i dunno wads wrong wif mi these daez...everyting seems to make mi upset ( of cuz except my dear lA) im beginning to feel dat im realli not the type whu can study well lor...although i manage to get into jc without difficulty...i dunno how i do it oso la...im beginning to doubt my abilities...at a point wre my morale ish realli ultra low...no matter how much i study my grades jux sux!dunno why...
oh well sth made mi happi n sad... we didnt get into the 2nd round for bball...but im happi cuz i dun nid to go for trg and now i got extra timeto study le =) another thingy that uPset mi is that we lost to acjc...i dunno why...my mAgiCal powers for 1st half of the match jux disappear after i went to the ladies during half time...den we lost.......den injured myself summore...dunno why the gal tried to snatch my ball den foul mi till i bang my head on the floor den headache aRhz...luCky free throw still got go in... =)
well dis morning i got scolded by mummy cuz of my result...they sux terribly...very streSs le...
FridAe... touGh dAe mAn...very tired le...den stiLL gota go for trg...siAnz...i got my pw resultz...2! gUd or bAd? okie la haha...den i during trg i was damn bored and suddenli bev shouted chubi gao wai yu...i was like okie...den seeing him behaving like so secretive...dun let bev hear his conversation on the phone...i began very pissed off...pluS the team got some gal i dun like den still hav to defend her...wahlAo even more siAnz...
on the wae back i was feelin better le...den i tot we will be going to his hse den he ended up wantin mi to go home...den i bu shuang again...i juX wanna acc him mah...den nvm la go home go home lorz no big deal...den we had a serious conversation at nite AGAIN~
but everything was okie le back to normal den the next dae we confirmed our date at adam's food centre...
e nxt dae... i packed my notes and stuFfz for the whole aftErnOon hAven pack finish hahaz...but nvm left those little unimpt stuffs that is on my table...very messy...haha okie nvm whne i was abt to leave home...dear sae dun go out 1st left the two of us n edden...but nvm la jux go ahead cuz cant stand le wanna eat stingray and kangkong!!!
so dear came over to my hse 1st den it began to rain and i went to get darlin whu was at the bus stop...the rain was super heavy dat my jeans was all wet!!!!!i jUx bathe lehz!no choice lor hav to go home change again...on the wae back...i still got wet lorz...althou the umBrella was so BIG!!!! -__-" penGz diAoz...
den we left home together for adam's roaD! woo hOO! ordered stingray, kAnGkOnG and soTonG...edden ate 3 bowls of rice!!!!!!waH! so yuMMy...den we left the plAce and dear n i went to town n edden to amk...
we waited so loNg for 171 lorz.....den ended uo dance at the buS stoP and singing oNe million green bottles hanging on the wall... oNe million green bottles hanging on the wall... when one green bottle happen to fall off there's nine hundred ninty nine thousand nine hundred and ninty-nine green bottles hangin on the wall haha...dancing on the streets...under the moonlight sing song summore haha so cute!!! den we go heerens to tke da tou tie!!!!haha so nice...den darlin send mi home....
todae! guYz n gals had their matches todae... guys vs cJc : 41-39 yeah babY! gals vs srJc : i dunno wad score but we lost...=(
disappoinTed la!hAiz...tml stiLL got chem test siaNz!gtA go le...i miss my dear!!!
above all powers above all kings above all nations and all created things above all wisdom and all the ways of man you were here before the world began above all kingdoms above all thrones above all wonders the world has ever known above all wealth and treasures of the earth there no way to measure whats your worth crucified laid behind the stone you live to die rejected and alone like a rose trampled on the ground u took the fall and thought of me above all (like a rose trampled on the groun u took the fall and thought of mi above all)
itZ been so loNg sinCe ive bLogged....mani thingyz hAppened in my liFe....i vaguely rmb each of them....
i can onli sae dis period of time ive been very busy can stressed up....everyting doesnt seened to go on smoothly....i dunno why...flunked my organic chem...and maths...barely scrape thru for my pHysiCz...mAn....life suX....
