the more stress i becum...isnt it suppose to destress mi?! o_O
2 daez later will be scott's bdae...dunno wad to get for him...hMmm...and bev too...im saving up for her...haha scott...oHhh since he likes eEyore so mUchy get him something dat has eeyore shud be a gud idea ohH...haha...c how bah...mi under financial crisis...
hMMm during chem tutorial jux now bev and mi chat all the wae...1 hr sit there tok tok haha...so mani thingyz to chat...galz mah surely got lotas things to sae...moreover we all ish sistas lehz...of den she name mi all the pple having their bdaez on october...whaha so mani...consecutive bdaez for more than a week...wah...kong bu arhz...lucki my frenz not lidat de....if not can go siaoz arhz...haha
hMmm missed everyone in secondary sch...and chongtAk...and korkorz
(i can see the smile on his face when he see dis siaz...haha)
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
i wiLL suRvive
"I Will Survive"
At first I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive (hey-hey)
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
and now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll surviveI will survive
[x2]
AfRoDisiAc
AfRoDisiAc
[INTRO:]
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
[VERSE 1:]
Whatever you want, I got it, Papi
Don't hesitate, holla at me!
What I'm lookin' for
Is simple, you see
Love and support and sexuality
When I'm with you,
I don't wanna leave
I need you just like air that I breathe
But when I'm not with you,
I'm missing my peace
I got a lot inside I need to release
You fulfill my every desire
When I'm with you, you take me higher
(Wooo woo whoo)
[CHORUS:]
You're my afrodisiac
You're the only one I'm needin'
When I go, I'll come back
'Cause there is no way I'm leavin'
You're my afrodisiac
You're the only one I'm needin'
When I go, I'll come back
'Cause there is no way I'm leavin'
[VERSE 2:]
There is no way you are gettin' away
I need your love every day
Medicine can't cure the way that I feel
What I need is my inner fill
Being without you, its makin me ill
Stressin me out i need to chill
Something this strong, gotta be real
Nothing or noone, show my skills
You fulfill my every desire
When I'm with you, you take me higher
(Wooo woo whoo)
[CHORUS]
I admit that I'm a prisoner of your sex appeal(sex appeal)
I can't seem to find a way to escape how i feel(how i feel)
I can't wait no longer, please come give a dose to me(dose to me)
Breathin's gettin stronger need you now, close to me
[CHORUS x2]
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
depression...
im feelin sucky...i dunno why but i jux feel so bad in mi~ i dun wanna live...but i noe i mux...i nid to tke life positively but i dunno how...cuz all the sudden i jux felt that my world collapsed...and there is no one to hold it up for mi...
i guess there is some serious probLems wiTh mi...iM gettIn violent thEse daez...tryin to breaK the thingz i hOld in mY hAnds...guess itz strEss and i have got no idea how the hell i can let it all out...i feel like cuttin myself...i wanna try the pain...but my hse no proper penknife lehz...if buy a new one den waste money...buy le i guess i'll be holdin it and dun hav the courage to try...omg...wad am i thinkin!well this tot jux came by...its not cause i waNna kiLL mYseLf...oHhh ive yet to enjoy so mani thingz in diS world...i wUn die sO eaSily de...at leAst muz plAy finiSh tried wad i waNNa try do wAd i wanNa do den die...liDAt den without regrets mah...
dotz...i duNno wAd am i sAyin...im v tired...
jUX siCk and tired of life...or shud i sae life wif exsistance of exaMz?
.a.wound.i.inflicted.on.myself.gave.mi.a.scar.to.remind.mi.if.my.foolishness.
im.not.in.control.of.my.emotions
not.jux.dat.the.sight.of.u.reminds.mi.the.wae.u.hurt.mi
but.whenever.i.see.ur.smile
it.brightens.my.dae
winnin.the.duel.with.my.feelinz
since.i.ve.decided.to.forget
i.definitely.will
Saturday, October 09, 2004
i cut my hair again...
yesh~ mentalli unhappi...physicalli im happi...haha complicated...so i go cut my hair again...and now im hapi!!!i can spike my fringe!haha...
