i duNno wAd hAppened recenTly...iTz like scott anD i arenT freNz aT all liDat...hMM didnT tok mUCh or shUD i sae at aLL...mayb iTz oso my fault bAh...i didnt wannA face him...i dunno wad to sae to him...i dun wanna love him but i cant hlp it...i jux look forward in seein him everydae...but one the other hand i noe dat its impossible for us to be together again...it jux makes mi so jealous to see him tokin to other galz noe...i dunno why...as long as he is tokin to a gal i would feel v unhappi...den poor zhongyi and chialing and carol hav to bear wif all my nonsense...sorri arh bRo...haha not i wanna zheng dui u but u too crappy until i cant stand den shoot ya...soRri la
todae after sch carol and i accompany zU en go cold storage buy ingredients to make eve's cake...so sweet lehz...although dey break le...but she still treat eve so gud...so sweet noe...if he liddat den gud le...but i noe that dae wun come de not even in my dreams man...i realli feel useless siaz...academically and emotionally...i alwaez tot that i wun so affect by a guy...so long le i still cant put the relationship down...now i noe how junwei felt...how my ex- z felt...im jux so sorri...
i jux wish i could end my life...one part of my life saes dat no matter wad i muz giv up scott but the other part of mi jux cant do it...he is a dead knot in mi...alwaez entangled in mi...cant be undone and i dun wanna undo it...am i v silly to wait for him liddat...knowin very very well dat its jux futile?if he were to come back to mi i would surely accept him de...cuz i jux lOve him so much...
yesterdae was a bad dae although i portrayed to be rather happi...but inside mi i was weepin...cant he jux come back and love mi?izzit so difficult?sobz...can i turn back the hands of time and alwaez remain in those daes spent wif him?i will do anyting as long as he return to my side lorx...sobz...jux tell mi wad i shud do...as long as its within my limits i wud definately do it de...
i wanna walk home wif u by my side...feel ur heartbeat as im in ur arms and feel ur lips again...sobz
I JUZ cANT sToP loVinG u...NO ONE cAn rEPLAcE uR PLaCE in mY hEArt...
