Saturday, July 17, 2004

do i hav a choice?

i've not slept well since the breakup...im suffering from missin u...sch and stress...and of cuz sadness too...the 1st ting dat came to my mind when u forwarded dat msg to mi was snow...not moon...itz rather true...cuz i love and miss u...

i stayed up last nite to study my chem for todae's tEst...bUt i guEss i wiLL stiLL faiL...iM jUx uSelesS larz...i cOuld uNderstanD evErythinGy...bUt i didnT hAv the time to dO the qUesTioNz i nOe...didnT hav eNuff time...sO soRRi...mS sEaH...i diDnT meAn to disapPoiNt u oVer and oVer again...afTer dAt wAs my chiNesE pAper...v tiRed...dUn hAv the coNcenTraTion to Do it...aND guess i'Ve wriTTen oUttA point for mY comPo tOo...hE ainT in sCh todAe...pOn tEst, pOn debAtE...duNNo...didnT mSg mi the wHole dAe...and iM feeLin sICk nOw...hEadAche, nAusea and sliGht fever...mAmA got tix to Ndp previEw...bUt go alOne...siAnz sO dun go lo...

u nOe...if we didnT sPliT...itz oUr 1st month anNiVersAry...weLL at firSt i wAs lOOking foRwaRd to it...bUt nOw iT reminds mi dAt iM frAgile inSiDe...mAyb yE wAs coRrect...i aint as sTrong as i seeMz to Be lorz...but Not dAt weaK riTez....haha

i remembered dat oN dis dAte...a moNth agO...we fell together den kiSsed for the 1st time anD u sAid "i love u".and held my hands startin the 1st dae of our relationship but 13 daez lAtEr u toLD mi wAD happened anD asKed for mY decisioN on whethEr we shOuld continUe notx...i was huRt...and i was afrAid dat i miGht be hurt iF we were to conTinue...sO i shOok mY hEad...tHe next secoNd i regReTted my decisiOn.....den u asked mi if i bear to let it end i shook my head agaiN...and we continued to be together...i was happi cuZ at least i feel wanTed...bUt sAd cuz iM not suRe whEn wiLL u sae dat we will end it...den in sch the next dae...i wasnt avoiding u...jux dat i wanted u to approach mi to tok to mi...but lOOks liKe we haD a miSunDerstaNDin...and i was depReSsed the whole dae...i criEd...

at nitE...i mSg u to askin, " do u stiLL love mi?"...u changed the toPiC saying dat u wiLL caLL mi lAtEr...i was glAd at leaSt u reMmeber u haD to caLL when u said u wiLL...bUt my heart wAs broken once agAin...we stArted too faSt anD u sAid iTz bEst if we diScontinUe for a period of timE...anD u stiLL didnT anS mY questIon...aftEr we spliT...i was having the hOpe dat u wiLL come bAck to mi...i knEw u wun...so i lied to mYself over and over again...i knew ur anS all along...i guEss dat nite...u told said dat we shud giv another try cuz i was crying...not cuz u realli wanted to...

things had happened so fast...one month ago u said u love mi...i was so happi u did...one month later i tell myself...dat u are not coming back to mi animore...life have to go on...the intentions of hurting myself was gone....once again...buT nO matter wAd...i wiLL stiLL love u...u will alwaez have a special place in my heart...even thouGh iTz onli a shOrt time dat we were togethEr...i muz thAnk u for giving mi wonderful memoRies...i love u...so im lettin u go...


*xiaoxueren* blogged @ 19:04
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