basketbAll is drainin all my energy...and wastin so much of my youTh...iT hAs coMe to an exTent that i dun think i can continue to love the sport....hav i plAyed too mUch and got sick of it? or isnt cuz of the training? i realli dunno....
im so tired.......im so stressed.....plus i dunno wad happened between my hubby and mi.....suddenly he tells mi our relationship is gettin from bad to worse....knowin the reasons last nite...i guessed itz realli my fault......mayb cuz im not stressed by my work and i m so tired from trgs....thrice a week.....everydae i onli get to go home after sunset...i realli had enuff of this i cant stand it animore......so much so dat i did things that hurt my darlin....without realising it.....i realli dun mean to....
no one understands how i feel....im so tied down by so mani commitments.....to the extent that im not doing good at anione of them.....my world is like tearin apart......im breakin down.....i dunno when dis nitemare will end cuz i dunno when itz my turn to get into woodbridge.....and remain mentally unsound~
i duno.....i get stressed up and worked up when i dun play well....hav i expect too much from myself? i realli dunno......everytime i go for trgin....i will get scolded by the stupid coach.....i dunno why he seems to be pickin on mi.....even if itz not mY fault.....even if itz my fault even if i did the wrong thing....he nid not scream and yell at mi wad.....his tone ish totally diff when itz other ppl.....or even if itz not my fault he will still put the blame on mi.....i realli wanna QUIT bball....i cant stand the face of the damn coach.....he ish so bias against mi and i dunno why.....mani a time i realli wanna tell ms lim that i dun wanna play in the competition animore....but i hav pple tell mi jux persevere for a little longer and it will be over....everytingy in there jux sucKz...
my academic results todae arent even good....and i realli worrie if i can make thru the a lvls this yr.....i did study for mi tests but i still dun understand why i cant do well for it to at least pass.....am i not the cut of such education system? i realli dunno.....it realli worries mi alot.....im so stressed up now.....i dunno wad wrong wif my bloody brain.....
also...dear and i had some probs....i dunno how it happen but dat realli affect mi a lot....ive been thinkin abt us dis 2 daez and i m realli troubled....come to think of it im realli not a gud galfren..... how wud a galfren hurt her boifren unknowingly? i shudnt vent my frustrations on him and try to be understandin cuz the both of us are going thru this very stressed and tired period of our lives...cuz its not jux him or mi going thru all these itz uS!!!!i jux pray for peace and wisdom man......lOOks like at dis period of time, before i break down, all i could do is to rely on GOd's strength.....
earli in the morniNg...(yEstErDAE)...woke up and went to rJc to waTch dear plAy frenLy....waH walK sUPer lOnG from the bUS stOp aRhz cuZ the rI siDe gAtE not oPen...nVm when i reaCh i wAs lIke lost and didnt nOe wre to go cUZ the sch wAs like suPer big oSo lorz...and new!very nice aRhz...riCh sch!so i caLLed dear he didnt piCk uP den i call mR woNg den he sae come out to drive mi in cuZ iTz rAininG...so i wait lOrx...wAh wait very loNg lehz...den i waLk along roAd den sAw diS rJ student den ask him wre iS the baLL court den...i walK walk walk...den called dear he ask mi dun mOve...go bAck to wre i was...but den at thAt time i oready saw the bbAllerz in the canteen haha...
den i hAd breAkfaSt in the cAnteeN...wAh super ex aRhz sAndWiCh aNd a fresh miLk 2 buCkz plUs oreAdi...bUt the sAndWiCh not bAd lA...den they rain stop le we when to the court...
guyz wArm up anglin and i walK aRoUnd and tok....hEez...
gUyz mAtch le...plAy plAy plAy...coAch kiP nAggin....kAoz sAe my darlin nOt gud...den he didnt get to pLAy mUch~ buT we stiLL woN!!!! 59-39 not a bAd score...hEEz...