wah mummy alwaez make her hair very long de lehz....but nvm la...no choice oso...so i play wif eke...my nephew...haha so cute...den we go buy sweets that got colour de...den we play wif it...he realli so ke ai...kip wanting to scare pple wif his colour tongue and lipz... -____-" haha den so notti...make mi eat the jelly bean licorice de...wah i hate dat man...
did do anithingy yest haha...jux studied chem...when i reached home...showered and drop dead...so todae muz jiayou lo
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
oPen hSe!!!
yEstErdae wAs family dae...had dinner wif my family...my bro was there too...and his gf...haha...cuz dad nid to renew his membership at Jack's place so asked us all to be home earli den went for dinner...as usual...FIRE steak wahhAha...the braNdy...uLtimate mAn...hEez...i ate 3 escagots...yUmmY...but the oysters werent v freSh yesterDae...but still ate one la...haha...had 2 glasses of red wine...perfect haha...
hMmm yestErdae oSo iCe cream dae arhz earli morning eat ice cream in sch den evening ChingtAk bUy mi iCe Cream...at niTez at Jack's chOcolate iCe cream wif almond nut...share wif my bro...hEEx...bu fei de hua i happi till siaoz...but i manage to lose 1kg!haha...happi worz...
hMmm...oPen hSe...sch enDed earli for us to prepare for it...so we went out to Mac for lunch...v fuLL arhz...i skipped usher...haha didnt wanna hlp them so i hlped bren...hEEx...did do much oso i dunno wad to do oso jux chat wif the pple lorx....haha....den i went o play bball wif kim, bo en, jing guang, yeehao and samuel...wadapiangz i sux man....v long no play le realli C.M.i le... T_T haha...debbie, david, MaoMao and andrew came back haha so happi to see them missed them all!
den in the evening we sat near the basketball bench wif bren, zhen and lin...we macham siaoz...partly cuz didnt hav much to do la...or shud i sae nuttin to do...so we did all we could to entertain ourselves haha...realli like 4 siao za bor lehz... -_-"' nuttin to play even go and play wif water...wet wet
wah i sprain my ankle!PAINz!
and bren maDe the presentation v nice!haha gUd effort...I loVe yA! and of cUz i lOve 1s1!!! *muAckiEz to all in there...esp those v close to mi =) sMiez
Friday, October 01, 2004
life sux!
todae watched white chics wif 1s1 pple haha...very funni!!!muz watch!!!i luff until pengz...very guD... 5 star moviE~ i wan new hp!!!!!!7610...my hp spoil le dunno why...the alarm dun work....sth wrong wif my mms oso...i cant send to email! -_-"
im mOody...nuttin seems to be right...im shaq...i dunno wad im busy with...i onli noe dat ive wasted them awae...doing wad?why do i let my mood affect mi so much or shud it be i let my tots rule over mi?i feelin so useless and dumb!im so sad...i feel so silly!im heart broken...="( soBz...sobz
yesterdae was healthy lifestyle dae for 1s1...played table tennis and badminton...c.M.i...i think i betta stiCk to dancing...but i still had fun...itz nice to hang out wif the 1s1 ppl...jux feels great hMmm mAyb i jux dun like to be alone bah...im afraid of loneliness...cuz it is when my thought will over rule my mind...i jux think too much...
i feel so sucky...realli bad...im jux plain jealous and i dun understand...
for a short moment itz spring in my life...
filled with beautiful colours and beautiful things
but now...itz once again the cold winter...
darkness everywhere...i ve got no destination...not even sure of the next step
so...everytingy was juz a dream...jux my wishful tots...my naive thinkin dat wad he said was wad he meant...
sadly it isnt...he wasnt serious
everythingy seems to change...well if he didnt mean all those stuffs he said...
how could he made it so real...
why he wanna offer mi a beautiful dream den smash it without a single trace
i dun wanna wake up...
knowin dat its all delusional...
one joke played twice...not funni
but wad he said was repeated...whether he mean it or not...i'll still believe
as long as he said it to mi...
anithing, everything...i'll trust that wad he said is the truth...
but it doesnt seems to be, now
whu shud i trust?
can i even have trust in anione?
...dun think so...
i dunno who to ease the pain im going thru...
baby tell mi wad to do