we won le bUt the gUyz stiLL wannA plAy den coAch ask for a extRa perioD...so play till quiTe late lA...den we took a tAxi hOMe wif pApA zhiHoNg and wei Zheng...
go hOme bathe le orh orh...den took a tAxi to orchaRd to bUt giFtS...boXers for cHoNgTak, pUzzle and gAme for chA...and got carol de oso...haha...
den we headed to mAriNA for stReAmBoAt...oVEr thErE got lIve seafOOd den hAd to clean the craBz oUrSelves...eeeeeee i duN dAre to pUll the sHell from the craB cuZ it was stiLL moving like so cRuEl lidat lehz...den the unCle help den i do the cleanIng insiDe lorz...den bev cleaN the pRaWnz (liVe oSo) den she pUt wateR and the prawn juMp oUt of the coNtAinEr.......haha...
everythingy was done den we go cOOk lorz...den coOk prawnz lehz...they were stiLL alOve when we pUt into the soUp and hot plAte den u see them stRuGGlin wAh i felt so cruEl...they shUdnt be treated diS wae lorz...imAgiNe someoNe were to pUt us into boiLing watEr and hOt platE and let u diE as u get cOOked....terriBle!
bUT the diNner wAs still very niCe aftEr diNner we went to ciNe for ddr den i go hOMe le...dear accompAnY mi at my hSe till 11 plUS and took a tAxi hOme...sPent lotz of monEy on tAxi todae...
todae iSh chA'S offiCiAl bDae!
hAppI bDae to u hAppie bdae to u happie bDae to chiA linG hApi bdaE to u!!!!
diS evening the progRammE ish to waTch anthoNy and cleOpAtra in sch! =) nAsh iSh aNthonY toniTE haha...
iM sO bLoodY uPset... siMply cuZ i loSt mY wAllet...alThOu i wAs dAmn lUcky to nOt hav my iC in thErE, bUt wAd the heLL i loSt 80 buCkz!f**K the aSshOle whu tooK mY wAllet and did not retUrn mAn!...i curse dat aSs to be as desPo for moNey FOREVER and for all hiS genERationZ!!!cuRse dat wheNever dat fella hAv a siNgle bit of cAsh his/her( thou i feel dat itz goTTa be a blAngla man!) waLLet woUld be lOSt and let him feel the pAiN of lOSiNg a wAllet!!!!daMn hiM daMN hiS familY in hiS whole faMiLy tree!!!esP the paReNtz...nV tEach thEir sOn proPerlY!iF they cant teach hiM well den why giv birth to hiM to waSte food and resourcEs?!
okIe i nOe i soUnd daMn meaN but wAd the hell lOrz iM sAd aNd piSsed!!!piSsed oFF tOtAlly!!!
oH greAt stupId iDiot u did very well in make mi uPset...dun let mi noe whu the heck ur!or i'LL riP aPaRt!!!!!irritAtinG freaKin aSshOle!<----piEcE of shiT!!!! u cAuSed mi to feel upset the whOle dae u cauSed mi to waste mY teaRS!my waLLet bEttA be reTurnEd or be prepAred tO get real desPO for money!!!!bLoodY f***ker!!
pS. sOrri gUyz...but iM realli...hAi u shouLd nOe...i realli niD to let ouT~
vAlentiNe's dae... well i noe iT hAd been over for so loNg...liKe 1week? but nvm la... well my seXy baby hAd been siCk for quiTe a few dAez and that pAst few daez i had been going to hiS hse to accOmpAny hiM And take care of him...well pArtLy cuz i need to see him haha mIss hIm too mUch mAh no choiCe larz...sO sAdlY...we cant go out on vAleNtiNe's dAe for our romATiqUe celebratiON...sO nvm we stiLL enJoyed oUrselves very mUch stAyin at hoMe...well not my hOme of cuZ...we did our oWn cOokin...well actualli darlIn didnt cook haha...i did...he juX helPed out heres anD tHeRe...we hAd fuSulli for diNner...wiF white creme muShroOm sAuce and bAcon... caNdlEliTe diNner? YES!!! cUZ i mAde hIm a cAnDle pLAte to hoLd canDles wHy?! cUZ we intenD to go to esplAnAde wif out pAcked dinner, sit bY the bAy aNd enjoY the breeze and each other's coMpAny and i wanted caNDleliTe dinner so daTz wre i got the iDea frm...
so dAt nite we lited the candles and hAd oUr diNNer in the roOm wre we coUld haV oUr private coNversatioNs and time spent together and most imPtlY the rm is dark haha (dun nid think so mUCh if the rm isnt dark lite candle oso not romantique) after dinner we snUgGle in bed chatTin and all...and fell aslp together...
haha...well thou our 1st valentine wasnt one dat iS spent at a restAurant wif delicious food and romAntIque aMbience...nor wre there soothin music...but i certainly did enJoyed myself...well at least the dinner i cook was yummy too...dun believe ask my darlin...well...a valenTine like dat ish more special den anione else's withoUt us spendin too much muNny...and i believe not many coupLes would spend their 1st vdae lidat...so iTz memorable! haha...mUAckzz to mY sweetest huBbY!
well before vdae...i went to chen laoshi's hse on saturdae...hiS baby iSh so cute!!!haha...and we played a very fun board game tat requires teamwork to complete and we are the 1st team dat lAoShi had seen to comPlete the mission in 30 mins!!!haha...oH yA...lAoShi's red bean sOuP wAs yuMMy!haha...too bAd didnt get to see my shi mu...
den after dat i meet sHuzhen at comPass poinT to bUy some stUffz to mAke cOOkies for dear on vdae...but we met on the lrt instead!haha wad a coincidence...so we went shoppin together and den go edden's hse...and we walked one big round before reachin his place! -_-" he even saw uS but he didnt call us...hAiz...nvm doH den we plAy and hAv diNner at hIs hse so fuLL! den dear came le... =) yAy mY bAby hiS fiNAlli here...biG hugz...and pei him hAv hiS diNner lorz...den at nite he went to kAnGli's hSe to stAy over...
well i was quite uPset dat he didnt even realise that i msged him 1 hr late...so bz gamblin...argHhh...oNe whole hr lorz...hAiz dun wan tok abt it... but den dat stUPid darlin...dunno why when i upset den he can still cheer him up jux lidat de lehz so irritating...and the most irritatin part ish he still managed to do it whren he dun even noe wad im upset abt...... -_-"
well faSt forward again...... yestErDAe yJ hAd oUr bAzAar again... and dis yr s1 pple r sellin drinks, strawberries and banana coated wif chocolate condense milk...and of cuz our bball game!well it was a success! and i had a bz dear going around askin pple to buy our food and drinkz...haha and the strawberries were big and yuMmy!!!!haha...den in the evening when we can leave sch le...dear and i had my dinner at Bk...when we entered there was dis auntie creatin a scene there...and suddenli u hear "F*** u!" wow wad a word to sae to a men...didnt noe wad caused the quarrel so dun care and jux carry on buyin food lorx...
den eat eat eat den the auntie was like shoutin again...dunno wadz happening den the manager come out den dunno wre her husband pop out den dis auntie had a set meal served to her...wah free food!!!create a scene and get free food.....
den when everyting ish settled.....ke ai de mS ong walKed in haha...she so cute den got mS ng and mS lee den mr nG...so we finished our dinner den sae bye bye den saw mS lydia lim outside...with her bf haha...den dear walked him to he bus stop and i went home...
todae nuttin much onli dat i missed my dear alot and i went oUt wif my auNts in the aFternOon...we were like awlkin ard aimLessly...haiz...walk here walk there for so long end walk back to mArche to hAv our dinner...yuMMy doH... and very fuLL haha...den after we paid and left mArche there's dis weddin bouTique oPpoSite the exit...dat gown and disPlAy iS gorGeouS!!!!!wana wear lehz...dear....i wan wear dat gown!!! haha...
